Hope this feeling stays

This weekend I’ve been feeling very motivated. I did wedding crafts with a friend and we got so much done! We even were able to sneak in a nail appointment and she made me get back on tik tok LOL. Honestly though, learning those dances is a work out.

Speaking of which, I started adding in little workouts to my schedule these past few days. Nothing intense, but I do want to lose some weight/gain some muscle over the next few months so I’m going to be watching what I’m eating more and making sure I’m getting active!

Today I got a lot done around the house, and my friend came by to pick up a project that my other friend and I collaborated on for her! The best part was when she sent me the money on Venmo, I realized I never transferred previous money to my account so I ended up having an extra $100 I didn’t know I had (which will definitely help for this upcoming tattoo appointment in a couple weeks).

Anyways, I’m really trying to keep myself motivated and keep my head up! I have to start dedicating time to myself and my health, now that I’m finally feeling better!

More labs and a CT scan later

Still no answers. I look healthy as a horse, and am very much NOT pregnant as I have already known, but there’s still no answer as to why I’ve had all of these symptoms, including vomiting everyday (yes, today as well) for the past five days.

This morning I had some spotting and a constant ache on my right side/lower back. I decided to finally listen to my friends and go to the hospital for some testing just due to all of the other symptoms I’ve had. I had a urine and blood test immediately and was taken back to a room shortly after. The Dr. came in and said she wanted to do a CT due to the pain I was having,

I was in the hospital for about four hours total; this was my first time having a CT scan and I did not like it very much. When they had to push the contrast dye into the IV I felt so nauseated I thought I was going to throw up and pass out in that machine. Luckily that was not the case, and the results came back pretty quickly showing no abnormalities.

The Dr. sent me home with some zofran for nausea and told me they’d send my blood out for a thyroid test, but other than that they had no answers. I was very upset, but I didn’t let her know that. I just cried once I left and got to the car. It’s just so frustrating not knowing what’s wrong, but not only that, I now feel like I do know the answer: it’s me. I’m so stressed and anxious that I make myself physically ill. It’s happening again, even though mentally I don’t even feel as stressed as I have been.

To be fair, I don’t know 100% if that’s the case and it could also be terrible PMS at this point, but I truly feel defeated at this point. I’m just going to rest and go to work tomorrow with my nausea medication and move on with life.