Monday AM

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Woke up a bit anxious, but not entirely sure why. Sometimes a full moon can make you restless, so maybe I’m just sensitive to that. There has been some freezing drizzle and mist so I know I need to be extra careful driving this morning, maybe my body knew that was happening? Who knows LOL but I am headed out to work here in a few. Hope everyone is safe and has a good Monday!

Hello February

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Today is the start of a new month, and it also happens to be Sunday, and we have a full moon! This feels like a few different fresh beginnings and I am here for it!

Yesterday was so much fun! I loved catching up with my friend at starbucks, and I also loved hanging with my other friends doing diamond by number crafts! The canvases look hella intimidating at first, and honestly I am nowhere near done, but once you start doing it, it’s so easy to just get into flow state and keep going!

We had run to the dollar store before starting our crafts to grab little plastic organizers for our diamonds/beads, and we happened to find tiny keychain versions of diamond by numbers! We ended up each picking out one and my friend grabbed one for her daughter, as well as another small paint by number and we had a successful trip!

Today I’m catching up with my high school BFF at breakfast and I’m so excited to see her and enjoy a delicious omelette! She’s pregnant and her baby shower is a month away so I’m super happy for her and can’t wait to hear about how everything is going!

Later on my husband will go to his parents house for family dinner, and some point before or after that I will need to touch up his hair (I retwist his locs and I definitely skipped last weekend). I just feel like today is going to be a great day, and I’m just feeling so very blessed.

Saturday 1/31

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Had a coffee date with a friend this morning! It was nice to catch up and enjoy starbucks inside! My husband and I just picked up groceries and I’m gonna head over to another friend’s house in an hour or so to hang out! Tomorrow I’ll also be catching up with another friend so I am just filling my cup with connection and fun this weekend! This is much needed after all the stress of January, so I’m praying it’ll be a nice reset and way to start off February!

FriYay

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My phone literally just changed to night mode as I was typing this which makes zero sense because it’s barely after 12:00pm LOL! I’m working a short day today and going home to chill with my husband who took the day off! I brought my water and Poppi with me to work this AM to avoid spending any money- let’s see what today brings!

Thursday AM

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It’s 0 degrees outside. On the plus side, the sun is rising and I got to see some pink clouds/sky on the way into work today. I also have a nice coffee for today that I will savor since tomorrow I’m going to participate in the nationwide “ice out” and not buy a thing! I’m also going to take the entire day off social media too, because I just need a damn reset and it feels like it should be part of the revolution to me lol!

Tuesday Thoughts

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I’m overstimulated by social media right now, but can’t seem to turn away. I know my brain needs some rest though, I am going to put my phone down after this post.

I saw that Friday January 30th there is a nationwide “ice out,” where we don’t buy anything at all, and don’t go to work or school. I will go to work since I work in healthcare, but I’ll gladly skip the Dunkin’ line in the AM. I’ll grab groceries on Saturday and I just filled up my gas tank! I think it’s smart to show these huge corrupt corporations and our government how much control we do have.

I also think it would be a good idea to boycott social media that day too- I will be at least. I think it will be great to have a reset, and I imagine as a collective it could be powerful. I’m not religious, but I am spiritual, and the idea of people all sitting in collective mediation / stillness / prayer sounds incredibly powerful.

Regardless of if it’s in a collective group or not, I will continue to keep the faith and pray that love and truth will always prevail. Although I am not religious, I do find the serenity prayer to be quite comforting. I’ll hold onto that at this time, and I am sending love to all those who need a little extra.

Monday AM: Grateful

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I’m grateful I woke up in a warm bed next to the love of my life this morning.

I’m grateful that I can afford to treat myself to a coffee this morning.

I’m grateful I have a job to go to that, although it can be stressful at times, it funds my life and allows me to pay my bills.

I’m grateful for hot coffee on a freezing cold day.

I’m grateful for my “chill” playlist, as it will keep me grounded in my work today.

I’m grateful for empathetic, passionate people.

Sunday: Soft Girl Revolution

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Some humans are caring, compassionate and kind, while (unfortunately) others lack empathy and fail to have any moral compass. The human mind is the most complex organ to exist; it has the capacity to have one believing that they themselves are “God,” while others feel so low, feeling like they are the scum of the Earth. The thing about the brain that is so wild is that whatever you believe, your brain will do everything in it’s power to confirm that belief. This miraculous organ will find evidence in your every day life to confirm whatever it is that you are focusing your energy on.

Being in America right now, there is a lot of unrest. With masked ICE agents detaining and murdering innocent people, it is extremely hard to trust any sort of government or media, but what we can trust is our intuition: none of this is right. Humans do not deserve to be ripped away from their families. Humans do not deserve to be murdered for standing up for what they believe in. Humans do not deserve to have their food, environments or algorithms poisoned with sickening, artificial sh*t. The heaviness of it all is too much for one person to hold; if we can come together with love and compassion, I believe we can see change- but it is also important that we are taking care of ourselves.

With everything going around on social media, please remember that you can be informed without having to watch the videos of people getting murdered. Yes, there are people who were there to witness it, and we are privileged to have not been there to see it, but constantly consuming this content is not helpful to our brain health. We need our brains functioning well to fight this fight, and the media knows how easy it is to keep people in an angry, fear loop. Our anger can be our friend, as it shows us where boundaries are crossed, but it also is important that we take action and make decisions with clear minds, as this is our future we are fighting for. During these times, it is important to take breaks from social media and spend quality time within your own family and community. Spreading love will do much more than the constant consuming of horrific content.

On a more “woo woo” note, astrologers have been saying that right now is the age of revolution; the last time that Pluto was in the sign of Aquarius was during the American Revolution and the French Revolution. Since Pluto has sat her happy ass back in the sign of Aquarius, it just may be time for some much needed existential shifts. I personally envision a world where people do care for people, the government minds it’s own business other than working for the people, and we have more transparency and control over where our money is going. We pay our taxes because it is illegal if we don’t, yet major government entities haven’t passed their budget audits in years, we have millions of dollars for war, our groceries are full of poison, and we are funding masked murderers in our streets? Does anyone really want this?

When we break it down, this is not about Republican vs. Democrat or Red. vs. Blue or whatever divide it is that the media is trying to sell you: this is about humanity vs. corruption. None of us want to be funding our own deaths. None of us want to be working two jobs in order to barely have enough money to put our artificial groceries on the table. None of us want to live in fear that our medication prices will suddenly sky-rocket to a point where we cannot afford to take them. None of us want to avoid medical care because we are fearful of the amount of medical debt we will accrue. None of us want to see families get ripped apart by masked, unidentified “law enforcement.” None of us want to pay more attention to screen than our own families, friends and loved ones. None of us want to live in a constant state of fear and anger, and none of us deserve it.

I am not a teacher, nor a scientist. I am not a congressman, nor a judge. I am not a policeman, nor an FBI agent. I am not a governor, nor am I on any board of anything. I am not an influencer, nor am I a celebrity. I am not someone who is known: I am just like you. I am a human being who is upset and overwhelmed by the state of the world just looking for some way to connect and create authentic conversation. Humans are the most complex, resilient beings, and although I do often feel “too soft for all of it,” I do know that I cannot remain silent/complacent as I am not in agreeance with what is happening. Like the great Martin Luther King Jr, said: “There comes a time when one must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular, but he must take it because conscience tells him it is right.”

So to all my softies who struggle when it comes to going to protests and interacting with social media, just know that you can still make a difference. Even if it just means taking time to write and reflect about what is happening, or it’s starting to research when the local primaries are and who is on the ballots, that is enough. Focusing on your local communities, even your own home, is where revolutions can start. We are in a country built on moving fast, getting money, and hustling our lives away, but that is not in our nature as mammals. I think it is important that we take time to reconnect with ourselves and with nature. We need to take moments of silence to calm our nervous systems. We need to practice mindfulness in moments of overwhelm, as that will become our superpower during these times of unrest. We have to be able to emotionally regulate and think clearly to make the changes that are truly needed, and that starts right in your own home; we can be the change we need to see in this world, one step at a time.