Woke up with my husband next to me and the sun shining, so it’s automatically a great day! I feel like checking in on all the things making me feel happy and grateful right now:
• my husband
• The Office (we finally have Peacock)
• NeoSoul chill vibe music
• our home and all of our appliances
• our kitties
• iced coffee
• TJ Maxx
• my podcast
• the color pink
Despite the gloomy weather, I woke up feeling good! It’s largely because my husband and I both took the day off together, but I also just dropped the second episode of my podcast! I’ve kept it on the down low at work, mainly because word travels fast and people loooveee to make assumptions and be nosey as shit, but my friends and family know about it! I’m just feeling so excited and joyful around the fact that I finally launched the podcast after years of talking about it.
Riding the high of releasing my podcast and just feeling proud for ripping off the bandaid! My friends have been so nice and supportive which I am so grateful for! I ended up making a subreddit community for people to submit their own stories and experiences- so if you have any stories you’d like me to share on the podcast, head over to that Adventuresofthe9to5 community!
Soooo I finally did a thing….
I finally published my podcast!!! Adventures of the 9 to 5 is now available on Apple Podcasts and Spotify! Although it’s really only one episode and a couple blurbs right now, I am excited to record more and hopefully build a community where we can all share our stories and also share what we have all learned from our jobs and experiences.
I honestly recorded the episode that is out now back in December. I was letting my perfectionism get in the way by not letting myself post unless I had a backlog of content, but I then got myself stuck in a freeze state and never recorded anything else. I felt like the only way to break the cycle was to just f*cking send it LOL!
I’m feeling excited and grateful for my friends who are so supportive! I’m also thinking about starting another blog / site that is for my podcast specifically! For now I am working on more content for my Instagram page and I am hoping to record a couple more episodes this month!
If you’re interested, you can search “Adventures of the 9 to 5” on Apple podcasts and/or Spotify! Also, you can search me on Instagram @Adventuresofthe9to5!
I’m using my blog here to cross off item number five on the above list! Happy full moon to everyone!
This full moon, I am letting go of:
• comparison- my journey is my own, and I can only compare myself to who I was yesterday. I cannot compare my body or my lifestyle to other people who do not live my life or have my brain.
• worries that are beyond my control- sometimes I hold onto work stress, as well as general life stress about family and future things that may never happen, and this is only robbing myself of being present and being happy. I can only control so much, and I can trust myself to get through any situations without having to overthink and worry.
• self – doubt- I hold myself back from goals due to my lack of self trust. I often can get into all or nothing mindsets which doesn’t work well when it comes to my health goals (diet mainly), because I have had issues in the past with getting obsessive. I know it’s been years and I have grown a lot, but I clearly still have some fear there.
I am releasing all of these things, as well as anything else that is keeping me blocked and stuck in cycles that are not benefiting me.
May this full moon be magical and powerful for everyone!
I forgot to write yesterday, but that’s because I had some gal friends over for some crafting and snacks, so we were all having a great time! I always feel so refreshed after some quality time with good people, and I feel so lucky to have so many good people in my life.
I called (well, texted) into work today, because we are in the middle of a blizzard warning. Most of my way to work is open roads by huge fields with no street lights; considering the weather apps say there are high winds, whiteout conditions, and half of the street view cameras I look at are down, I decided it’s not worth risking my life to go to work.
I also woke up feeling nauseous, but that is also because of my anxiety around traveling in this weather. I barely slept because I kept waking up checking for weather updates or seeing if they closed my job for the day- clearly not LOL!
I used to feel really guilty if I had to call off for anything, but now I don’t. I know I work hard, I am very blessed that my husband can work from home, and I can afford to take a day off so I can avoid traveling in horrible conditions. My coworker said she was going 20mph the entire way to work and the snow was blowing completely sideways! Luckily she made it in safely and will now deal with all of the cancellations that are inevitable.
As for me, I’m going back to bed. I’m grateful to be in the situation I am where I can take a day off when I need to and I don’t have to suffer in my work or personal life. I’m also grateful to be able to lay next to the love of my life in our comfortable bed. Life is quite beautiful.
Starting off the day walking and watching S.L.O.M.W! I have a little bridal shower to go to in a couple hours so I am going to get in the shower and start getting ready! I’m looking forward to celebrating my friend and just being there for her while we get closer and closer to her big day!!
I saw this post on Instagram about how the matriarchy is rising, and that some men will be scared of this. Within that post was a reference to how some men think that when women talk about the matriarchy, that they think women want to “rule over men.” This is not the case.
I honestly believe that thought is rooted both in ignorance, and fear. Ignorance makes sense, because none of us have been alive to see the matriarchy rise; we’re all used to this current system, which we can very blatantly see does not protect women or children. The fear, I think, comes from recognizing that almost every woman they know has been harassed or abused by a man in sometime in their life, so some men probably assume women want to seek revenge on men.
That fear is not completely wrong to have, as I’m sure there are tons of women who would love to bring back the witch trials and reverse the roles. I’m not going to lie, if there is evidence of people doing satanic rituals that include raping and eating children, I don’t see why the death penalty wouldn’t at least be on the table. However, most of us know on a soul level that it will not help to continue to burn people, but the constant covering up and protection of these horrific crimes against humanity can no longer continue- this is where the matriarchy comes in.
When I think of the matriarchy, there is no “ruling over” anyone- it’s all about community.
Think back to the caveman days: the women were always in community with each other and the children, while men would go and hunt and gather. Women focused on keeping each other and the children safe, and the men used their skills to bring food and supplies back to their families. This is a balance. The matriarchy needs men as well, and it is in our roots to help one another and work as a team. The matriarchy is about protecting children, recognizing how important it is to raise caring, empathetic humans for this world.
The matriarchy rising is not supposed to be a war between men and women, it’s the reuniting. It’s recognizing that we are meant to be a team. It’s holding each other accountable and taking responsibility for our actions. We as humans are meant to protect, help, and love one another, while also protecting and raising the generations to come. The matriarchy is not rooted in power, it’s rooted in love.
I woke up finally feeling a lot better after feeling like shit the last couple days! I fell asleep at 7pm last night, woke up at 10pm really confused LOL but was happy to be able to go back to sleep for several hours.
This morning I was extremely grateful that I was feeling up for a shower and an iced coffee! I am convinced that the eclipse and full moon had something to do with this. I heard some woo-woo gal talking about how sometimes when we are feeling off or numb in our julian bodies, that is because our spirit/soul is out doing work in the spiritual realm to prepare for your next chapter here on Earth. I love me some magical woo-woo stuff so I am here for that explanation!
This just feels like a transformational year in general, and I know that love, light and God will prevail against all evil. Truths will continue to be revealed, the collective will continue to awaken and rise, and we were all born to be here during this time. I have faith it was all for a reason, and I will continue to have faith over fear.
finding light in the dark 