self growth journey

Wednesday AM

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Today will be a good day! Although I am currently running late for work as I sit in the Dunkin’ drive thru, I am determined to make it a great day!

I see me staying in my own lane, focusing on my job and just being productive. I’m not going to let lying insurance reps or frustrated patients get me out of my good mood!

I woke up in a warm bed next to the love of my life, I was able to shower with warm, clean water, and I am blessed to be able to afford this iced coffee! My life has so much beauty in it, and I am present and open to it all.

May everyone have a wonderful Wednesday!

Monday Off

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My husband and I took today off since we had a weekend out of town! I was a bridesmaid in my friend’s destination wedding in Florida on Saturday! It was absolutely gorgeous, and I love the Pompano Beach area!

I had a lot of anxiety the week leading up to this trip, as well as on this trip. I was upset that I let myself get sunburned and then felt bad that I didn’t stay out as late as the rest of the bridal party, but I needed to sleep and hydrate to be ready for the wedding. The night of the wedding we also didn’t stay out as late as everyone else, but that’s because we had to be at the airport at 5am the next morning.

When I look back, I was really letting my anxiety get the best of me. I was overthinking and ruining the present, joyous moments, when in reality, none of that mattered. I was there to support the bride and help where I could. The rehearsal and wedding went smoothly, and we all had a great time on the yacht! Although I had some anxiety and got hella sunburned, overall we had great trip!

I had a session today with my new therapist, and we are gonna work on baby steps of making me become more flexible with my life. I tend to get very rigid with things and I am very “all or nothing” sometimes, and I want to be able to let go of that and focus on what really matters. I have a beautiful life, and although times get tough and anxiety gets high, I know it’s always temporary.

Friday Feels

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Despite the gloomy weather, I woke up feeling good! It’s largely because my husband and I both took the day off together, but I also just dropped the second episode of my podcast! I’ve kept it on the down low at work, mainly because word travels fast and people loooveee to make assumptions and be nosey as shit, but my friends and family know about it! I’m just feeling so excited and joyful around the fact that I finally launched the podcast after years of talking about it.

Wednesday Words

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I woke up finally feeling a lot better after feeling like shit the last couple days! I fell asleep at 7pm last night, woke up at 10pm really confused LOL but was happy to be able to go back to sleep for several hours.

This morning I was extremely grateful that I was feeling up for a shower and an iced coffee! I am convinced that the eclipse and full moon had something to do with this. I heard some woo-woo gal talking about how sometimes when we are feeling off or numb in our julian bodies, that is because our spirit/soul is out doing work in the spiritual realm to prepare for your next chapter here on Earth. I love me some magical woo-woo stuff so I am here for that explanation!

This just feels like a transformational year in general, and I know that love, light and God will prevail against all evil. Truths will continue to be revealed, the collective will continue to awaken and rise, and we were all born to be here during this time. I have faith it was all for a reason, and I will continue to have faith over fear.

Sunday PM

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It’s 9:44pm and I’m off to sleep. Hoping to get a solid 8 hours before work tomorrow. Regardless of how much sleep I get, and regardless of the fact that mother nature paid her visit today giving me insane cramps, I am determined to make tomorrow a great day. Getting some sleep will help with that for sure, and laying on this heating pad is giving me such relief. I am so grateful that I had such a wonderful weekend with my husband, and I know this will be a great week ahead.

Mental Health Day

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I ended up reaching out to my boss and letting her know I cannot come in today. I’ve been so overwhelmed at work lately, and these last seven weeks have been harder than the entire two years I’ve worked there. I’m glad I have understanding bosses, as I really haven’t had that in the past and I could have never asked for just a mental health day; but here I can be honest and just say “I need a day so I don’t burn out,” and they get it! Now I can rest and take this little break for myself and come back on Monday feeling recharged and ready to tackle the world!

First Quarter Moon Journal Prompts

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from @ sistersvillage on IG
  1. I have transformed the part of myself that was scared to be seen. I posted my raw, filter free reels this year on IG as a way to just practice letting my real thoughts out in a public way. I transformed myself into a more confident version of myself, and I am much less fearful of sharing my thought and opinions. I no longer care if people don’t like me, because I know who I am and I have the best support around me.
  2. I have learned to be more patient with myself. I’ve had some hard breakdowns this year for sure, and I felt frustration when they were the same ones I have had before, but there’s a reason they resurfaced. I now was able to move through those hard emotions with more maturity and understanding, and it slowly becomes less and less intense. I am learning how to be my own best friend and hype-woman, because I know I am a great hype-woman for my friends, and I deserve to give myself that same energy.
  3. In 2026, the confident, best friend version of me is ready to take over. Hyping myself and others up, spreading joy and laughter, and just being a bright, bold light in this world. There’s no more time to shrink, because when we shine, we allow others to shine too.

Monday

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Starting the day a little later than usual today because I have to bring my car to the repair shop this morning. Once I drop it off, the rental car people will bring me to Enterprise so I can get my rental for the next couple days, and then I can head to work!

We have our potluck at work today so I am bringing Poppyseed Bread per usual (highly requested family recipe), and we are picking our secret santa’s! I am looking forward to that and trying to keep a positive outlook on this week, as last week felt like a total shit show at work.

Although I am starting the week off a little bit out of routine, maybe that’s exactly what we need for this week. I’m grateful to have my car and my insurance to help pay for this repair, I am grateful for my bosses being so flexible with me while I work through this and my cat’s diabetes (her next vet appointment is this Friday), and I am just grateful to be alive even when times feel stressful.

Sending love to everyone this Monday- cheers to a great week ahead! Even if shitty things happen, we can tune into the fact that we still have many wonderful things to be grateful for.

Sunday 10/26/25

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I remember when I used to hate Sundays, mainly because I’d let the dread of Monday ruin the day for me. Now I absolutely LOVE my Sundays and look at them as days to be soft, slow and full of love. Most Sundays, my husband and I spend a majority of the morning laying in bed. I used to have so much guilt when I’d rest; all I’d think about were the tasks and to-do lists, but now I can let myself lay around and understand that rest is necessary and I am supposed to give myself time to recover from life LOL.

We’re gonna see our friends today, I told her I’d help take photos of her and her family for a little maternity shoot! I love taking photos and I love helping her- she helped us with our engagement photos and they turned out amazing! It’s wild what great photos you can get with an iPhone! I’m excited to see how they all turn out! It’s a chilly day, but the sun it out and the leaves are changing in some places so I’m hopeful we will get some great shots!

Halloween is Friday, which is one of my favorite holidays!! As far as I know, I’m really not doing anything for it this year! I have a couple friends coming over on Saturday night to chill and catch up, so that’s really what I’m looking forward to! I may do a little basic costume for work on Friday with something I have in my closet already- we will see what happens!

I am excited to make this a good week, and I’m just feeling like so much goodness is on the horizon! Sending love and prayers to all who need a little extra right now- may you find peace and clarity where you need it.

one of my new tattoos!