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Sunday/New Moon 4-27-25

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Good morning! I’m so happy to see the sun shining on this gorgeous day- a day of rest and resetting. Self care is on the list today- which includes a little bit of spoiling ourselves with some pedicures today. My husband and I haven’t had pedicures since November… LOL so we’re a bit overdue. I also wanted to get one before my girls trip coming up!

I’m also gonna pick up some groceries today and do my best to have a more nutritious week than I have been having lately, because I know my body deserves to be healthy and full of vitamins and nutrients. This part is always harder for me, but I am going to focus on small wins and keep reminding myself why I am doing this.

New moons are time for new intentions, and since we are no longer in eclipse season, the energy is much calmer. Plant those seeds that you wish to grow, and take time to nourish them. No rushing, no pushing- just trusting in the divine timing of it all. I am focusing on my physical and mental health, as well as how I can be more grounded- both in nature and in my own positive energy.

Monday At Home

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This morning I wasn’t feeling well when I woke up, so I decided to stay home from work. I’m lying in bed watching “Is It Cake?” and I know once I stop writing this, I’ll be slowly drifting back to sleep.

I am just feeling blessed to work for bosses where I don’t feel completely anxious or stressed about calling off work. I feel like almost everywhere else I’ve worked, when you called off you were treated like you’re in trouble- like having to prove that you were sick with doctor’s notes and what not. Like not every illness requires a doctor’s visit (or copay for that matter); sometimes just rest and hydration is a what you need.

I may write more later today after I take this nice nap. I hope everyone has a good Monday!

Sleepy Sunday

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Today was definitely a nap day, and I am not one who normally takes naps. To be fair, I did have a pounding headache that wasn’t going away and I felt like sleeping it off was the best option.

I did a grocery pick up order today and am about to get ready to make our lunches for the week! It’s so much easier to just have our lunches ready to bring to work, so as much as I don’t necessarily look forward to putting it all together, I love the benefits that come from putting the effort in.

This past week I got up early three days of the week and started my day on my treadmill. I honestly could feel the difference in my mood throughout the day and I’m excited to get back to it again tomorrow!

Tomorrow is also 11/11, and being the witchy weirdo I am, I love that!! It’s known to be a powerful day for manifesting, so make sure you take time to be intentional with your day and what energy you’re putting into onto the world. As long as remember to tune into gratitude and love, and you will feel the blessings and abundance pour in.

Sending love to everyone who needs a little extra right now; you are all stronger than you know.

Fulfilled

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In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled?

When I think of a hard day of work, I definitely feel satisfied at the end of the day if I feel like I accomplished the goals I wanted to. When I feel like I have been productive and have crossed a lot off my list, I feel fulfilled in the way that I actually followed through on my goal.

It’s a lot easier for me to be productive and goal oriented in a work environment- sometimes I wonder if it’s still feeding a part of my inner child that craves approval and praise. When it comes to my own personal life, if I have a day where I can cross a bunch of chores of the list, I definitely feel fulfilled. I feel like I have taken care of my home and I have rid myself of overwhelming piles of tasks, which is satisfying.

Since moving away from people-pleasing and perfectionism tendencies, I have since recognized that my worth is not defined by how accomplished I am in the workplace or how clean my home is. I am worthy as I am, and as I lean into self love/care, I have also realized how important rest is. Burnout isn’t fun for anyone, nor is it worth it to sacrifice your health and wellbeing all in the name of being productive. As much as I enjoy feeling fulfilled by a hard day’s work, I also enjoy resting and recharging, so that I can feel fulfilled even when I am not doing anything.

Rest Day

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It’s a gorgeous day outside, and I am currently sitting in my papasan chair with my cat laying on my torso. I went on a walk this morning which was very refreshing and peaceful. Once I got back home, my fiancé and I went on a scenic drive out to grab some lunch and we treated ourselves to the new summer berry lemonade refreshers from Starbucks.

I decided to read a little while he is playing VR and after a chapter with Mushu purring on me I was quickly falling into a nap. Today is a day to rest and really soak up the love around me. I am so grateful for this life, and I’m happy to be present in these beautiful moments.

Prompt

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Are there any activities or hobbies you’ve outgrown or lost interest in over time?

I remember buying my cricut a few years ago and being so excited to do so much crafting. I made shirts and cups and wine glasses and even had some friends who made requests for certain things. Over the years I’d go through phases of being super into crafting and wanting absolutely nothing to do with it, and currently I am in a phase of not wanting to craft at all.

I thought when I got engaged I would be making myself a bunch of “fiancée” and “engaged” gear, and to be fair I did make us a pair of matching hoodies, but since that I haven’t been feeling up to making anything. I’m sure I will get back into another phase and I’ll crank out some projects, but for now I’m just focusing on writing and resting.

Blessed Monday

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Woke up this morning to a message in our work app that due to extreme low temperatures, for safety of staff and patients they are closing the office today! Snow day part 2! Or part 4 if you count the weekend LOL.

In reality though, I am actually amazed and so glad that I took this position. My last company was still open on Friday when it was a legitimate blizzard outside, and I only know because I messaged my friend who still works there. If you ever called off for anything, you could bet that the boss was asking everyone if they’d seen you posting on snap or instagram or if they heard anything about them looking for jobs. Like damn, can’t someone just be sick or be worried about their safety in peace?

There were so many reasons I left that place, and it mainly came down to their lack of care about their employees, and I am so grateful to be somewhere that is the complete opposite. I love what I am doing at my job, I am getting faster at moving through the system, and I am excited to get everything in a good flow; but today, I get another day of rest!

Everyone be safe out there! Sending extra love to all who need it.

5:59am

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It’s about to be 6am, and I’m about 95% sure I will fall back asleep after I write this. I’m enjoying this moment as I lay here listening to rain ASMR on youtube while my boyfriend sleeps peacefully next to me. I just put the heating pad under my neck and shoulder as I woke up having my pain again, likely due to stress and lack of movement.

I’ve been so tired the last couple of weeks. I find myself taking naps, such as the three hour one I took yesterday. I also have just been taking it easy as I have had some random nausea and dizziness happening as well. This seems to happen every so often, and to be honest I’m pretty sure all of this happened to me the same time last year as well.

I am going to see an ENT at the end of this week as I want an overall consult. My main issue to discuss would be tonsil stones as I absolutely hate them and honestly would prefer to just have my tonsils removed. I am going to bring up the recent dizziness as well as the fact that I have had motion sickness my entire life. I want to bring up the vertigo I’ve been getting lately as I am wondering if it has to do with my inner ears.

Lately I get so discouraged about going to doctors because they just want to treat symptoms and they don’t ever want to figure out the root issue. It blows my mind that I can be someone who gets these random symptoms where basically my body acts like it’s pregnant, yet no one can tell me why or what I can do to prevent it; instead they shove nausea pills at me and tell me to rest. That’s why I haven’t even gone for these current dizzy/nausea spells… I already know how it goes.

For now I have just been resting on my own and staying hydrated. I do my best to listen to my body, and right now my body wants me to close my eyes again, so back to sleep I go.

Rest

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There is this quote I have read before goes something like “if you do not make time to rest, your body will do it for you,” and boy did my body do that. I haven’t been at work the past two days because I have been battling a nasty virus. I was so happy to wake up without a headache today, because yesterday I had probably the worst headache of my life. I spent most of yesterday maneuvering an ice pack around my head in different positions because the pain was literally everywhere, including my neck. When I wasn’t trying to numb away the pain, I was napping to escape it. I definitely got a lot of sleep yesterday, which my body desperately needed. Today I still have an annoying cough and quite a bit of phlegm, but I am feeling a lot better now that I no longer have a migraine. I am taking the Mucinex and Flonase as immediate care recommended to me, and I am continuing to rest and hydrate.

I am honestly proud of myself for not feeling guilty about being home and taking care of myself, because that is almost always how I am. I usually get so stressed out when I am sick and I start worrying about falling behind on work and chores, but this time I truly listened to my body and let myself rest. I feel like this allowed me to heal quicker, and I am planning to go back to work tomorrow. As I had written before, I had a pretty busy weekend full of lots of events and people, and in the future I likely won’t jam pack my weekends like that again. I am a sensitive person and I often need some time to recoup from being around people and in public, and I will keep that in mind moving forward.

In the meantime, I am going to take the rest of today to rest and focus on gratitude. I feel so blessed to have my boyfriend to take care of me and things around the house while I am sick. I am also quite thankful that tissues and Aquaphor exists LOL. I am grateful to have access to over-the-counter medicines to help me, and most of all the fact that we have clean water to drink. As much as I don’t feel 100% like myself, I still want to take time to recognize all of the wonderful gifts around me, and I never want to take the present moment for granted.

Resting

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I have been laying low the last few days as I’ve been having some health issues. I’m hoping today to see my primary care, but I am waiting on a call from their office. If I cannot see them, I’ll be going to immediate care or something because I am 99% sure I have a sinus/ear infection and I need some antibiotics.

Over the weekend I woke up with a nasty headache and it kinda lingered for a couple of days; it was hurting whenever I moved my eyes, and I can still feel the pressure if I look down. I also started having pain in my ears when I blow my nose, and I keep sweating a lot in my sleep. I had an on and off again low-grade fever and was off work Monday because I woke up with a fever. I was negative for covid thankfully, and I did work yesterday, but today is normally my scheduled day off so I’m going to use it to my advantage.

I often get really obsessive about really anything, so the problem when my health starts being weird is that I cannot stop googling my symptoms and freaking myself out. I know I’m going to be fine regardless, I just always have too many things going on at once. My hormones are all out of whack right now, so I’ve been super emotional and crying every day. Being sick also doesn’t help with that, because I always feel more emotional when I’m ill for whatever reason.

I took the whole day yesterday to just lay in bed; well, other than getting my covid test and a blood test one of my doctors ordered. I couldn’t help but feel guilty for not doing anything, even though I kept reminding myself that my body needs rest. Yesterday I felt a bit better, so after work I made sure to bring the garbage in, I emptied the dishwasher, cleaned the litter and started laundry. I threw a frozen pasta meal on the stove and was so proud of myself for getting everything done, even though I still was not feeling 100%.

When my boyfriend came home I was telling him how I got all this stuff done since I couldn’t do anything on Monday, and he just looked at me and said “You don’t feel well, you are supposed to rest. You don’t have to ‘make up for it,’ because resting is what you need to do. You shouldn’t feel guilty for that.”

I shouldn’t feel guilty for that… he’s right! And I knew he was right, because I had already had this battle in my head while I was laying in bed all day on Monday. I kept reminding myself that I have to listen to my body, and if we don’t take our rest days, our bodies will force us to take them.

Today I’m still gonna take it relatively easy, I just have a grocery pick up and hopefully I’ll just be able to see my regular doctor today instead of immediate care. I just want to feel myself again, so hopefully I will soon.