I have transformed the part of myself that was scared to be seen. I posted my raw, filter free reels this year on IG as a way to just practice letting my real thoughts out in a public way. I transformed myself into a more confident version of myself, and I am much less fearful of sharing my thought and opinions. I no longer care if people don’t like me, because I know who I am and I have the best support around me.
I have learned to be more patient with myself. I’ve had some hard breakdowns this year for sure, and I felt frustration when they were the same ones I have had before, but there’s a reason they resurfaced. I now was able to move through those hard emotions with more maturity and understanding, and it slowly becomes less and less intense. I am learning how to be my own best friend and hype-woman, because I know I am a great hype-woman for my friends, and I deserve to give myself that same energy.
In 2026, the confident, best friend version of me is ready to take over. Hyping myself and others up, spreading joy and laughter, and just being a bright, bold light in this world. There’s no more time to shrink, because when we shine, we allow others to shine too.
Snapchat wants users to now pay for their own memories even though they’ve sold our faces/voices/data to companies.
I don’t know about you, but I feel a technological revolution coming, and I’m on the side of books and nature.
I will gladly remove my social media and streaming services. I’m sure there are others who feel the same, and others who absolutely won’t- both are okay. So long as I am living in alignment with my morals, I will be okay. That goes the same for you.
I pray that the Universe/God will allow love, light and truth to always come forth and outshine any lies and fear.
Starting the day a little later than usual today because I have to bring my car to the repair shop this morning. Once I drop it off, the rental car people will bring me to Enterprise so I can get my rental for the next couple days, and then I can head to work!
We have our potluck at work today so I am bringing Poppyseed Bread per usual (highly requested family recipe), and we are picking our secret santa’s! I am looking forward to that and trying to keep a positive outlook on this week, as last week felt like a total shit show at work.
Although I am starting the week off a little bit out of routine, maybe that’s exactly what we need for this week. I’m grateful to have my car and my insurance to help pay for this repair, I am grateful for my bosses being so flexible with me while I work through this and my cat’s diabetes (her next vet appointment is this Friday), and I am just grateful to be alive even when times feel stressful.
Sending love to everyone this Monday- cheers to a great week ahead! Even if shitty things happen, we can tune into the fact that we still have many wonderful things to be grateful for.
Feeling a lot lighter today after sitting in some heavy emotions yesterday. Crying is truly such a good release, and boy did I let myself ugly sob! I also got to talk to my therapist and told her I was feeling very angry. She asked what I am feeling angry about, and so I decided to read her the part of my blog from the other day where I wrote in all caps about the things I was upset about. The way that reading words out loud is sooooo different than writing… I started BAWLING. I feel like reading it out loud really helped bring the release I needed from the last couple days, and as hard as it was, it felt so good.
What change, big or small, would you like your blog to make in the world?
I hope my blog makes people feel seen and heard, whether they see themselves in my writing or it inspires them to start their own blog/journal. I hope it gives people who are struggling with mental health hope and happiness, because I am definitely not the same person I was when I started this blog 5+ years ago. It’s normal for us all to have struggles on our journeys, but what’s important is we keep coming home to ourselves, and I hope my blog helps to remind people of that.
This beautiful Monday I am driving out of state with my friend to meet our other friend and see a concert! It’s so different being up early when you know you’re doing something exciting rather than going to work LOL! I’m just excited for this mini girls trip and this concert, and I’m just praying for safe travels there and back for all of us! I hope everyone has a safe and happy Monday!
Yesterday I got to hang out with some good friends and celebrate my 30th birthday! We all went to the local fair in town and it was so fun to eat fair food and ride rides like a little kid again! I had the best time, and it’s crazy to think that some of the friends I have are friends I’ve had for 15-20 years! It’s just crazy how we all have grown and evolved over the years, yet we’re still here supporting each other. I’m just feeling so happy and blessed and this is definitely one of the highlights of 2025 for me!
Today was such an incredible day. My family from Iowa came out to visit and take me and my husband out for my birthday. They also blessed us with a very generous gift, and I’m beyond grateful for them. I feel just so grateful and lucky honestly, and I am just happy to be present to it all.
My husband and I also went over to visit his family at the farmer’s market! They have a barbecue business and they’re a vendor at the market every Friday, so we decided to stop by and say hi! When we were leaving the market, another vendor selling cute jewelry caught my eye, and I ended up getting a cute evil eye bracelet, ring, and a pair of snake earrings! It was 3 for $30 and I just happened to have $30 cash in my wallet!
Tomorrow I get to see some of my good friends as we all get together to celebrate my birthday!! We’re gonna go to the local fair and I can’t wait to get a funnel cake as my birthday cake! I’m not a huge cake fan, but I loooveee me some funnel cake so honestly I’m so excited for this! I’m also just excited to see all the people who make me happy and feel loved- it’s just the best feeling.
I also get to take a mini girls trip early next week to go see Glass Animals in concert and I am looking forward to that as well! I’m just feeling so blessed and happy to be living this life. I’ve healed enough that I am actually able to feel the love around me and truly be happy, and I am so grateful for that.
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