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Crystals

Three separate people have gifted me crystals this past Christmas. My best friend and I finally celebrated our Christmas together yesterday (LOL yeah, we’re late AF), and she got me a witchy mystery box that came with three different crystals, a stone, some seeds, bay leaves, and little notes that explained what all of them do and are used for!

She bought it from a small shop and she sent in a description of me, and the shop owner used their insight and sent a cleansed mystery package. It’s honestly interesting to me; I’m not quite sure I necessarily believe in witchcraft or that type of thing, but I do believe that our minds are powerful and we can do a lot with just focusing more on positivity and goals.

From what I know about “witchcraft” (which is barely anything so take this how you want to) is that’s it’s about setting intentions, removing negative energy, and manifesting whatever it is that you desire. In general people speak about the “law of attraction,” which is basically getting what you desire by focusing on it with intent, and I see that same idea here in a way. I think overall that it is just bringing people to be more present and aware, which is then making us notice more around us and appreciate more (which isn’t a bad thing)!

I don’t know how much I’ll dive into this; ironically one of my other good friends was just over on Friday night and was saying how she wants to get into crystals, so part of me is like “is this a sign?” Do I even believe in signs? I’m unsure at this point. I’ve been trying to focus more on my health as I think I may have been experiencing blood sugar issues, so I’m working on adding protein to every meal as my doctor recommended. I think that should be my main focus at this time, but I am definitely interested in learning more!

Sick

Well I’ve been sick since about Thursday. I’ve had multiple negative covid tests (mainly for work as I didn’t really think I had it). Every year when the weather changes I get bad post-nasal drip which turns into a sore throat, then a cough and into a sinus infection! Honestly it’s terrible, and I’m just trying to rest and drink plenty of fluids and take vitamins.

I don’t have insurance right now due to my job transition, so I don’t plan on going to the doctor for this. I’m hoping I’ll start feeling better soon, as I’m not trying to get sent home from work or told to get a doctor’s note. My insurance should be active in a couple of weeks, so of course all of this was bound to happen right now. I am blessed that it isn’t covid though, and I’m happy that I have had this weekend to rest and hydrate.

I was able to get a little bit of crafting done for my next shop drop on October 15th, which makes me feel good since I’ve been pretty tired. I had planned to go to the dollar tree and michael’s today, but I honestly don’t want to go into any stores right now. I know it’s not covid and I’ll have a mask on, but I know I’ll still feel all self-conscious if I cough or something and don’t want everyone freaking out. I’m also exhausted so I really don’t feel like going out.

If anyone has any tips for natural or over-the-counter remedies that have worked for them for cough/sinus infection I am all ears! I hope everyone else is well.

Not having a great time

I’m still having issues with my health; random nausea and this morning I was having random sharp cramping. I can’t remember if I said but mother nature finally made her appearance 13 days late, which was a relief in a way, but also it’s sounding like my next step might be a GI doctor.

I have a follow up appointment on Monday at 8am, but it has to be Telehealth since I’ve been vomiting (even with my negative covid test). I feel like they’re just going to tell me go to the GI doctor; honestly I do have a fear of being diagnosed with Crohn’s disease. But I do need to take care of myself, so I will listen to what the doctor says on Monday.

I’ve been having a rough mental health day/week. Today I was bawling my eyes out in the car with my boyfriend because I feel like I’m constantly ruining everyone’s plans. My best friend got married yesterday and the plan was for everyone to go to the bar after the dinner, and unfortunately I felt like garbage after dinner and a couple drinks so I went home after dinner.

I felt terrible about that and then I also ruined planed with another friend today. She was supposed to come over with a couple other people for wedding crafts, and I forgot that my boyfriend wanted to go see a car that was an hour away from home, which messed up the plans. Then we also forgot that we had an appointment at 2pm for someone to come out and measure for our windows to be replaced, but luckily we made it back in time.

The other thing was my boyfriend had an appointment to see that car at 12pm, and his brother stayed over last night and we wanted breakfast this morning. When we went to breakfast it took a little longer than normal because it was busy, and then we were late to the 12pm by almost an hour. When we got there, we were told they just sold that car five minutes prior. So then I felt even more like shit.

I just haven’t been myself and I’ve been super stressed and I feel like I’ve been holding a lot in that I just need to let out. I’m so annoyed and frustrated with myself, but my boyfriend was saying how he gets so upset when I’m so hard on myself and how he wasn’t even upset with me or anything. I just have been completely out of it lately with everything going on with my health too.

Anyways, I’m just so exhausted and I’m really needing to just push through this shit. Tomorrow is going to be sunny and 60 degrees, so I need to make sure I go on a walk. I also am going to grocery shop and get some healthy options, as I need to start treating my body better. I’m excited to spend the rest of the day just relaxing and spending time with my boyfriend. I’m ready to start feeling better and feeling more like myself.

More labs and a CT scan later

Still no answers. I look healthy as a horse, and am very much NOT pregnant as I have already known, but there’s still no answer as to why I’ve had all of these symptoms, including vomiting everyday (yes, today as well) for the past five days.

This morning I had some spotting and a constant ache on my right side/lower back. I decided to finally listen to my friends and go to the hospital for some testing just due to all of the other symptoms I’ve had. I had a urine and blood test immediately and was taken back to a room shortly after. The Dr. came in and said she wanted to do a CT due to the pain I was having,

I was in the hospital for about four hours total; this was my first time having a CT scan and I did not like it very much. When they had to push the contrast dye into the IV I felt so nauseated I thought I was going to throw up and pass out in that machine. Luckily that was not the case, and the results came back pretty quickly showing no abnormalities.

The Dr. sent me home with some zofran for nausea and told me they’d send my blood out for a thyroid test, but other than that they had no answers. I was very upset, but I didn’t let her know that. I just cried once I left and got to the car. It’s just so frustrating not knowing what’s wrong, but not only that, I now feel like I do know the answer: it’s me. I’m so stressed and anxious that I make myself physically ill. It’s happening again, even though mentally I don’t even feel as stressed as I have been.

To be fair, I don’t know 100% if that’s the case and it could also be terrible PMS at this point, but I truly feel defeated at this point. I’m just going to rest and go to work tomorrow with my nausea medication and move on with life.

Still no answers

I got a rapid covid test this morning just to rule it out since I still don’t know what’s wrong – $175.00 later and it’s negative! This is good but also in a way I was almost like well if it’s positive it all kinda makes sense? But I am glad I do not have covid,

At this point I am welcome any and all opinions / medical advice on what may be going on with me- I will list my symptoms below:

-fatigue that began last wedneday (falling asleep driving to work, completely exhausted and ready for bed by 8:30 every night, no motivation to do anything)

-late period by 12 days- normally I am regular, but have had multiple negative pregnancy tests including a blood hcg

-nausea & puking in the mornings (started this past wednesday)

-lower back pain (started 2-3 days ago, worsening)

-burping a lot

-diarrhea (only for one day- other days lots of movements in morning)

-random dull ache lower abdomen – not consistent cramping though

-headaches (started last night, have one today)

Again, any help is appreciated.

Confused, annoyed, exhausted

So after two full days off of work spent on phones with doctors and getting pointless labs, what I knew the labs would say were correct and they wasted my time, because I still don’t have any answers. Today I threw up more than I did the last two days, and it sucks because I went to work today and left after just a couple hours of being there.

I’m home now laying in bed, I finally ate but my stomach isn’t exactly happy right now. I am still waiting on lovely mother nature to make her appearance and it’s just stressing me out (which I’m sure is actually the entire problem).

I’m worried that I am so stressed that I made myself physically ill. The odd thing though is that I’m not anxious with work and I don’t feel like I am overly stressed! Of course work has stress, but I feel like I can let it go when it’s time to be off of work. I’m just confused and irritated and exhausted at this point.

Going through it

I totally missed my Sunday post; I even had Monday off but still didn’t post because I’ve just been exhausted. A lot of weird stuff has been going on with my health so that’s also annoying. Today I’m off because I threw up this morning, and I told my regional coach that I felt like maybe I could still go in but she said to take care of myself.

All morning I was on the phone with doctors and nurses and schedulers and they came to the conclusion that I should get a certain lab test so I went to the hospital earlier for that and now I just wait for a call, although I already know the result. I don’t feel like going too much into detail right now as I don’t really know what is going on.

I can say I had a breast ultrasound on Monday for a lump I found a few weeks ago, and luckily it was only a benign cyst. I was a bit worried about that as I do have a family history of breast cancer, but I am blessed to say that it was nothing worrisome. For now I will rest and wait for the phone call with this next test result.