It’s been a little bit of a chaotic week since being back to work, but everything will smooth out soon. I don’t wish to hold any stress in my mind or body, so with this post, I am releasing all of the tension and negative energies I’ve been holding onto. I am refocusing on the gratitude and love in my life, and tuning back in with my self. I’m so grateful to be able to sleep in a comfortable bed next to my favorite human; life truly is great.
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Tuesday Thoughts
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• Everyone will judge you, even the people you love- do it anyways.
• If you’re ever staying quiet or small to “keep the peace”- ask who’s peace is it keeping?
• The worst that can happen is you die, and we all die- may as well live a life you enjoy!
• In any moment, you’re always younger than you’ll ever be again- what are you not doing bc you’re telling yourself you’re “too old?” Do it anyways.
Tuesday Thoughts (7/8)
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• “It is what it is” is actually a powerful mindset
• Waking up next to the love of your life is an incredible blessing that people don’t talk enough about
• Media is propaganda- and it’s waaaayyy more in our faces than it ever was in our history books
• Fear sells- be mindful of who is profiting off your consumption.
• Cleo Sol is a true healer- her music makes me feel so calm and connected
• Sensitive souls are necessary
Thursday AM Thoughts
blogI saw this post that said something along the lines of “start thinking of people as energy, you’ll spend your time wiser.” There’s just no point in spending time with energy vampires, all they do is suck the light out of you.
High school never ends until you decide it does. No matter where you work or where you further your education, you’ll have people around you who still want to spread lies and drama as a form of their own entertainment. It is up to you if you’re going to feed into that energy.
Gratitude is a magical thing. I find that I am so much more present and happy when I practice daily gratitude.
Success and being “rich” looks different to everyone- get specific with yourself about your dream life. What does it look like?
Love is always the answer, and I believe that no amount of material items could replace the feeling of genuine love and connection.
New Moon Release 5-26-25
blogHappy New Moon!! 🙌🏼
This new moon, I’m setting the intention of being less in the mindset of “all or nothing.” This comes into play a lot in my life whenever I am trying to reach a new goal or start a new project, and I know it stems from the perfectionism. This mindset has hurt me in the past when it comes to dieting, as well as healing and even starting my podcast.
When I was doing the Ketogenic diet to lose weight years ago, I was all the way in. I ate all the protein I needed, I made sure to never go over 20 net carbs a day, and when I did, I punished myself for it. I’d mentally beat the shit out of myself for going over as if that would change my entire progress. Even if it did, which it did not, I never deserved to treat myself the way I did. That was way more unhealthy than if I had eaten 20 more carbs!
When it comes to my healing journey, along the way I have found that there is so much to heal from, and I was starting to look at myself as this never-ending project. I was just a human full of issues and problems that would never be fully solved, so I either had to try harder or give up entirely- that is literally NOT the solution. I can be aware and mindful in my life, and the only way to truly grow and evolve is to keep living and just keep checking back in with yourself. I am not a project that needs consistent tweaking and fixing- I am an evolving human.
As far as the podcast that I’ve started behind the scenes, I find myself completely delaying and avoiding it, because I care a lot about it. I know that I want it to be good, but I also am actively fighting against my perfectionism while recording, because I already decided to not edit ANY of it. I ultimately decided that because I know that I will edit and edit and edit until there is nothing left, when my real intention with this podcast is to be raw and real. I can be raw and real at anytime, so I can truly record at anytime- but I get on the mindset of “all or nothing.”
I’m not pouring all of my effort and trying to make this the best (which also applies to everything in my life) my mind then goes: “well, then I shouldn’t do anything at all”- but that is my anxiety and perfectionism taking over. I know in my heart and soul that the black and white thinking is not how we’re meant to be in this world; it’s truly all gray. We’re allowed to be creative and flexible- in fact, it’s encouraged over being rigid.
I am releasing these rigid thoughts and feelings, and I am tuning into the creative flow of life. I welcome all love, abundance, and happiness to flow into my life, and may I be present enough to feel it all. Thank you, thank you, thank you! ✨
Thursday Morning Thoughts
blogI’m tired and in bed before I have to get up for work, and just wanted to take a moment to jot down some random thoughts I’ve had recently:
- peace and calmness can feel odd or off to someone who has experienced a lot of anxiety and hyper-vigilance
- if you’re taught that everything is scary and is the end of the world, that makes sense why you’d think that. however, we can still unlearn / de-program those concepts that aren’t actually helping us
- sometimes it feels like our brains are actively working against our healing journeys and that’s because they’re wired for survival.
- I don’t need apologies from those who have hurt me- I apologize to myself for not speaking up and setting boundaries when needed.
- we judge people we love because we want better for them, yet we get mad when people judge us or tell us how to live our lives because we know what’s best for ourselves. (plot twist: they already know, it’s just hard to change and develop new habits)
- life on earth includes oceans, sunsets and sunflower fields, friendships, true love and hugs: it’s not all bad here
Early Morning
blogWell, it’s 5:49am on Sunday and I am typing this blog post while laying in bed. I woke up about 20-30 minutes ago to use the bathroom, and when I was trying to fall back asleep, I heard a noise from the kitchen. I walked out there and our cat Mushu decided to knock over the recycle bin like a dog (she likes eating plastic).
I walked out there & told her “no” and pushed her away from the bin and then put it all back and went back to bed. Not even five minutes later I hear the same noise again. This time I decided I needed to go empty the recycling so I brought it downstairs and I came back up and redirected her to her water bowl. She drank some and then was distracted by a box that was on the floor for her and she started playing with that, which is honestly what I was hoping for.
In the midst of trying to pet her while she was in play mode (I really need to stop doing that) I ended up getting a pretty decent scratch on my arm. I have cleaned it and put some ointment and a bandaid on it now, and honestly I’m ready to go back to sleep for a few hours. I’m going to go over to my mom’s later this morning and I’m looking forward to our walk together. It’s supposed to be sunny and beautiful today, which is perfect for mother’s day!
My husband and I went over to his parents’ house yesterday and brought over some Olive Garden for dinner! It was nice to just sit and chat about life and their business. I’m going to start helping them with their website and social media, so that will be a fun project to work on! I’m hoping this keeps me busy and excited to continue to work on my own creative projects!
Wednesday
blogI am feeling quite tired this morning, but I know it’s because I stayed up later than usual. Like I said in my last post, yesterday was my last day of dance class for a little bit while we go on spring break and I have my surgery. Typically I don’t get home until around 9pm after dance and then I really needed to shower; once I finished my shower, instead of going to bed, I made the mistake of scrolling on my phone – hence this morning’s exhaustion.
I will make it through it though! Even writing this is helping my brain to wake up. Ready for another productive day at work and I’m looking forward to resting once I get home! I hope everyone has a great Wednesday!
Quick Thoughts 12-12-24
blog• 24 is 12+12 and today is 12-12-24. something about that feels right and makes my heart feel good.
• I feel so much lighter mentally being off of social media (been off since 12/1)
• Focusing on letting go and minding my own business- not everything needs to be analyzed
• Kindness goes a long way
• Sometimes we don’t understand because we aren’t meant to
Thoughts Lately
blogThe more we tune into our own world and meet our own needs, the more we can meet the needs of humanity.
We aren’t meant to know everything, so we’re all ignorant to shit.
Leaders aren’t going to save you- no one will except for yourself.
Helicopter parents unintentionally create anxious children who do not trust themselves or the word around them.
Are you unmotivated or do you struggle with perfectionism?
We aren’t meant to control, we’re meant to surrender to what is.
Inner peace is power.
finding light in the dark 