I took a quick pause from making our lunches for the week to post in here. I’ve been feeling pretty bleh lately, but luckily I am aware that this feeling isn’t going to last forever. Today I’m still doing what I need to do to set myself up for the week, and for that I am proud.
I purposely made zero plans this weekend just to use it as a reset, and it has been exactly that. Yesterday my husband and I went out for a breakfast date and grabbed a few necessities from Walmart, but we spent our Saturday night in hanging out together. This morning we slept in and then went out and grabbed some Starbucks!
Spending time with my husband and just being in our home is such a blessing, and I am grateful for this life of ours. Wishing everyone a happy Sunday filled with blessings and love! 🤍✨
I have been on a social media break since the beginning of December. One of the accounts I really liked on Instagram has an email signup where they send daily affirmations, so I had signed up over a year ago and I continue to get them. Todays affirmation from Moon Omens was as follows:
“I trust that what is meant
for me is on its way. I am in
alignment with my life path.
I embrace the unknown.
I choose love over fear.”
I definitely needed this today, as I have just been in a little funk with this winter season. I also have been dealing with different health conditions like flu, uti and possible tonsillitis. We also had to take one of our cats to the vet yesterday, so today we will get results from her blood and urine. I’ve just been feeling a bit overwhelmed and when I read this I resonated with it. I figured I also can take this and put my own personal twist on it:
I trust that what is meant for me is on its way; I am allowed to release all of my worries and let go of control.
I am in alignment with my life path, even when I am not feeling 100% myself, I can trust this is all happening for me and a higher plan.
I embrace the unknown, and lean in with curiosity. This had me immediately think of another other quote I stumbled upon recently that says “The only true wisdom is knowing you know nothing.” I am allowed to dive into the unknown and let go of the need to appear smart or perfect.
I choose love over fear. I think we’ve all heard the phrase “the only thing to fear is fear itself,” and that is because if you let it, fear can completely take you over. I’d much prefer to live a life where I see through a lens of love and compassion rather than fear and hatred.
I’m using this weekend as a reset. I want to get back in a good headspace and focus on my goals- I am honestly very excited for it. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! Sending extra love and positive vibes to everyone!
I’m writing this from my bed, because I am home sick. I was off yesterday to see my primary care doctor for my swollen tonsil/sore throat. I don’t have strep so I basically just added in flonase and I have to continue hydrating and using a humidifier.
Today, however, I am having a lot of nausea. I am sure it’s probably shitty food I ate, although one of my friends is sick and I did hang with her this weekend. Either way, I am glad to be able to lay in bed today and just be able to give my body and brain a break. I’m just resting and hydrating and praying this is the last time I’m sick for a long while.
Yesterday my friend and I made vision boards for 2025! Now I have the itch to keep making collages, so I put together a few pages in the vision boarding journal I started for this year. Cutting out pictures and picking out stickers definitely feeds my inner child, and it’s nice to just escape from the chaotic world and immerse myself in positive imagery and quotes.
If you could un-invent something, what would it be?
When I read this, I definitely want to say smart phones and social media, because I feel that although they were both made for people to stay more “connected,” it actually has made us more disconnected with ourselves and each other.
Smart phones definitely keep us connected when we can call, text and/or facetime friends and family members. We are able to communicate and share photos and videos with each other, but also sometimes we do this when we are in the presence of other people.
How many times have you been out with a friend or a group and suddenly other people are just texting on their phone, or having a full blown conversation with someone else? Don’t get me wrong, there are situations where people need to be checking in or asking for something, but I’m talking about those times where it isn’t necessary and it actually just has you feeling like no one is present in the moment with you.
Social media was also made to stay in touch and see updates of people’s lives, but it has simultaneously created a lot more of comparison culture and this pressure to always post your best moments and memories for the world to see. People are always sharing the highlights and the best parts of life, and it can make people start to think that everyone has to live some extravagant life and be very rich in order to have happiness.
There are people that go into debt to have fancy events just for the social media pictures, or they put name brand bags on their credit cards just to be able to post and make it seem like they live a lavish life. Not to mention all of the emphasis on having the “perfect body” or “perfect face” which leads to the botox and fillers and surgeries that also cost hundreds to thousands of dollars.
And what is all of this for? To look good for other people? To have a better selfie? To feel as pretty as that one influencer looks in her post? Does she even look like that or did she use a filter or face-tune? Do the likes, views and followers actually fulfill your soul? Or are you craving deeper, authentic connections?
I feel like smart phones and social media have become more important to people than genuine conversation and communication. Some people post pictures with “friends” they don’t even like just because the collab gives more views (ex: Mom Tok/ Secret Lives of Mormon Wives). Some people post their “perfect relationship” when there’s actually abuse going on off screen (Gabby Petito, Shannan Watts). I know luckily that is not how everyone uses it, but it’s crazy how quick we are to believe false things, and social media perpetuates that culture.
I also understand the benefit of social media when it comes to business promotion, as it can help push products and business ideas. I also understand there are authentic people on social media as well, but overall I think we’d benefit as a society if social media was never invented. I think with social media, we’d be more connected to ourselves and one another, and I think in general humanity would be more authentic.
I am only in control of my own myself. My mindset is my choice, and today I choose gratitude. I have a job I enjoy, a loving husband, and a roof over my head. I am surrounded by blessings at all moments. ✨
In honor of the full moon, and of myself, I’m going to journal the prompts from my favorite Instagram page here on my blog. Normally I write these down in my notebook, but honestly I’m too tired to be walk downstairs and grab it, and I figured why not just post it on here!
@sistersvillage on IG
When I bring my focus to my heart, what is it telling me?
My heart is telling me to let go:
Let go of all the pain and wounds that keep me from shining your light. Let go of the fear of disappointing others, and instead prioritize not disappointing yourself. Let go of the need to please and appease, and instead just be authentic and true to yourself.
What areas of my life are calling me to soften and surrender?
I need to soften and surrender at work. There is only so much I can do as one person, and I have been burned out before. I’m finally in a good workspace, with great owners, and they also don’t want me to burn out. I have my own job duties and it is not my responsibility to fix or manage anyone else’s duties. I have the tendency to be a fixer and I want to give solutions and help, but sometimes it’s to my own detriment. I don’t want to be stressed at work, and I have the power to stay in my lane and just focus on my own work!
Both at work and in my personal life, I’m going to keep practicing “let them” whenever I am bothered by something someone else does or says. Instead I’ll take note and give my time and energy accordingly- this year is all about being intentional and surrendering the rest to the universe.
What pain am I letting go of?
I’m letting go of the pain that came from feeling the need to be perfect. I’m letting go of the pain that came from feeling like I need approval and praise from external sources. I’m letting go of the pain that came from feeling emotionally abandoned…from feeling like a burden. I’m letting go of the pain that has hindered me from being my favorite version of myself. I’m letting go of all of the pain that holds me down, and I am setting myself free.
Mel Robbins has talked a lot about this topic: “Let them.” She even wrote a book about it that is available for preorder (which I need to order that at some point). This phrase has become so powerful, because it allows you to take your energy and time back, and it allows you to let go of control.
In reality, we can’t change anyone else; I mean, look how hard it is to make changes in your own life! Yet, even though we know we can’t make anyone else change, we may still spend time and energy being bothered by things they do that we don’t understand. We waste our own time thinking about how others should change or even thinking about how they perceive us, when we cannot control any of that at all!
No matter how mindful or nice I try to be, someone could still think I am annoying or rude. I have no control over how someone else views me, and in reality, it really isn’t my business. How we feel about ourselves is what really matters- and a lot of us carry a lot of shame and guilt that we end up projecting onto our outer world. That is why the more we heal our own wounds, the more we heal the world. If we have less assumptions and projections and we have more discussions and connections, then we recognize how similar we all are and can give each other (and ourselves) grace.
Let people think what they want about you- as long as you know and love yourself, that is what matters. Let people act the way they do; as an adult you can set boundaries and if they break those boundaries, you can decide to let go of that relationship. In other words, then it’s time for “let me.” You are in control of your own decisions and who you decide to spend your time with. When someone is not respectful of your boundaries, listen to them.
We can complain all we want about people crossing our boundaries, but if we never stand up for ourselves, that is also a choice. You get to decide how long you put up with disrespect. We also complain about other people’s choices or actions, but that is literally taking time and energy away from your own life goals. You get to decide if you want to keep thinking about and judging someone’s actions over focusing on your own dreams and ambitions.
“Let them” is powerful, and so is “let me.” This year, I am leaning more into this theory. As I approach my 30th birthday (well, it’s not until July LOL), I am reminded to take a look at how I spend my own time and start to be more intentional with it. I live a very beautiful life and I never want to take it for granted. I am grateful for the countless blessings that surround me, and I am so happy to be present to all of this.
I woke up so excited to the sun shining after how dull and gloomy it was yesterday. I also am so excited that today is one of my favorite angel numbers: 1/11!
111 symbolizes new beginnings, but also being in touch with your intuition. I see 111 a lot, and I even saw in on a license plate less than an hour before my husband was proposing to me! I understand that scientifically seeing these repetitive numbers is just because of neuroplasticity (like when you’re thinking about buying a certain car & then you see it everywhere on the road), but I still feel magic and love when I see angel numbers.
I want to take this time for a prayer for new beginnings in humanity:
I pray that empathy and curiosity become more prevalent than judgement and resentment. I pray that kindness and love is the most common practice in this world, removing all of the negativity and evilness. I pray that everyone who is in need is given access to what they need to not only survive, but thrive. I pray that we truly connect with each other and our world, rather than having superficial connections based on views and followers. I pray that humans recognize that there is strength in numbers, and together we can make change in this world.
I always say that we are more alike than we are different. We all have traumas, we all have stories, we all have emotions, and we all have the ability to learn and adapt. As we learn more about our experiences and how they impacted us, the more we can heal and learn to truly love ourselves. When we are feeling full of love and gratitude, we can pour that same energy into others and into this world.
Sending extra love to everyone this lovely Saturday, and wishing everyone a happy 111!
finding light in the dark 