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Addicted to Fear

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I’m addicted to the things I hate.

The screens, the scrolling, staying up-to-date.

Overstimulated by horrific news and power dynamics.

Sickened by tax dollars funding elite pedophiles over academics.

Chaos and violence all on the “for you” pages.

Faith and love diminishes as fear and doubt rages.

Was this the plan all along? Addicted to screens and misinformation?

Fighting with our loved ones and neglecting the future generation?

We need regulated nervous systems and our minds at ease.

We need less shame and hatred, we need more kindness and peace.

The screens and socials are made to keep us depressed and addicted.

Constantly comparing and yearning for these “wonderful lives” that are depicted.

When we know deep down that none of this is real.

We scroll, we numb out and we forget how to feel.

We lose ourselves a little more each day that we don’t tune in.

We let our authenticity die every time that we log in.

Is this the future we want? Is this the life we want to live?

Do you want to stay stuck in fear with nothing left to give?

Our brains are wired for survival, yet in ways it keeps us trapped.

Constantly looking for negativity and disarray on the apps.

Take your power back- be mindful and intentional with how you spend your time.

Focus on what you can control, and leave the rest up to the divine.

NYE 2025

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2025 was a wild ride for sure- full of many of highs and lows. Highs included new tattoos, celebrating birthdays and bachelorettes, midwest travels, and going to my first NFL game w/ my mom! Lows included recovering from my tonsillectomy/adenoidectomy/turbinate reduction surgery, finding out our cat Mushu has diabetes, and grieving the loss of loved ones.

Amidst all of the chaos that life brings, I still have the best life partner, loving family members, supportive friends, and I just entered my 30s in good health. I am so grateful for this wonderful life, and as I enter 2026, I can’t help but feel blessed.

Wishing everyone a happy new year- I hope 2026 shows us all how good it can truly get!

Rainy Sunday

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I can hear the rain falling outside as I lay in bed, and it makes me not want to get up. Luckily, I really don’t have to since I did laundry and grocery shopping already this weekend, but my ass will go crazy if I stay in bed all day.

Once I get up I’ll do some stretching, mainly because my neck/shoulders have been a bit tight. After that I need to burn another one of my 13 wishes that I wrote on the Winter Solstice. I saw this idea that you write 13 wishes down, fold them up real small, and then each day from December 24th- January 4th you pick one up (don’t read it) and burn it. Then on January 5th, that last wish left you’ll own up, and now that is the one that you have to make happen in 2026!

I like this idea, because those other ones that you burn are just being released to the Universe, and you just have to have faith and trust that those wishes are being worked on. Then it also brings down the endless “resolutions” to one true dream that you can dedicate time and focus to.

I’ll roll out of bed here soon, but for now I’ll be enjoying snuggles with my husband and listening to Bailey Sarian. I hope everyone has a relaxing Sunday.

dark ass pic from my bed

First Quarter Moon Journal Prompts

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from @ sistersvillage on IG
  1. I have transformed the part of myself that was scared to be seen. I posted my raw, filter free reels this year on IG as a way to just practice letting my real thoughts out in a public way. I transformed myself into a more confident version of myself, and I am much less fearful of sharing my thought and opinions. I no longer care if people don’t like me, because I know who I am and I have the best support around me.
  2. I have learned to be more patient with myself. I’ve had some hard breakdowns this year for sure, and I felt frustration when they were the same ones I have had before, but there’s a reason they resurfaced. I now was able to move through those hard emotions with more maturity and understanding, and it slowly becomes less and less intense. I am learning how to be my own best friend and hype-woman, because I know I am a great hype-woman for my friends, and I deserve to give myself that same energy.
  3. In 2026, the confident, best friend version of me is ready to take over. Hyping myself and others up, spreading joy and laughter, and just being a bright, bold light in this world. There’s no more time to shrink, because when we shine, we allow others to shine too.

Full Moon Release 8/9

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I am releasing perfectionism; I no longer hold myself to impossible standards, I just prioritize authenticity.

I am releasing the tension and stress that is stored in my physical body.

I am releasing the negative thoughts and feelings that are keeping me from following my dreams.

I am releasing all attachments that are not genuine or pure; I only have space for people who lift me up and love me in the same way I do for them.

I am releasing any left over resentment and anger that has been sitting in my body and mind.

I am releasing the negative programming and thoughts that I absorbed from others who were projecting their own fears and insecurity onto me.

I am releasing the feeling of needing to prioritize other people’s comfort over my own; I am allowed and encouraged to speak up for myself when I feel uncomfortable.

I release all that no longer serves me, or my higher purpose, and I do so gently and with love.

Happy Full Moon!

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New Moon Release 5-26-25

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Happy New Moon!! 🙌🏼

This new moon, I’m setting the intention of being less in the mindset of “all or nothing.” This comes into play a lot in my life whenever I am trying to reach a new goal or start a new project, and I know it stems from the perfectionism. This mindset has hurt me in the past when it comes to dieting, as well as healing and even starting my podcast.

When I was doing the Ketogenic diet to lose weight years ago, I was all the way in. I ate all the protein I needed, I made sure to never go over 20 net carbs a day, and when I did, I punished myself for it. I’d mentally beat the shit out of myself for going over as if that would change my entire progress. Even if it did, which it did not, I never deserved to treat myself the way I did. That was way more unhealthy than if I had eaten 20 more carbs!

When it comes to my healing journey, along the way I have found that there is so much to heal from, and I was starting to look at myself as this never-ending project. I was just a human full of issues and problems that would never be fully solved, so I either had to try harder or give up entirely- that is literally NOT the solution. I can be aware and mindful in my life, and the only way to truly grow and evolve is to keep living and just keep checking back in with yourself. I am not a project that needs consistent tweaking and fixing- I am an evolving human.

As far as the podcast that I’ve started behind the scenes, I find myself completely delaying and avoiding it, because I care a lot about it. I know that I want it to be good, but I also am actively fighting against my perfectionism while recording, because I already decided to not edit ANY of it. I ultimately decided that because I know that I will edit and edit and edit until there is nothing left, when my real intention with this podcast is to be raw and real. I can be raw and real at anytime, so I can truly record at anytime- but I get on the mindset of “all or nothing.”

I’m not pouring all of my effort and trying to make this the best (which also applies to everything in my life) my mind then goes: “well, then I shouldn’t do anything at all”- but that is my anxiety and perfectionism taking over. I know in my heart and soul that the black and white thinking is not how we’re meant to be in this world; it’s truly all gray. We’re allowed to be creative and flexible- in fact, it’s encouraged over being rigid.

I am releasing these rigid thoughts and feelings, and I am tuning into the creative flow of life. I welcome all love, abundance, and happiness to flow into my life, and may I be present enough to feel it all. Thank you, thank you, thank you! ✨

Welcome May

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Wow, I can’t believe it’s already May! Getting closer to sunny weather and summertime! I am starting off this month with a girls trip to celebrate my friend’s 30th birthday!! I’m so excited for this month, I can just feel good vibes and energy all heading my way!

I pray that May brings peace and abundance to all of us who are seeking it.

I pray that May is full of love and happiness, and everyone is able to receive it.

I pray that May brings miracles and blessings that leave us so beyond in awe and strengthen our faith in the universe.

I pray that May shows you so many signs and synchronicities; I pray you feel how close your angels and guides are.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. ♡

Sunday/New Moon 4-27-25

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Good morning! I’m so happy to see the sun shining on this gorgeous day- a day of rest and resetting. Self care is on the list today- which includes a little bit of spoiling ourselves with some pedicures today. My husband and I haven’t had pedicures since November… LOL so we’re a bit overdue. I also wanted to get one before my girls trip coming up!

I’m also gonna pick up some groceries today and do my best to have a more nutritious week than I have been having lately, because I know my body deserves to be healthy and full of vitamins and nutrients. This part is always harder for me, but I am going to focus on small wins and keep reminding myself why I am doing this.

New moons are time for new intentions, and since we are no longer in eclipse season, the energy is much calmer. Plant those seeds that you wish to grow, and take time to nourish them. No rushing, no pushing- just trusting in the divine timing of it all. I am focusing on my physical and mental health, as well as how I can be more grounded- both in nature and in my own positive energy.

Tuesday Gratitude / Intentions

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I am only in control of myself and my mindset, and I choose a life of gratitude and peace.

I am blessed to have a job, and I do well at my job. I am choosing to stay in my lane and focus on my own goals.

I am thankful to have a respectful, loving, hardworking husband, and I’m so happy we are married.

I am grateful that I woke up in a cozy bed, in a warm home with a roof over my head. I pray that all humans are able to have proper shelter and are protected during the colder seasons.

Overall my life is full of blessings and abundance, and I can feel my angels surrounding me. I am thankful for today.