healing journey

Happy April / Happy Full Moon!

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I’m using my blog here to cross off item number five on the above list! Happy full moon to everyone!

This full moon, I am letting go of:

• comparison- my journey is my own, and I can only compare myself to who I was yesterday. I cannot compare my body or my lifestyle to other people who do not live my life or have my brain.

• worries that are beyond my control- sometimes I hold onto work stress, as well as general life stress about family and future things that may never happen, and this is only robbing myself of being present and being happy. I can only control so much, and I can trust myself to get through any situations without having to overthink and worry.

• self – doubt- I hold myself back from goals due to my lack of self trust. I often can get into all or nothing mindsets which doesn’t work well when it comes to my health goals (diet mainly), because I have had issues in the past with getting obsessive. I know it’s been years and I have grown a lot, but I clearly still have some fear there.

I am releasing all of these things, as well as anything else that is keeping me blocked and stuck in cycles that are not benefiting me.

May this full moon be magical and powerful for everyone!

Just A Happy Sunday

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Today was such a nice day, despite the weather being windy and cloudy. My husband and I went to a very late breakfast at our usual spot, which was delicious as always! Prior to that I started laundry, took care of the dishes as well as the garbage (these are normally my husband’s chores, but I was feeling motivated this morning LOL) and I picked up the groceries! It was nice to have all of that done early in the morning.

This afternoon I decided to make some juice for the week, which are all f*cking delicious! I love when I have my husband try new juice recipes and seeing how he lights up after trying each one! I’ll post the pictures I put on my snapchat story below!

Overall, today was such a great day! We’re gonna have some dinner soon and I may do some diamond beading after that. I was thinking about finally starting an audiobook I downloaded a while ago, but I also may just listen to a true crime podcast like I usually do. I’m determined to make this week ahead a good week! Sending love and good vibes to everyone!

Wednesday Words

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I woke up finally feeling a lot better after feeling like shit the last couple days! I fell asleep at 7pm last night, woke up at 10pm really confused LOL but was happy to be able to go back to sleep for several hours.

This morning I was extremely grateful that I was feeling up for a shower and an iced coffee! I am convinced that the eclipse and full moon had something to do with this. I heard some woo-woo gal talking about how sometimes when we are feeling off or numb in our julian bodies, that is because our spirit/soul is out doing work in the spiritual realm to prepare for your next chapter here on Earth. I love me some magical woo-woo stuff so I am here for that explanation!

This just feels like a transformational year in general, and I know that love, light and God will prevail against all evil. Truths will continue to be revealed, the collective will continue to awaken and rise, and we were all born to be here during this time. I have faith it was all for a reason, and I will continue to have faith over fear.

Saturday Gratitude

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Gratitude always makes me feel more present and grounded, so I want to take a moment to list what is keeping me happy lately:

• my husband (he’s the best) ♡

• diamond dot art

• iced coffee

• morbid podcast

• cute blank cards w/ colorful envelopes

• my comfy bed

• crafting with my gal friends

Weekend Vibes

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Yesterday was such a lovely day! My husband and I went out to breakfast, grabbed some more diamond by numbers from Hobby Lobby, and I made some yummy fresh juice and lemon ginger shots for the week!

Today I’m gonna call my friend who is doing some traveling in Peru to hear about all her adventures and see what her next plans are, and other than that, it should be a nice chill day!

The sun has been shining all weekend and we finally got into 40 degree weather, so basically I have been reborn and I’m alive again! LOL! However I definitely am ready to smell some grass and flowers- but we’re getting close!!

I hope everyone has a lovely Sunday!

new diamond by number purchases!

Valentine’s Day

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Although it’s a Hallmark holiday, today is considered a day about love. I pray that this world can see love and light prevail over the darkness. It’s disheartening to see certain things all over the media, but also good that things are coming to light- so long as we do something about it.

Tuesday AM Gratitude

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I’ve been having some anxiety and restlessness, likely all stemming from my feed on social media, so I think it’s important for me to get grounded in gratitude this morning.

I’m grateful for my husband. He is respectful, hard-working, intelligent, and he makes me feel so loved and protected. I love laughing with him, coming home to him, sleeping next to him, and overall just being with him. Even though it’s been 14+ years together, I still feel so excited about us and our love. I’m forever grateful for him and our marriage.

I’m grateful for my job. I am not micro-managed, I have freedom to take time off and even unpaid time off if I don’t have the PTO, and my bosses aren’t toxic like the other ones I have had. They don’t belittle people or make anyone cry, and they actually care about people and their employees.

I am grateful for our home. We have everything we could ever need in our home: heat, electricity, clean water, appliances, groceries, toiletries, garage etc. We are blessed to have an affordable mortgage and HOA, and overall I do love our townhome. We’re by a nice park and not too far from our downtown area, so even the location is very nice!

I’m grateful for my blog. I feel like if it weren’t for my blog, I may not write as much as I do now. I remember wanting to start my blog and being so nervous about it, and now I just post whatever I am feeling and I try to do a little writing every day, even if it’s a blurb on a daily prompt post. I am grateful for writing in general, as it’s a great outlet, and it’s a nice way to be creative.

I’m grateful to be awake and typing this today. I’m grateful that I have my health, and I am able to easily get out of bed and get ready for my day on my own. My legs and arms work, as well as my lungs and heart. I don’t have to think about breathing or pumping my blood- my amazing body just does it for me. The fact that I can walk, talk, eat and breathe all on my own is a blessing that I never want to take for granted. In moments when I have bad body image problems, I remember that my body is functioning as designed to keep me alive, and how I look is the least important thing about me.

Addicted to Fear

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I’m addicted to the things I hate.

The screens, the scrolling, staying up-to-date.

Overstimulated by horrific news and power dynamics.

Sickened by tax dollars funding elite pedophiles over academics.

Chaos and violence all on the “for you” pages.

Faith and love diminishes as fear and doubt rages.

Was this the plan all along? Addicted to screens and misinformation?

Fighting with our loved ones and neglecting the future generation?

We need regulated nervous systems and our minds at ease.

We need less shame and hatred, we need more kindness and peace.

The screens and socials are made to keep us depressed and addicted.

Constantly comparing and yearning for these “wonderful lives” that are depicted.

When we know deep down that none of this is real.

We scroll, we numb out and we forget how to feel.

We lose ourselves a little more each day that we don’t tune in.

We let our authenticity die every time that we log in.

Is this the future we want? Is this the life we want to live?

Do you want to stay stuck in fear with nothing left to give?

Our brains are wired for survival, yet in ways it keeps us trapped.

Constantly looking for negativity and disarray on the apps.

Take your power back- be mindful and intentional with how you spend your time.

Focus on what you can control, and leave the rest up to the divine.