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Weekend Vibes

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Yesterday was such a lovely day! My husband and I went out to breakfast, grabbed some more diamond by numbers from Hobby Lobby, and I made some yummy fresh juice and lemon ginger shots for the week!

Today I’m gonna call my friend who is doing some traveling in Peru to hear about all her adventures and see what her next plans are, and other than that, it should be a nice chill day!

The sun has been shining all weekend and we finally got into 40 degree weather, so basically I have been reborn and I’m alive again! LOL! However I definitely am ready to smell some grass and flowers- but we’re getting close!!

I hope everyone has a lovely Sunday!

new diamond by number purchases!

Valentine’s Day

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Although it’s a Hallmark holiday, today is considered a day about love. I pray that this world can see love and light prevail over the darkness. It’s disheartening to see certain things all over the media, but also good that things are coming to light- so long as we do something about it.

Tuesday AM Gratitude

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I’ve been having some anxiety and restlessness, likely all stemming from my feed on social media, so I think it’s important for me to get grounded in gratitude this morning.

I’m grateful for my husband. He is respectful, hard-working, intelligent, and he makes me feel so loved and protected. I love laughing with him, coming home to him, sleeping next to him, and overall just being with him. Even though it’s been 14+ years together, I still feel so excited about us and our love. I’m forever grateful for him and our marriage.

I’m grateful for my job. I am not micro-managed, I have freedom to take time off and even unpaid time off if I don’t have the PTO, and my bosses aren’t toxic like the other ones I have had. They don’t belittle people or make anyone cry, and they actually care about people and their employees.

I am grateful for our home. We have everything we could ever need in our home: heat, electricity, clean water, appliances, groceries, toiletries, garage etc. We are blessed to have an affordable mortgage and HOA, and overall I do love our townhome. We’re by a nice park and not too far from our downtown area, so even the location is very nice!

I’m grateful for my blog. I feel like if it weren’t for my blog, I may not write as much as I do now. I remember wanting to start my blog and being so nervous about it, and now I just post whatever I am feeling and I try to do a little writing every day, even if it’s a blurb on a daily prompt post. I am grateful for writing in general, as it’s a great outlet, and it’s a nice way to be creative.

I’m grateful to be awake and typing this today. I’m grateful that I have my health, and I am able to easily get out of bed and get ready for my day on my own. My legs and arms work, as well as my lungs and heart. I don’t have to think about breathing or pumping my blood- my amazing body just does it for me. The fact that I can walk, talk, eat and breathe all on my own is a blessing that I never want to take for granted. In moments when I have bad body image problems, I remember that my body is functioning as designed to keep me alive, and how I look is the least important thing about me.

Addicted to Fear

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I’m addicted to the things I hate.

The screens, the scrolling, staying up-to-date.

Overstimulated by horrific news and power dynamics.

Sickened by tax dollars funding elite pedophiles over academics.

Chaos and violence all on the “for you” pages.

Faith and love diminishes as fear and doubt rages.

Was this the plan all along? Addicted to screens and misinformation?

Fighting with our loved ones and neglecting the future generation?

We need regulated nervous systems and our minds at ease.

We need less shame and hatred, we need more kindness and peace.

The screens and socials are made to keep us depressed and addicted.

Constantly comparing and yearning for these “wonderful lives” that are depicted.

When we know deep down that none of this is real.

We scroll, we numb out and we forget how to feel.

We lose ourselves a little more each day that we don’t tune in.

We let our authenticity die every time that we log in.

Is this the future we want? Is this the life we want to live?

Do you want to stay stuck in fear with nothing left to give?

Our brains are wired for survival, yet in ways it keeps us trapped.

Constantly looking for negativity and disarray on the apps.

Take your power back- be mindful and intentional with how you spend your time.

Focus on what you can control, and leave the rest up to the divine.

Hello February

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Today is the start of a new month, and it also happens to be Sunday, and we have a full moon! This feels like a few different fresh beginnings and I am here for it!

Yesterday was so much fun! I loved catching up with my friend at starbucks, and I also loved hanging with my other friends doing diamond by number crafts! The canvases look hella intimidating at first, and honestly I am nowhere near done, but once you start doing it, it’s so easy to just get into flow state and keep going!

We had run to the dollar store before starting our crafts to grab little plastic organizers for our diamonds/beads, and we happened to find tiny keychain versions of diamond by numbers! We ended up each picking out one and my friend grabbed one for her daughter, as well as another small paint by number and we had a successful trip!

Today I’m catching up with my high school BFF at breakfast and I’m so excited to see her and enjoy a delicious omelette! She’s pregnant and her baby shower is a month away so I’m super happy for her and can’t wait to hear about how everything is going!

Later on my husband will go to his parents house for family dinner, and some point before or after that I will need to touch up his hair (I retwist his locs and I definitely skipped last weekend). I just feel like today is going to be a great day, and I’m just feeling so very blessed.

Saturday 1/31

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Had a coffee date with a friend this morning! It was nice to catch up and enjoy starbucks inside! My husband and I just picked up groceries and I’m gonna head over to another friend’s house in an hour or so to hang out! Tomorrow I’ll also be catching up with another friend so I am just filling my cup with connection and fun this weekend! This is much needed after all the stress of January, so I’m praying it’ll be a nice reset and way to start off February!

Monday AM: Grateful

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I’m grateful I woke up in a warm bed next to the love of my life this morning.

I’m grateful that I can afford to treat myself to a coffee this morning.

I’m grateful I have a job to go to that, although it can be stressful at times, it funds my life and allows me to pay my bills.

I’m grateful for hot coffee on a freezing cold day.

I’m grateful for my “chill” playlist, as it will keep me grounded in my work today.

I’m grateful for empathetic, passionate people.

Sunday PM

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It’s 9:44pm and I’m off to sleep. Hoping to get a solid 8 hours before work tomorrow. Regardless of how much sleep I get, and regardless of the fact that mother nature paid her visit today giving me insane cramps, I am determined to make tomorrow a great day. Getting some sleep will help with that for sure, and laying on this heating pad is giving me such relief. I am so grateful that I had such a wonderful weekend with my husband, and I know this will be a great week ahead.

Mental Health Day

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I ended up reaching out to my boss and letting her know I cannot come in today. I’ve been so overwhelmed at work lately, and these last seven weeks have been harder than the entire two years I’ve worked there. I’m glad I have understanding bosses, as I really haven’t had that in the past and I could have never asked for just a mental health day; but here I can be honest and just say “I need a day so I don’t burn out,” and they get it! Now I can rest and take this little break for myself and come back on Monday feeling recharged and ready to tackle the world!