Yesterday I got to hang out with some good friends and celebrate my 30th birthday! We all went to the local fair in town and it was so fun to eat fair food and ride rides like a little kid again! I had the best time, and it’s crazy to think that some of the friends I have are friends I’ve had for 15-20 years! It’s just crazy how we all have grown and evolved over the years, yet we’re still here supporting each other. I’m just feeling so happy and blessed and this is definitely one of the highlights of 2025 for me!
Today was such an incredible day. My family from Iowa came out to visit and take me and my husband out for my birthday. They also blessed us with a very generous gift, and I’m beyond grateful for them. I feel just so grateful and lucky honestly, and I am just happy to be present to it all.
My husband and I also went over to visit his family at the farmer’s market! They have a barbecue business and they’re a vendor at the market every Friday, so we decided to stop by and say hi! When we were leaving the market, another vendor selling cute jewelry caught my eye, and I ended up getting a cute evil eye bracelet, ring, and a pair of snake earrings! It was 3 for $30 and I just happened to have $30 cash in my wallet!
Tomorrow I get to see some of my good friends as we all get together to celebrate my birthday!! We’re gonna go to the local fair and I can’t wait to get a funnel cake as my birthday cake! I’m not a huge cake fan, but I loooveee me some funnel cake so honestly I’m so excited for this! I’m also just excited to see all the people who make me happy and feel loved- it’s just the best feeling.
I also get to take a mini girls trip early next week to go see Glass Animals in concert and I am looking forward to that as well! I’m just feeling so blessed and happy to be living this life. I’ve healed enough that I am actually able to feel the love around me and truly be happy, and I am so grateful for that.
I went through a whirlwind of a mental health journey, and I’m still forever learning and evolving (as we all are)
I feel like so much abundance is on the horizon
Like I’m shedding these layers of programming
My inner critic is shrinking
My inner child is happy and growing
My inner compass is aligned
My inner knowing is strong
I always had the strength – I survived through everything in the last 3 decades
I survived when I was too young to know how to- my brain / amygdala knew how to though
I lived a lot of my life in survival mode, and within the last couple years I have finally been able to feel present- I’ve cried tears of joy over just being.
Just being.
And it’s crazy to think that maybe that’s the them of 30s… just being.
As a fellow Leo, I am taking this new moon personal and I am reminding myself of who I am. This is about self-expression and self-admiration; celebrating your evolutions and successes while being unapologetic about it.
I’ve been feeling more pulled to be creative and be authentic. I’ve been posting reels on Instagram that are purely just me being me- like videos I send to my friends via snapchat. I am just allowing the energy to flow and be, rather than analyzing and trying to perfect everything I am doing.
I have come a long way in these almost 30 years of life (this is my last week in my 20s!), and I am beyond blessed and grateful for this life. On this forever healing journey, I have gone through moments where I felt like I’ve made zero progress. I’ve had times I felt like I completely reverted back to being controlled by my anxiety, but I am recognizing time and time again that it’s impossible to be “perfect” at healing.
Now that I also realize how much I do swing between “neglect” and “perfectionism” on this journey, I am reminding myself that I know that I am not aiming for perfection. I’m aiming to be able to “repair after rupture,” so basically get back up after I inevitably fall out of routine. Every time that I start again after falling into my anxiety, that is something to celebrate.
I hope you take time today to recognize your strength and your growth. May all of the intentions you set today be wrapped in divine light and love.
This weekend is busy, but it’s full of so much joy which is much needed. Yesterday was the 4th, so we went over to our friend’s house as they were hosting a BBQ. It was so nice to hang with everyone and also enjoy the bomb ass food!
Today my husband and I went to breakfast at our favorite place, and now we’re just chilling before I leave to hang with one of my other friends! I get to meet her new kitten today and we’re just gonna go with the glow and see where the day takes us! Part of me is hoping we go to the pool because it is hot and humid as hell today!
Tomorrow my husband has his go-karting league so I’m going to go watch him race! His friend who joined last time is going to race too, and this time his fiancé (also our friend) is going to join so her and I can grab a drink and watch our men do their thing!
The best part of all is my office is closed on Monday for construction so then I have a day to rest and recharge before the week! I’m just feeling so blessed and grateful to be present for the joy around me. July is feeling magical so far!
Happy Friday!! Lorde’s new album came out! I have already listened through twice considering it is only 35 minutes long, and I love it! I have a nail appointment today, and we’re going to our friend’s game night tonight, and then tomorrow morning I get my hair done and we have another friend’s house-warming party! It’s going to be a great weekend! Who else has fun weekend plans??
I saw this post that said something along the lines of “start thinking of people as energy, you’ll spend your time wiser.” There’s just no point in spending time with energy vampires, all they do is suck the light out of you.
High school never ends until you decide it does. No matter where you work or where you further your education, you’ll have people around you who still want to spread lies and drama as a form of their own entertainment. It is up to you if you’re going to feed into that energy.
Gratitude is a magical thing. I find that I am so much more present and happy when I practice daily gratitude.
Success and being “rich” looks different to everyone- get specific with yourself about your dream life. What does it look like?
Love is always the answer, and I believe that no amount of material items could replace the feeling of genuine love and connection.
Time to check in and count some blessings. Life’s been feeling heavy lately, and I am ready to release this energy and allow good vibes to flow. I know there is so much beauty beyond the pain when we are present enough to see it.
I am grateful for my husband- I’m blessed to have someone in my life who is such a supportive, caring person; truly my rock. I feel like I have a teammate in this lifetime, and I am so happy to see our evolution throughout the years. He makes me feel beautiful every day, and I just feel so lucky to have him in my life.
I am grateful that we both have our jobs. We’re blessed to have jobs that allow us to live our life comfortably, and we’re blessed to not hate our jobs as well. I’m very grateful to be at my current job, and honestly I can’t see myself leaving unless I actually get to be a stay at home mom one day. My husband has climbed up through departments at his job over the last ten years, and I’m just so proud of all of his growth.
I’m grateful for our home. We everything we could ever need in our home. From food and clean water, to appliances and electricity- we’re blessed to have access to all of these things and to be able to afford them.
I’m grateful for my genuine friends. I am blessed to have friends who truly love and support me for who I am. I have friends who don’t see me as competition or anything other than a loved one, and that’s how I see them as well. We all just want to see each other thriving and happy.
I am grateful for sunshine and nature. Sitting in the grass and just being still while soaking up the sun has been a way for me to ground myself and kind of let go. I’ve done this a few times during my current grieving, and I will say it feels good to just sit in it all. Being in nature just reminds me of how small we all are in this world, and how blessed we are to just be here.
More than honorable mentions: my cats, iced coffee, music, my car, slippers, yoga pants, my comfy bed, shampoo, youtube… there are truly so many things I could list, and for that I am also grateful. I live an incredible, abundant life, and although it feels heavy and dark at times, I know how lucky I am, and I know how important it is to check in and count our blessings.
From Dark to Light 