May September bring a calmness to your life, allowing you to slow down and be present.
May September show you that miracles can happen and there truly is magic in the world around you.
May September bring abundance and luck around every corner, surprising and inspiring your inner child.
May September allow you to soak in all that you’ve created and all that you have accomplished over the past few years.
You have evolved, and you will continue to evolve. The breakdowns have lead to breakthroughs. The hardships have strengthened your boundaries. You aren’t a never-ending project that needs fixing, you’re a unique, powerful being that deserves to love yourself in the same way that you love everyone else. May September open your eyes to that.
Last night my high school BFF slept over! We watched movies, ate snacks, and did some spooky crafts! It was so nice to just unwind and have fun! We also went and grabbed some coffee this morning and walked around the little downtown area which was nice! Now my husband and I are headed to breakfast and she went home to enjoy the rest of her Sunday! I’m so grateful for weekends like these!
Feeling a lot lighter today after sitting in some heavy emotions yesterday. Crying is truly such a good release, and boy did I let myself ugly sob! I also got to talk to my therapist and told her I was feeling very angry. She asked what I am feeling angry about, and so I decided to read her the part of my blog from the other day where I wrote in all caps about the things I was upset about. The way that reading words out loud is sooooo different than writing… I started BAWLING. I feel like reading it out loud really helped bring the release I needed from the last couple days, and as hard as it was, it felt so good.
My name is Jena, and it’s pronounced “Jenna.” The amount of times I was called “Gina” by substitute teachers really confused me as a kid! My name is Jena because originally my parents were thinking about naming me Genesis. I wouldn’t not consider myself religious, and honestly, I’m not sure if my parents really would consider themselves religious anymore either, but I definitely believe in a higher power.
Genesis refers to the origin or beginning of something, and me arriving in their lives as their first (and only) child was definitely a new beginning for my parents. When I was young my dad was in a band, and he wrote a song called “Jena Says,” which was a play on Genesis as far as I know. I should probably ask to hear this song, or at least read the lyrics at some point.
I’ve always had this dream of starting a podcast, and I’ve always said it would be called “Jena Says,” because it gives homage to Genesis and new beginnings, but it also gives me freedom to talk about any and all topics, rather than being limited to one genre. I know I’d talk about my healing and spiritual journey, but I’d also love to talk about dental insurance being horrendous and relationships and happy things! I’d also love to have friends and guests on to discuss topics that they feel passionate about!
It’s something I’ve had in my heart for a while, and I’m working on trying to get past self-sabotaging habits and breaking through perfectionism. I’m recognizing that I just need to start doing something regularly, even if it’s just writing up a paragraph or recording for five minutes. Cocoon season is right around the corner, so as I hibernate in my home, maybe I can dive into this dream.
We were never meant to take on the weight of the world, we’re meant to focus on making our own world better and allowing that to pour into the rest of the universe.
It can be hard to watch loved ones struggle and be stressed, but that is when they need love and support more than ever.
“Give, but don’t let it empty you.”
Confirmation bias is real- use it to your advantage.
Boredom means you aren’t in constant chaos; you feeling bored? Congratulations, you’ve found peace.
You don’t have to fix anyone else’s problems, just like they don’t have to solve yours.
I am releasing perfectionism; I no longer hold myself to impossible standards, I just prioritize authenticity.
I am releasing the tension and stress that is stored in my physical body.
I am releasing the negative thoughts and feelings that are keeping me from following my dreams.
I am releasing all attachments that are not genuine or pure; I only have space for people who lift me up and love me in the same way I do for them.
I am releasing any left over resentment and anger that has been sitting in my body and mind.
I am releasing the negative programming and thoughts that I absorbed from others who were projecting their own fears and insecurity onto me.
I am releasing the feeling of needing to prioritize other people’s comfort over my own; I am allowed and encouraged to speak up for myself when I feel uncomfortable.
I release all that no longer serves me, or my higher purpose, and I do so gently and with love.
finding light in the dark 