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Happy December: New Moon Edition

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When it comes to new moons and full moons, I have been trying to make it a habit to do journal prompts from the Sisters Village instagram page. I find that her prompts are helpful and with her studying astrology, the prompts are on theme with what is going on in the celestial realm.

She writes down a to-do list which also often contains some sort of writing task, and her one she posted for today’s new moon said to write a gratitude list. I know I do that a lot here on my blog, but starting off the new month I think it’s a great time to sit and focus on what blessings surround us.

This December, I am grateful for:

  • My health/mental health. I can walk, talk, eat, and live life all on my own without assistance. I have access to doctors and my therapist who has especially helped me with my mental health over the past few years. I am no longer stuck in panic attacks or deep depression every day of my life, and I have learned so much about myself. This journey has only made me more curious and empathetic towards my mind and body, therefore allowing me to love myself.
  • My husband. I knew when I was 16 years old that I was going to marry my husband, and we finally tied the knot this year! Our wedding day was everything I ever dreamed of, and although the wedding was a huge highlight of our relationship, I am so thankful for the years of roots and foundation we built together. My husband was with me during some of the hardest parts of my life, and he never thought to leave or run away- instead he was my rock. He loved me for me and has always encouraged me to be my favorite version of myself- and I am that when I’m with him. I am so grateful for this love, and I pray everyone finds a healthy, strong love like this.
  • Our home. We bought our townhome over eight years ago, and I am still so happy with where we are. We have plenty of space, all of our appliances work, and we are blessed to be able to afford our mortgage and utilities. I always grew up in an apartment, and I am the only child, so I am the first person in my immediate family to purchase a home! I always wanted a home with a garage and I am lucky to say we have a two-car garage attached to our home. I am so thankful to have a warm place to sleep every night.
  • I am grateful to have such good friends, who truly love me and wish the best for me and my husband. I love friends who I can just talk to for hours, laughing a lot with no judgement. I love friends who are excited for my wins, just as much as I am excited for theirs, and overall I just enjoy the genuine love and support.

I could go on and on, but instead I’m gonna post a couple of the slides from that Sisters Village page, that way if anyone else wants to join along in some journaling/reflecting, you can!

As part of my new moon ritual, I’ll journal these other prompts in my actual writing diary today with some incense and calming music. Sending everyone so much love this holiday season, and I hope December is filled with love, miracles and joy! ✨

Good Morning, Good Life. 11•29•24

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It’s the second to last day of November, which means the end of the year is upon us. It also means it’s now officially Christmas, so don’t mind me obsessing over lights and other cute decorations for the rest of the winter season LOL. As we come to a close on 2024, I can’t help but feel so grateful and emotional looking back at this incredible year!

This year was all about our wedding, which makes sense considering my husband proposed a year and four days ago. In March, I went dress shopping with my mom and close friends and I was lucky enough to find my wedding dress! Not only was it the first dress I tried on, but it was also on clearance for $90! I remember I had a night out with a couple of my high school besties that night too, and it was just such a great time!

In July, me and those same two friends went to Minneapolis to see Qveen Herby live in concert! This was one of my dream concerts and I got to see her with my best friends on the day before my birthday!!! Then on my birthday we all went shopping at the Mall of America and just had so much fun! That experience also offered opportunities for me to reflect and grow, and I am so thankful to have these memories.

At the end of September, my now husband and I flew down to Florida to start our wedding trip!! We were able to spend a few days in Pensacola Beach just chilling with my family and then we had his family and our friends trickle in before the actual wedding day. I’m honestly so glad we had a pre-vacation prior to our wedding- highly recommend this! Then at sunset on 10/2/2024, we said our “I do’s” and celebrated our marriage with all of our closest loved ones. We celebrated with a nice dinner afterwards and enjoyed a fun night!

After the wedding we went over to Orlando and enjoyed Harry Potter World before we left in a hurry due to hurricane Milton, and honestly we were so happy to come home and just be with our fur babies in our own bed. We had our Til Death Do Us Party a couple weeks after we got back, and since then we’ve just been enjoying the quiet after all the busyness.

We were invited to our friends’ home yesterday for Thanksgiving, and we enjoyed a delicious meal with them and their kids- this was honestly my favorite Thanksgiving so far! I never enjoyed the holiday as a kid because I don’t like any of the classic Thanksgiving food, but honestly this year I tried the ham my friend made and it was good! She did a great job and I was happy to see other side options rather than the stuffing and green bean casserole I usually avoid.

I know I only listed a few core events of this year, but these few events have made 2024 one of, if not the best year of my life. I also knew it would be, mainly because we were getting married, but it’s still so great that I had so much time with great friends and family this year. My heart and soul are just feeling so full, and I’m excited to see what the rest of the year brings.

There’s still a whole month left of memories to make, and now that it’s Christmastime, it’s the most wonderful time of the year!!🎄♥️✨

said yes to the dress!
qveen @ the fillmore
hello 29!
the night before the wedding
best day ever
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rainy hogwarts
the dragon
drunk in love
disposable cameras ftw
my friend’s fire ass thanksgiving dinner
yummy mini cheesecake

Tuesday Thoughts (5:55 edition)

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I try to start my day with gratitude, and when I do this I always find myself going to the first moment of the day and being thankful for our bed. My husband and I get to wake up with a roof over our head in a comfortable, warm bed next to each other every day- and this is something I will forever be grateful for.

I am grateful everyday when both my husband and I make it to and from work safely, as I learned at a young age how impermanent life really is. This entire experience is temporary, which is both terrifying and relieving. It’s terrifying because everything we have grown to love here is simply temporary, and we have no idea how long any relationship, job, or life will last. It’s also relieving for the same reasons, because when we are in the depths of darkness and struggle, we can stop and recognize that this is absolutely temporary.

We’re allowed to change and make new choices. If we feel stuck or unmotivated, we have the ability to move on from people, places and jobs and move onto the next opportunity life brings. If you’re upset with your habits and how you spend your day to day life, write it all out and look at what you want to change. I’m writing this as I walk on my treadmill, because I want to be the person who cares about moving her body and being healthy.

When I think about reasons to workout and to eat better, I always am thinking about my future self. I’m someone who wants to become a new mom in her 30s and I’m also someone who wants to feel physically and mentally well, and I know that moving my body and eating healthier will help with all of those goals. I’m just trying to stay in the mindset of doing the things that my dream self would do. Writing, working out, connecting with friends, and eventually becoming a mom and figuring out the balance of it all.

Sending love to everyone on this lovely Tuesday. From what I have seen online, between today and tomorrow Pluto is entering Aquarius. Pluto has been in Capricorn since 2008, and boy have I changed a lot from 2008-2024. I’m determined to take advantage of this astrological shift and focus on my personal goals and my wellbeing. I deserve to live the life I dream about, and I can start taking steps to do that today.

Friday // Full Moon

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Good morning! Today is a great day to stay grounded in your energy and intention. The full moon is here, it’s Friday, and you get to choose how you feel today.

I personally am feeling great as I type this in my warm bed. I’m gonna get ready for work here soon and after work I’m meeting up with a friend for a late lunch! I’m excited to catch up with her.

This full moon I am really leaning into faith in my angels, but also in myself. I have the ability to create the life I desire- I mean I’ve literally done that so far! I often find myself hiding behind limiting beliefs and unhealed wounds from childhood, but I am actively embracing my shadow self and working to shed light on the darker parts of me.

We’re all humans, we all have parts of us that we have been ashamed or embarrassed of, but hiding them away and trying to ignore them won’t make them go away. We have to acknowledge our pain and shame, and give ourselves patience and understanding for who we were.

Everything in your life has led you to this moment- be sure to honor it all.

Good Morning

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Woke up blessed and able to move my body, so I decided to do just that. I am writing this as I walk on my treadmill- just getting a little movement in before my work day. I noticed when I did this a few days last week that I felt so much more calm throughout the day, and I just feel so much better knowing I took time for myself.

I am working on my mindset this time around, as I’ve had past struggles with my weight and how obsessive I have become when I was trying to lose weight before. This time around I am not working out because I am shameful of how I look / feel, but instead because I deserve to feel good and be able to move my body with ease as I continue to grow older.

I think about how I do want to be a mom one day, and even if that never comes to fruition, I will definitely want to be someone who travels. People who are constantly traveling typically are used to walking and hiking a lot, so either way my future goals need me moving now!

I’m not calorie counting or obsessively following a routine, I am simply listening to my body and paying attention to how I feel after certain workouts and certain foods. I deserve to feel healthy and be happy about what I am feeding my body, and I am just trying to sit in that deserving mindset, rather than one of shame.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Tuesday and everyone takes some time for themselves today, even if it’s two minutes of mindful breathing- you deserve it.

Sleepy Sunday

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Today was definitely a nap day, and I am not one who normally takes naps. To be fair, I did have a pounding headache that wasn’t going away and I felt like sleeping it off was the best option.

I did a grocery pick up order today and am about to get ready to make our lunches for the week! It’s so much easier to just have our lunches ready to bring to work, so as much as I don’t necessarily look forward to putting it all together, I love the benefits that come from putting the effort in.

This past week I got up early three days of the week and started my day on my treadmill. I honestly could feel the difference in my mood throughout the day and I’m excited to get back to it again tomorrow!

Tomorrow is also 11/11, and being the witchy weirdo I am, I love that!! It’s known to be a powerful day for manifesting, so make sure you take time to be intentional with your day and what energy you’re putting into onto the world. As long as remember to tune into gratitude and love, and you will feel the blessings and abundance pour in.

Sending love to everyone who needs a little extra right now; you are all stronger than you know.

Thoughts Lately

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The more we tune into our own world and meet our own needs, the more we can meet the needs of humanity.

We aren’t meant to know everything, so we’re all ignorant to shit.

Leaders aren’t going to save you- no one will except for yourself.

Helicopter parents unintentionally create anxious children who do not trust themselves or the word around them.

Are you unmotivated or do you struggle with perfectionism?

We aren’t meant to control, we’re meant to surrender to what is.

Inner peace is power.

Together

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Today some are crying tears of joy

While others tears are ones of sorrow

Anger and hatred proudly shared

Is this the future we want for tomorrow?

When emotions are high

When we are in a triggered state

When we don’t feel at peace inside

We will struggle to have any rational debate

It makes it hard to see the other side

It makes it hard to lean into empathy

But this is why we need to take a step back

So we can focus on light, love and unity

We all will endure these next years together

All with different pasts and upbringings

When we recognize similarities in each other

We can truly discuss the important things

We can see how much we have in common

We can ask each other questions to understand

We can see where our fears and goals line up

And we can lend each other a hand

We can accomplish a lot more together

Than we can when we are divided

We the people have the freedom of speech

With strength in numbers we can stand united

We can stand for our rights and our freedoms

We can stand for access to great education

We can stand for a healthier future

We can stand for what we want in this nation

Together we can harness the power of unity

Together we can make sure the future is bright

Together we can lean into faith over fear

Together we can show the darkness our light

Happy Sunday / Gratitude Check

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This Sunday has been so relaxing and I have been soaking in the precious life that I live. My husband and I treated ourselves to some nice pedicures to celebrate his birthday early (he turns 30 on Wednesday)! We’ve been enjoying the cloudy day by taking it slow- soon we will be going to his parents’ home for family dinner. I just wanted to check in and list some of the things I have been grateful for recently:

-my respectful, loving husband

-our beautiful home that has everything we need

-fancy pedicures

-iced coffee

-our financial situation

-our jobs

-good music

-podcasts

-comfortable sweatpants/sweatshirts

-netflix

-genuinely supportive friends

-quality family time

Life will always present challenges, which is why it is important to take time to appreciate the good parts. Sending love and positive vibes to everyone this beautiful Sunday.

Talking To Myself: A Poem

My Poetry, poetry

Do you ever look back at old poems you wrote?

Wondering if you really did that on your own?

Do you admire your work and embrace it with awe?

Do you scroll on past it like you do on your phone?

When you read words you wrote in your teenage years

Does it feel so distant and far away?

Does it feel like you could feel that pain again?

Could you step back in that headspace today?

If you could then would you?

Just to see how it would feel?

To be able to pull yourself out of it

Now that you’re grown and healed?

Would you rescue your inner child?

Tell her that she is safe in your arms?

Would you tell her of all the good things

While shielding her from the world’s harms?

Would you tell her to keep writing?

Would you encourage her to follow her dreams?

Would you give her unconditional love?

Protect and care for her by any means?

Would you give that love to her freely,

Without expecting anything in return?

Would you be happy as she grew older?

Would you inspire her to learn?

You’d give your full heart to her,

Without any question or doubt.

So as you sit here as the grown inner child,

Thinking of something to write about,

You were able to answer your question.

Did you deserve the bad things that happened to you?

Are you responsible for unhealed people’s actions?

Are all of the things your parents said true?

No, no and no.

Your life may have been unfair,

But your life is now yours to live,

So please do so with care.

Please give yourself that same love and grace

That you’d give to your younger self.

Please allow yourself to accept love from others

While also focusing on your mental health.

Focus on the peace and blessings

Feel deeply into the joy and warmth life brings

As life is known to have challenges

But you’ll be able to handle these things

You have your intuition to guide you

As well as your angels and the divine;

You know deep down that no matter what,

Everything will be just fine.

Let go of that control,

Breathe into that inner peace;

Hand over your worries

So all tension can be released.

Lean into faith and self trust,

Relax your shoulders and jaw.

Allow yourself to embrace life;

Just sit back and admire in awe.

You didn’t come this far just to come this far,

Where you are in life is only beginning.

It will get better than you can even imagine,

Just lean into faith and stop over-thinking.