I can hear the rain falling outside as I lay in bed, and it makes me not want to get up. Luckily, I really don’t have to since I did laundry and grocery shopping already this weekend, but my ass will go crazy if I stay in bed all day.
Once I get up I’ll do some stretching, mainly because my neck/shoulders have been a bit tight. After that I need to burn another one of my 13 wishes that I wrote on the Winter Solstice. I saw this idea that you write 13 wishes down, fold them up real small, and then each day from December 24th- January 4th you pick one up (don’t read it) and burn it. Then on January 5th, that last wish left you’ll own up, and now that is the one that you have to make happen in 2026!
I like this idea, because those other ones that you burn are just being released to the Universe, and you just have to have faith and trust that those wishes are being worked on. Then it also brings down the endless “resolutions” to one true dream that you can dedicate time and focus to.
I’ll roll out of bed here soon, but for now I’ll be enjoying snuggles with my husband and listening to Bailey Sarian. I hope everyone has a relaxing Sunday.
The sun is shining through the sliding glass door across the room as I type this at my standing desk. It is Christmas eve, and although most may be wishing for a white Christmas, I am grateful that we are not getting any snow this year. This is definitely a selfish wish simply because my husband and I are taking a little mini-Christmas vacation tomorrow and we have to drive a couple hours away, so I prefer to have some clean roads for the trip!
I know sometimes weird feelings come up for me during the holidays, and this year has been a little of the same, but also a little different. Sometimes I find myself playing the comparison game: you know, wishing I had the huge family that got together with fun Christmas outfits and had kids running around screaming with joy. This year, I still do not have these things, but what is different is that I am just feeling at peace; I am feeling that I can fully lean into faith and know that I can trust in divine timing in my life, as it has all worked out better than I could have planned.
This holiday season, I have very close friends of mine who are pregnant, and another close friend who just welcomed her new baby to the family less than a month ago. I am absolutely overjoyed for all of them, especially because my pregnant friends have wanted to be pregnant for a long time! It also just gives me hope for my own future family planning, as sometimes I let fears creep in regarding that topic. I can’t lie, I have had moments where part of me is like “OMG I need to get pregnant now and start our family now!” but I quickly recognize that I am lost in comparison, and instead I just focus on leaning into the joy of how amazing this is for all of my friends!
We’re in the last month of the year, and I am feeling some weird closure around 2025 that feels weirdly final. I feel like I have learned a lot from repeated lessons this year, and one of the most often repeated lesson is that I should always just lean into faith over fear. I know that my thoughts and emotions can be a bit more extreme, so when I get stressed/anxious, I often catastrophize and get myself all worked up and it is always for no reason. In the end, things will work out how they are supposed to, and no matter what, I can always handle it. Life is chaotic and tragic and full of so many feelings, but it is also immensely beautiful and magical all at the same time.
As I go into 2026, I want to be my own best friend. I want to hype myself up the way that I hype my friends up and cheer them on. When my negative self-talk comes in and tries to make me feel stupid and ruminate in the failures, I know that it is just remnants of the traumatized me, and I just have to give myself love and grace. I do not hold anyone else to the insane, perfectionistic standards that I have created for myself, nor do I deserve to have that pressure on myself either. Being a perfectionist just breeds stress and tension, and I am letting go of this as I keep leaning into faith and divine timing.
2026 is a “1” year in numerology, which is looked at as a fresh reset- a true new beginning. I am all about signs from the universe and leaning into angel numbers, and I am leaning into that energy of new beginning and using it to boost my motivation! I am working on a creative project and I want to lean into that more in the new year, especially because I always feel so happy after I’ve made progress on it! It is also is a fun way for me to let go of perfectionism, and just focus on authenticity and joy.
It has been a while since I have made a longer post on here, and today felt like a great day to take some time to just reflect. It has been an interesting year, and I am excited that my husband and I are going to have a fun Christmas together and this will hopefully be the start of a new annual tradition! Sending love to everyone who needs a little extra this season, and I hope your holiday season brings you love and peace.
Snapchat wants users to now pay for their own memories even though they’ve sold our faces/voices/data to companies.
I don’t know about you, but I feel a technological revolution coming, and I’m on the side of books and nature.
I will gladly remove my social media and streaming services. I’m sure there are others who feel the same, and others who absolutely won’t- both are okay. So long as I am living in alignment with my morals, I will be okay. That goes the same for you.
I pray that the Universe/God will allow love, light and truth to always come forth and outshine any lies and fear.
Today was a relatively chill day. My husband had to work, while I was lucky enough to have the day off. I went over to my parent’s place this morning and spent some time with them since we did Thanksgiving dinner at my husband’s parent’s house last night. My mother was kind enough to make me breakfast, and it was nice to just relax and laugh at some HGTV.
I did a little bit of cleaning/reorganizing at home, and I decided to do a last minute grocery pickup for this evening since we are getting a winter storm early tomorrow morning. I’m glad that it’s the weekend and as much as I wanted my nails done, it’s probably best I just reschedule and stay home.
It’s been nice having peaceful days at home. Our friends have been announcing pregnancies and births of their children, and we are still in this quiet season where we can enjoy one another’s company. We do want children in the near(ish) future though, as much as sometimes I do have my fears around it. I have to remember that the Universe has its own plan, and no matter what, I can have faith that all will work out how it should.
I remember when I used to hate Sundays, mainly because I’d let the dread of Monday ruin the day for me. Now I absolutely LOVE my Sundays and look at them as days to be soft, slow and full of love. Most Sundays, my husband and I spend a majority of the morning laying in bed. I used to have so much guilt when I’d rest; all I’d think about were the tasks and to-do lists, but now I can let myself lay around and understand that rest is necessary and I am supposed to give myself time to recover from life LOL.
We’re gonna see our friends today, I told her I’d help take photos of her and her family for a little maternity shoot! I love taking photos and I love helping her- she helped us with our engagement photos and they turned out amazing! It’s wild what great photos you can get with an iPhone! I’m excited to see how they all turn out! It’s a chilly day, but the sun it out and the leaves are changing in some places so I’m hopeful we will get some great shots!
Halloween is Friday, which is one of my favorite holidays!! As far as I know, I’m really not doing anything for it this year! I have a couple friends coming over on Saturday night to chill and catch up, so that’s really what I’m looking forward to! I may do a little basic costume for work on Friday with something I have in my closet already- we will see what happens!
I am excited to make this a good week, and I’m just feeling like so much goodness is on the horizon! Sending love and prayers to all who need a little extra right now- may you find peace and clarity where you need it.
Today my husband and I are getting tattoos for his cousin who passed away in June. We were blessed that she was able to make it to our wedding last year, and I will always remember her laughing, hilarious self. Today my husband was shuffling music on his iPhone and Black Love by Masego came on… one of our wedding songs. He text me and told me he got choked up (we both do now with that song), and I immediately knew that cousin Shawn was sending her sign. She approves of our tattoos, and she is always here supporting us. I miss her dearly, but I find peace knowing she is all around.
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