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Another Saturday in January

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It is another day of the “arctic tundra” here in the Midwest. Luckily, we should be leaving the negative temperatures today, and I decided to leave my house today to get some coffee! I really wish I had planned ahead for these cold temperatures by booking a flight to the Bahamas or something, but I’ll just have to keep that in mind for next time. I have been in a little bit of a funk with feeling overwhelmed at work and just feeling the darkness of winter; I also just had my period and it was six days late so that didn’t really help. The more I reflect on this, the more I am realizing that I need to let go of control at work. I put this immense pressure on myself to stay on top of all of these things, but being in the insurance world, there is literally so much beyond my control.

At work, and in life in general, all I can control is my own reactions and my attitude. I have been so overwhelmed by all of the changes in patient’s insurance plans and still dealing with the remnants of our horrible transition with the new front desk- literally my period has been late the last couple months, and I knew they would be late because I was so stressed out! My body has been tense and I’ve been exhausted, and I no longer wish to put myself through this. I know I need to work on a good routine on how to decompress and also ideally work towards my wellness goals, but I know the focus just needs to be on self-love rather than shame. Since I have been in a negative headspace, it hasn’t felt like a good time to pursue a wellness routine- when I do these things in a place of self-loathing, it’s never healthy, nor does it end well.

I know I just need to focus on rest and joy. I have been feeling the need to stretch, so I am going to do some more of that today. I know I need to talk to my body nicer and be more mindful about how I speak about it. It’s easy to get into comparison culture, especially in the new year and seeing everyone posting themselves in the gym and eating really healthy, but 1. people always post the highlights, and 2. my journey is mine, it is not meant to be altered or influenced by others. I know that deep down, we all know what is best for us. I know that the more I listen to my gut and actually mindfully work towards my goals, the more confidence I will have, and the easier it will be to let go of things beyond my control.

Sunday PM

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It’s 9:44pm and I’m off to sleep. Hoping to get a solid 8 hours before work tomorrow. Regardless of how much sleep I get, and regardless of the fact that mother nature paid her visit today giving me insane cramps, I am determined to make tomorrow a great day. Getting some sleep will help with that for sure, and laying on this heating pad is giving me such relief. I am so grateful that I had such a wonderful weekend with my husband, and I know this will be a great week ahead.

Sunday

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My husband and I are driving home from visiting my family for our January Christmas. We had a nice time playing “ghetto cooties” with the family and we won $25 off a scratch off! Each family member had to bring a $5 scratch off and we all randomly had one to scratch at the end of our game, and mine was a winner!

What is almost weirdly more exciting is that the two scratch offs we bought for the games were both winners! One won $25 and the other was a $50 winner! Although we didn’t get those, I was just so excited that we bought two winners! It was nice to see the family and hang out with my cousin. My husband and him played Fortnite together while I was making some cute memes for my podcast IG page!

Now we’re heading home and I’m ready to see our fur babies and then go shopping with one of my friends! My husband is going to go shooting with one of his friends, so I’m going to go have some fun of my own! Overall it’s been a nice weekend and reset after this hectic week at work, and I’m just going to enjoy the rest of the weekend off!

First Sunday in January

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The sun is shining, and I’m in bed soaking up the most of this rest I can before this busy’s week at work. Today is my brother-in-laws birthday, and we’re all having family dinner over at my in-laws place. Technically we will do a late lunch/early dinner as my husband has his first go-karting race of the season this evening! He races with one of our friends and I am hoping they can start off the season strong!

I’ve been trying to balance social media usage and I as much as I like making my reels and being on Instagram, I really think I need to just delete the app off my phone and take a break for a bit. I always notice when I return from a long break that I don’t have the same impulses to go click the app and scroll anymore, so I feel like that reset is needed. I can still be creative IRL as well as here on my blog.

It’s crazy how addicting social media is, and I am working on a creative project where I have a separate IG page for that endeavor, but I literally can just work on making content / posts from my iPad and then just login to schedule any posts, and log back off. I put limits on my phone for apps too, but I’m terrible and will just not listen to them so I feel like I just need a reset.

May everyone have a wonderful week ahead, and may we all remind ourselves that we are only one person and we can only do so much. We all deserve grace and the same respect and love we give to others.

Vision Boarding

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Today I had a few friends over for a little vision boarding party! It was just four of us which ended up being very chill, and we all had a great time! I love making vision boards and just yapping w the gals while listening to a throwback playlist. It was definitely a great Saturday!

Friday Vibes

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Thank goodness it’s Friday! I am so tired, but just knowing I only have to get through today and it’s the weekend again is keeping me motivated. It’s the beginning of the year so I’ll be verifying lots of new insurances, but I will also be keeping in mind that I am only one human, and there’s no reason to stress when there’s only so much I can do.

Things are falling into place at work and I’m hoping by the end of first quarter we will have some great strides with our new front desk lead, aka my old manager! She’s only been at the office two days and I can tell how good this is gonna be- just gotta be patient per usual!

I hope everyone has a great Friday and upcoming weekend!

First Quarter Moon Journal Prompts

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from @ sistersvillage on IG
  1. I have transformed the part of myself that was scared to be seen. I posted my raw, filter free reels this year on IG as a way to just practice letting my real thoughts out in a public way. I transformed myself into a more confident version of myself, and I am much less fearful of sharing my thought and opinions. I no longer care if people don’t like me, because I know who I am and I have the best support around me.
  2. I have learned to be more patient with myself. I’ve had some hard breakdowns this year for sure, and I felt frustration when they were the same ones I have had before, but there’s a reason they resurfaced. I now was able to move through those hard emotions with more maturity and understanding, and it slowly becomes less and less intense. I am learning how to be my own best friend and hype-woman, because I know I am a great hype-woman for my friends, and I deserve to give myself that same energy.
  3. In 2026, the confident, best friend version of me is ready to take over. Hyping myself and others up, spreading joy and laughter, and just being a bright, bold light in this world. There’s no more time to shrink, because when we shine, we allow others to shine too.

Christmas Eve 2025- Reflection

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The sun is shining through the sliding glass door across the room as I type this at my standing desk. It is Christmas eve, and although most may be wishing for a white Christmas, I am grateful that we are not getting any snow this year. This is definitely a selfish wish simply because my husband and I are taking a little mini-Christmas vacation tomorrow and we have to drive a couple hours away, so I prefer to have some clean roads for the trip!

I know sometimes weird feelings come up for me during the holidays, and this year has been a little of the same, but also a little different. Sometimes I find myself playing the comparison game: you know, wishing I had the huge family that got together with fun Christmas outfits and had kids running around screaming with joy. This year, I still do not have these things, but what is different is that I am just feeling at peace; I am feeling that I can fully lean into faith and know that I can trust in divine timing in my life, as it has all worked out better than I could have planned.

This holiday season, I have very close friends of mine who are pregnant, and another close friend who just welcomed her new baby to the family less than a month ago. I am absolutely overjoyed for all of them, especially because my pregnant friends have wanted to be pregnant for a long time! It also just gives me hope for my own future family planning, as sometimes I let fears creep in regarding that topic. I can’t lie, I have had moments where part of me is like “OMG I need to get pregnant now and start our family now!” but I quickly recognize that I am lost in comparison, and instead I just focus on leaning into the joy of how amazing this is for all of my friends!

We’re in the last month of the year, and I am feeling some weird closure around 2025 that feels weirdly final. I feel like I have learned a lot from repeated lessons this year, and one of the most often repeated lesson is that I should always just lean into faith over fear. I know that my thoughts and emotions can be a bit more extreme, so when I get stressed/anxious, I often catastrophize and get myself all worked up and it is always for no reason. In the end, things will work out how they are supposed to, and no matter what, I can always handle it. Life is chaotic and tragic and full of so many feelings, but it is also immensely beautiful and magical all at the same time.

As I go into 2026, I want to be my own best friend. I want to hype myself up the way that I hype my friends up and cheer them on. When my negative self-talk comes in and tries to make me feel stupid and ruminate in the failures, I know that it is just remnants of the traumatized me, and I just have to give myself love and grace. I do not hold anyone else to the insane, perfectionistic standards that I have created for myself, nor do I deserve to have that pressure on myself either. Being a perfectionist just breeds stress and tension, and I am letting go of this as I keep leaning into faith and divine timing.

2026 is a “1” year in numerology, which is looked at as a fresh reset- a true new beginning. I am all about signs from the universe and leaning into angel numbers, and I am leaning into that energy of new beginning and using it to boost my motivation! I am working on a creative project and I want to lean into that more in the new year, especially because I always feel so happy after I’ve made progress on it! It is also is a fun way for me to let go of perfectionism, and just focus on authenticity and joy.

It has been a while since I have made a longer post on here, and today felt like a great day to take some time to just reflect. It has been an interesting year, and I am excited that my husband and I are going to have a fun Christmas together and this will hopefully be the start of a new annual tradition! Sending love to everyone who needs a little extra this season, and I hope your holiday season brings you love and peace.

Saturday / 111

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Welcome November!

As someone who enjoys seeing angel numbers, I love that today’s date is 111! When I see 111, I think “New Beginnings,” and “Intuition.” I’m definitely feeling the new beginnings vibe, and I’m trying to look at November as a nice reset, and as we enter the colder months, I want to be intentional with my time. I am trying to find balance with social media, and I feel another break coming up right about now. I’m looking forward to this month ahead!