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Friday Feels

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I had such a vivid, beautiful dream last night that my husband and I had a baby girl. I saw her- I can still see her. She had his eyes, and she had dark curly hair. She smiled at me, and I couldn’t help, but smile back. I felt this beaming love from within me, and tears streamed down my face as I looked at her with awe, and even more when I saw my husband smiling cheek to cheek watching us.

I felt pure bliss in that dream, and I pray one day that I live that feeling in this lifetime. Although we aren’t currently trying to have children, we definitely do want to have children one day. I always said I wanted to be a boy mom, but I’d actually be more than happy to raise a baby girl. It was such a strange, yet incredible dream- one I don’t think I’ll ever forget.

Wednesday Prayers

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I pray to feel 100% healthy for this upcoming weekend when we go to visit my family, and I pray everyone else also feels healthy.

I pray that I can remain as stress-free as possible during the remainder of this work week and I just focus on what I can do and do it well.

I pray that my cats stay in good health and feel their very best.

I pray that anyone who needs a little extra love or guidance from the universe gets a very obvious sign that brings them a sense of comfort.

I pray that my angels and guides protect my husband and I during our travels, keeping us safe and out of harms way.

I pray that today is a good day.

Saturday Blessings

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The sun is shining! ☀️

The coffee is hitting! ☕️

The grocery order is picked up! 🛒

The house is relatively clean! ✨

We’re in good health! 🙌🏼

The nails are cute! 💅🏻

Feeling blessed today, and grateful to be alive. 🫶🏼

✨555✨

Letting Go (1-3-25)

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I am letting go of my worries and anxieties about the future, and instead I am trusting that I can handle anything that comes my way.

I am letting go of the need for perfectionism, and instead I am embracing mistakes and failures, as I know they only allow me to evolve.

I am letting go of shame and embarrassment, and instead I am leaning into self-love and confidence in myself and my uniqueness.

New Year 2025

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New year, same me- just more authentic.

No more masks or people-pleasing.

No more dimming my light.

No more being quiet or shameful.

Honesty and consistency all 2025.

Compassion and empathy all 2025.

Purpose and passion all 2025.

2025 is a 9 year, signaling completion.

It’s 1:11 as I write this

All is as it should be.

Welcome, 2025.

New Moon / NYE 12-31-24

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from @SistersVillage on Instagram
  1. My goals of healthy living align with my future self because I want to be able to travel and hike and keep up with my future children. I also want to have more healthy food options around for my future children, so they don’t struggle like I do with my lack of palette.
  2. I have been avoiding taking responsibility towards actually working on my goals. I’ve been wasting time on mindless TV when I can reading/learning. I did take a break off social media, and I’m gonna continue that into the new year so I can focus on my true goals and stop mindless scrolling.
  3. I am calling in confidence and consistency. I am focusing on my goals and how to make them fun. I am focusing on all of the joys in every day life. I am calling in peaceful energy, and I’m letting go of anxieties about things beyond my control.

Challenges

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What are your biggest challenges?

I’d say one of my biggest challenges is getting into healthy routines like working out and cooking. I never grew up eating super healthy or watching anyone prioritize health, wellness or the importance of movement. It’s something I want to do, and I have slowly been working towards.

Part of the reason this is a challenge is due to another issue I struggle with: lack of self trust. I am someone who feels better when I am in control, and I am someone who can be very hard on myself. With those things being said, I have definitely taken a diet a little too seriously in the past, and it was very unhealthy. I was losing weight and seeing results, and people around me were commenting and encouraging me- but in reality I was barely taking in 800 calories a day, and I was extremely strict with myself.

I know that if I want to be healthy, it has to be a lifestyle that I live. It can’t be something that I am tracking and counting; it can’t come from me shaming myself, it has to come from love. I want to love myself and my body enough to feed it the nutrients it truly needs and to workout regularly. I also want to trust myself to be able to make a change without becoming obsessed. Luckily I am still in therapy, and I get to see my therapist on Friday so we can discuss the goals for this new year.

Day After Christmas

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I love that I just logged into Walmart to do a grocery pickup order and just saw how literally they have huge discounts and deals right now. Of course they do… it’s after Christmas! I’m noting this for my future- maybe some gifts are gonna be accidentally left at the north pole and come late LOL.

But anyways here’s another day in bed trying to sweat out this flu. Literally woke up in the pool of sweat- my pajamas felt like I just pulled them out of a pool. This is great, because I’m sweating out my illness, but also it makes me feel disgusting and I need to wash myself and the bedding.

I’m supposed to go back to work tomorrow, and I’m thinking I should be able to. I may tell people to just stay away from me (should be easy, I’m in the back away from people and patients), and I’ll keep a mask by if people get too close. Although the flu is hopefully gone, it feels like I may have some sort of bronchitis happening now. My husband still has a lingering cough as well, but per Google we can feel tired and have a cough for weeks after the flu! Love that for us! LOL

Overall I am glad we are in the positions we are in with work considering we already had some planned days off with the holidays. I’m glad we can still afford our bills and do grocery pickups and get what we need. I feel very blessed to have this life with my husband, and I am happy he is feeling up to working today and he’s able to do so from home!

Sending love and healing energy to all- I pray the rest of 2024 is full of peace, positivity, and love. 🤍

nightstand vibes

Merry Christmas

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Christmas doesn’t look too different for us this year, other than we are recovering from the flu. I definitely still have it considering I still have a low-grade fever this morning- and I would not wish this illness on anyone. My husband and I have been miserable with battling inconsistent temperatures, congestion, cough, sore throat, body aches (more like zaps for me), and overall we are just exhausted.

His symptoms started a week ago today and he still is not 100%. My symptoms started on Monday so I am only technically on day three and it feels like it’s been a week already. We are blessed to be off work, be at home together, and have access to healthcare/medicine. Our Christmases are normally pretty chill, so in that regard, it’s not much different at all.

Sending healing, abundant vibes to everyone this holiday. May we remember what is truly important in this lifetime and give lots of gratitude for these blessings (hint: it’s not the material gifts).