The full moon has peaked and it will start waning today. As it slowly disappears, all that I am releasing will go along with it:
• self-doubt
• shame and guilt about things that were never my fault or mine to hold
• the need to please others
• putting other people’s comfort before my own
• rigidness and perfectionism
May we all step into our best timelines, bringing forth love and light to this world, and our inner worlds.
Starting off this week with some gratitude, because life really is full of blessing and happiness when we’re present enough to see it. I am feeling so happy to be at a place in my life where I can feel the love around me, and I am forever grateful for that.
I am blessed to be able to wake up in a warm bed next to the love of my life- he makes me feel so comfortable and appreciated.
I am blessed to have such great friends who truly love and support me- they make me feel seen and loved.
I am blessed to have a job that I like where I am not micromanaged or overwhelmed, and it allows me to pay my bills and live the life I want.
I am blessed to have clean, running water in my home for warm showers, laundry, washing dishes, flushing toilets, and access to filtered tap water!
I’m blessed to have a vehicle that I love that gets me place to place safely and reliably. I am also grateful that we can afford my car.
There are so many blessings all around me and I am tuning into this vibration of love, abundance and peace.
Writing this from the haircut chair! I’m getting a trim today and doing a little test strand to see if we can lift out some black and maybe add some dimension! We just decided that today since I’ve been thinking about going back to a chocolate brown color, so my hair girl said to do a test so we can see!
It’s mother’s day weekend, so we’re gonna see my mother in law later today and I’ll see my mom tomorrow. I’m just happy to see that the weather is so nice and the sun is shining! My mom and I are planning to go for a walk tomorrow, so that will be nice!
I hope everyone has a wonderful mother’s day weekend!
I had an amazing weekend away with two of my best friends from high school, and today I am completely exhausted. I got back home around 7pm last night and was back to work today. I had originally took the day off, but I retracted it back because I get so stressed when I fall behind at work. Turns out I should have listened to my gut because I ended up leaving work early today.
I was feeling so exhausted and my stomach started rumbling and feeling upset; luckily I was able to get a lot done in the five hours I was there so I shouldn’t be too overwhelmed tomorrow. I knew my body would need rest after a weekend of travel, next time I’ll make sure I just keep that extra day on the books.
I’m so glad to be back home though, and cuddling with my husband was so need d after spending days away from the house. I just always feel so content and at home with him, and I feel so lucky to have the marriage that we do. This was the life I always dreamt of as a child- a home full of love and affection, rather than rage and disrespect. I am so grateful for this life and this love.
Wow, I can’t believe it’s already May! Getting closer to sunny weather and summertime! I am starting off this month with a girls trip to celebrate my friend’s 30th birthday!! I’m so excited for this month, I can just feel good vibes and energy all heading my way!
I pray that May brings peace and abundance to all of us who are seeking it.
I pray that May is full of love and happiness, and everyone is able to receive it.
I pray that May brings miracles and blessings that leave us so beyond in awe and strengthen our faith in the universe.
I pray that May shows you so many signs and synchronicities; I pray you feel how close your angels and guides are.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. ♡
Good morning! I’m so happy to see the sun shining on this gorgeous day- a day of rest and resetting. Self care is on the list today- which includes a little bit of spoiling ourselves with some pedicures today. My husband and I haven’t had pedicures since November… LOL so we’re a bit overdue. I also wanted to get one before my girls trip coming up!
I’m also gonna pick up some groceries today and do my best to have a more nutritious week than I have been having lately, because I know my body deserves to be healthy and full of vitamins and nutrients. This part is always harder for me, but I am going to focus on small wins and keep reminding myself why I am doing this.
New moons are time for new intentions, and since we are no longer in eclipse season, the energy is much calmer. Plant those seeds that you wish to grow, and take time to nourish them. No rushing, no pushing- just trusting in the divine timing of it all. I am focusing on my physical and mental health, as well as how I can be more grounded- both in nature and in my own positive energy.
Today was a good day! I had a good day at work, I got to see my therapist, and I watched a couple of episodes of Severance with my husband! I am excited for our weekend as we have a 30th birthday party to go to, we have pedicures booked, and we are getting eye exams/new glasses!
I’m also excited for the new moon on Sunday, which is the same day my husband and I are getting our pedicures. It’ll be a nice day to just relax and have some self care. I’m excited for my girls trip coming up soon, and I am just feeling a greater sense of self lately. I’m so grateful for this life and this beautiful Friday.
I didn’t record my podcast episode, and I am giving myself grace about it. I will record soon, and I know this is just my brain getting into survival mode and putting me in a freeze state. I am feeling my way through it and I see exactly where all this fear is stemming from.
As a child my father would often tell me that I had no voice. He’d remind me that I had zero power or control in the home, because I was just the child. Also, being a child of alcoholics, I kept that part of my life a secret from everyone outside of the house (except for a couple close friends as I got older). I was always keeping quiet as a way to be safe, so my brain automatically shut down when I went to start recording my podcast episode.
I am working through this feeling, reminding myself that I am allowed to have a voice. All I have to do is speak the truth and remember my intentions. People will judge regardless, and that is not my business or my problem. I know my intentions and I know who I am- that is all that matters. I am not putting a harsh timeline on this, but I am determined to start recording this year!
Today I wrote out the draft for episode one of my podcast. The goal is to record it sometime this weekend. They always say that you just have to start- so I am starting now.
I saw my favorite Instagram page posted a couple prompts today in regards to communication, so I thought, why not answer those here on my blog? The reason for the post/prompts is because Mercury, the planet of communication, is transitioning into the sign of Aries. According to astrologers, this is a time for fierce and honest words from the heart to be unleashed unapologetically.
Here are the prompts from SistersVillage:
1. I have not started my podcast (or written my book for that matter) out of fear of hurting others…mainly family members. I know that harsh truths can be hard to hear, and the whole point of my podcast would be to tell my story as authentically and honestly as possible. It’s hard to bring up where my parents have had their faults, as I am not trying to shame them or make the whole rest of our family aware of their issues; but at the same time, I have overcome a lot in my life and I know that my journey could inspire others to keep going during hard times. There were many times in my younger years where I was lost and angry, and I often felt that I did not have role models, but instead I had people showing me the life I did not want to live. Luckily, I do not live that life anymore, but it took a lot of work and reflection to stop myself from becoming consumed in my trauma.
Okay, I have to pause for a second before I answer this next prompt because I just saw 5:55 on the clock and I am crying at the timing. 555 is the angel number for CHANGE! Talk about a synchronicity! I just feel so connected to my angels and the universe in this moment, so the pause is necessary. Call me delusional, but I’d rather get excited over numbers than sit here having anxious intrusive thoughts any day. Anyways, onto the next prompt!
2. Prompt two goes with number one: my podcast. I am holding myself back from my dreams, and have been for years now. The calling never goes away either, I basically think about it every day. I distract myself with scrolling and watching TV. I keep saying it isn’t the time or I don’t know how to start, but none of that is actually true. I am the only person in my way, and it’s about time that I stop holding myself back.
finding light in the dark 