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Tuesday Thoughts

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I’m overstimulated by social media right now, but can’t seem to turn away. I know my brain needs some rest though, I am going to put my phone down after this post.

I saw that Friday January 30th there is a nationwide “ice out,” where we don’t buy anything at all, and don’t go to work or school. I will go to work since I work in healthcare, but I’ll gladly skip the Dunkin’ line in the AM. I’ll grab groceries on Saturday and I just filled up my gas tank! I think it’s smart to show these huge corrupt corporations and our government how much control we do have.

I also think it would be a good idea to boycott social media that day too- I will be at least. I think it will be great to have a reset, and I imagine as a collective it could be powerful. I’m not religious, but I am spiritual, and the idea of people all sitting in collective mediation / stillness / prayer sounds incredibly powerful.

Regardless of if it’s in a collective group or not, I will continue to keep the faith and pray that love and truth will always prevail. Although I am not religious, I do find the serenity prayer to be quite comforting. I’ll hold onto that at this time, and I am sending love to all those who need a little extra.

Another Saturday in January

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It is another day of the “arctic tundra” here in the Midwest. Luckily, we should be leaving the negative temperatures today, and I decided to leave my house today to get some coffee! I really wish I had planned ahead for these cold temperatures by booking a flight to the Bahamas or something, but I’ll just have to keep that in mind for next time. I have been in a little bit of a funk with feeling overwhelmed at work and just feeling the darkness of winter; I also just had my period and it was six days late so that didn’t really help. The more I reflect on this, the more I am realizing that I need to let go of control at work. I put this immense pressure on myself to stay on top of all of these things, but being in the insurance world, there is literally so much beyond my control.

At work, and in life in general, all I can control is my own reactions and my attitude. I have been so overwhelmed by all of the changes in patient’s insurance plans and still dealing with the remnants of our horrible transition with the new front desk- literally my period has been late the last couple months, and I knew they would be late because I was so stressed out! My body has been tense and I’ve been exhausted, and I no longer wish to put myself through this. I know I need to work on a good routine on how to decompress and also ideally work towards my wellness goals, but I know the focus just needs to be on self-love rather than shame. Since I have been in a negative headspace, it hasn’t felt like a good time to pursue a wellness routine- when I do these things in a place of self-loathing, it’s never healthy, nor does it end well.

I know I just need to focus on rest and joy. I have been feeling the need to stretch, so I am going to do some more of that today. I know I need to talk to my body nicer and be more mindful about how I speak about it. It’s easy to get into comparison culture, especially in the new year and seeing everyone posting themselves in the gym and eating really healthy, but 1. people always post the highlights, and 2. my journey is mine, it is not meant to be altered or influenced by others. I know that deep down, we all know what is best for us. I know that the more I listen to my gut and actually mindfully work towards my goals, the more confidence I will have, and the easier it will be to let go of things beyond my control.

Saturday Evening

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Today has been a nice chill day with my husband. We went out for breakfast, ran some errands, did a little purging (we’re gonna drop off some bags at the thrift store tomorrow), and now we’re just gonna work on our home dashboard project and probably watch a movie! I love having a chill weekend with no real plans.

mushu in a blanket

Vision Boarding

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Today I had a few friends over for a little vision boarding party! It was just four of us which ended up being very chill, and we all had a great time! I love making vision boards and just yapping w the gals while listening to a throwback playlist. It was definitely a great Saturday!

Friday Vibes

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Thank goodness it’s Friday! I am so tired, but just knowing I only have to get through today and it’s the weekend again is keeping me motivated. It’s the beginning of the year so I’ll be verifying lots of new insurances, but I will also be keeping in mind that I am only one human, and there’s no reason to stress when there’s only so much I can do.

Things are falling into place at work and I’m hoping by the end of first quarter we will have some great strides with our new front desk lead, aka my old manager! She’s only been at the office two days and I can tell how good this is gonna be- just gotta be patient per usual!

I hope everyone has a great Friday and upcoming weekend!

Rainy Sunday

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I can hear the rain falling outside as I lay in bed, and it makes me not want to get up. Luckily, I really don’t have to since I did laundry and grocery shopping already this weekend, but my ass will go crazy if I stay in bed all day.

Once I get up I’ll do some stretching, mainly because my neck/shoulders have been a bit tight. After that I need to burn another one of my 13 wishes that I wrote on the Winter Solstice. I saw this idea that you write 13 wishes down, fold them up real small, and then each day from December 24th- January 4th you pick one up (don’t read it) and burn it. Then on January 5th, that last wish left you’ll own up, and now that is the one that you have to make happen in 2026!

I like this idea, because those other ones that you burn are just being released to the Universe, and you just have to have faith and trust that those wishes are being worked on. Then it also brings down the endless “resolutions” to one true dream that you can dedicate time and focus to.

I’ll roll out of bed here soon, but for now I’ll be enjoying snuggles with my husband and listening to Bailey Sarian. I hope everyone has a relaxing Sunday.

dark ass pic from my bed

First Quarter Moon Journal Prompts

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from @ sistersvillage on IG
  1. I have transformed the part of myself that was scared to be seen. I posted my raw, filter free reels this year on IG as a way to just practice letting my real thoughts out in a public way. I transformed myself into a more confident version of myself, and I am much less fearful of sharing my thought and opinions. I no longer care if people don’t like me, because I know who I am and I have the best support around me.
  2. I have learned to be more patient with myself. I’ve had some hard breakdowns this year for sure, and I felt frustration when they were the same ones I have had before, but there’s a reason they resurfaced. I now was able to move through those hard emotions with more maturity and understanding, and it slowly becomes less and less intense. I am learning how to be my own best friend and hype-woman, because I know I am a great hype-woman for my friends, and I deserve to give myself that same energy.
  3. In 2026, the confident, best friend version of me is ready to take over. Hyping myself and others up, spreading joy and laughter, and just being a bright, bold light in this world. There’s no more time to shrink, because when we shine, we allow others to shine too.

Christmas Morning

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I didn’t wake up with presents under the tree, but I still woke up with holiday glee! Today my husband and I are taking a little mini trip to enjoy some indoor water parks, swim up bars, and some shopping! See, Christmas can still be fun when you’re 30!

I’m currently waiting in the longest Starbucks line ever to get us some coffees for the road, and I’m honestly not even bothered by the line. I’m just enjoying the fact that it’s a peaceful holiday, and I get to enjoy all of my favorite things this holiday! I love water parks and shopping, and I especially love when I get to do those things with my favorite person!

a lil design I made on procreate

Monday Morning

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This is the only full day I have to work this week, so I’m looking forward to just going in & putting my head down & getting to work! I have a game plan & I am going to make sure it’s a positive, productive day. Tomorrow I work a half day, and then I’m off until Monday again! It’ll be so nice to have time off with my husband- even just hanging out this weekend was great!