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Saturday AM Thoughts: Matriarchy Edition

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I saw this post on Instagram about how the matriarchy is rising, and that some men will be scared of this. Within that post was a reference to how some men think that when women talk about the matriarchy, that they think women want to “rule over men.” This is not the case.

I honestly believe that thought is rooted both in ignorance, and fear. Ignorance makes sense, because none of us have been alive to see the matriarchy rise; we’re all used to this current system, which we can very blatantly see does not protect women or children. The fear, I think, comes from recognizing that almost every woman they know has been harassed or abused by a man in sometime in their life, so some men probably assume women want to seek revenge on men.

That fear is not completely wrong to have, as I’m sure there are tons of women who would love to bring back the witch trials and reverse the roles. I’m not going to lie, if there is evidence of people doing satanic rituals that include raping and eating children, I don’t see why the death penalty wouldn’t at least be on the table. However, most of us know on a soul level that it will not help to continue to burn people, but the constant covering up and protection of these horrific crimes against humanity can no longer continue- this is where the matriarchy comes in.

When I think of the matriarchy, there is no “ruling over” anyone- it’s all about community.
Think back to the caveman days: the women were always in community with each other and the children, while men would go and hunt and gather. Women focused on keeping each other and the children safe, and the men used their skills to bring food and supplies back to their families. This is a balance. The matriarchy needs men as well, and it is in our roots to help one another and work as a team. The matriarchy is about protecting children, recognizing how important it is to raise caring, empathetic humans for this world.

The matriarchy rising is not supposed to be a war between men and women, it’s the reuniting. It’s recognizing that we are meant to be a team. It’s holding each other accountable and taking responsibility for our actions. We as humans are meant to protect, help, and love one another, while also protecting and raising the generations to come. The matriarchy is not rooted in power, it’s rooted in love.

Wednesday Words

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I woke up finally feeling a lot better after feeling like shit the last couple days! I fell asleep at 7pm last night, woke up at 10pm really confused LOL but was happy to be able to go back to sleep for several hours.

This morning I was extremely grateful that I was feeling up for a shower and an iced coffee! I am convinced that the eclipse and full moon had something to do with this. I heard some woo-woo gal talking about how sometimes when we are feeling off or numb in our julian bodies, that is because our spirit/soul is out doing work in the spiritual realm to prepare for your next chapter here on Earth. I love me some magical woo-woo stuff so I am here for that explanation!

This just feels like a transformational year in general, and I know that love, light and God will prevail against all evil. Truths will continue to be revealed, the collective will continue to awaken and rise, and we were all born to be here during this time. I have faith it was all for a reason, and I will continue to have faith over fear.

March Blessings

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Happy March!

I always love the first of the month, as it symbolizes a new beginning! Today, the sun is shining, I get to go to my best friend’s baby shower, and my husband has his go-karting race this evening! We have a day centered around joy, blessings and the people we love.

This month I want to focus more on being present, being creative, and being joyful. The world is always going to have chaos and tragedy, and we deserve to enjoy all of the beautiful things life has to offer. I find myself happy when I am laughing in the presence of good company, and I also find joy in doing a simple craft alone in peace.

When I find myself getting worked up about anything, I need to start pausing and questioning “what is actually in my control in this moment.” I hope my first thought would be my breath, so I can actually take a few deep breaths to get back to center. My body doesn’t deserve to hold onto all this stress and tension, especially when most things I am stressed about are beyond my control.

I pray March brings a newfound sense of faith and spirituality, by allowing me to let go of any fears, doubts or tensions I may have been holding onto.

I pray March restores faith in humanity, showing the goodness and light that is amongst us all- and may we spread love and light ourselves.

I pray March is full of miracles and blessings, showing us all how truly beautiful life can be.

Thank you, thank you, thank you ♡

Saturday Gratitude

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Gratitude always makes me feel more present and grounded, so I want to take a moment to list what is keeping me happy lately:

• my husband (he’s the best) ♡

• diamond dot art

• iced coffee

• morbid podcast

• cute blank cards w/ colorful envelopes

• my comfy bed

• crafting with my gal friends

Valentine’s Day

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Although it’s a Hallmark holiday, today is considered a day about love. I pray that this world can see love and light prevail over the darkness. It’s disheartening to see certain things all over the media, but also good that things are coming to light- so long as we do something about it.

Hello February

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Today is the start of a new month, and it also happens to be Sunday, and we have a full moon! This feels like a few different fresh beginnings and I am here for it!

Yesterday was so much fun! I loved catching up with my friend at starbucks, and I also loved hanging with my other friends doing diamond by number crafts! The canvases look hella intimidating at first, and honestly I am nowhere near done, but once you start doing it, it’s so easy to just get into flow state and keep going!

We had run to the dollar store before starting our crafts to grab little plastic organizers for our diamonds/beads, and we happened to find tiny keychain versions of diamond by numbers! We ended up each picking out one and my friend grabbed one for her daughter, as well as another small paint by number and we had a successful trip!

Today I’m catching up with my high school BFF at breakfast and I’m so excited to see her and enjoy a delicious omelette! She’s pregnant and her baby shower is a month away so I’m super happy for her and can’t wait to hear about how everything is going!

Later on my husband will go to his parents house for family dinner, and some point before or after that I will need to touch up his hair (I retwist his locs and I definitely skipped last weekend). I just feel like today is going to be a great day, and I’m just feeling so very blessed.

Saturday 1/31

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Had a coffee date with a friend this morning! It was nice to catch up and enjoy starbucks inside! My husband and I just picked up groceries and I’m gonna head over to another friend’s house in an hour or so to hang out! Tomorrow I’ll also be catching up with another friend so I am just filling my cup with connection and fun this weekend! This is much needed after all the stress of January, so I’m praying it’ll be a nice reset and way to start off February!

Tuesday Thoughts

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I’m overstimulated by social media right now, but can’t seem to turn away. I know my brain needs some rest though, I am going to put my phone down after this post.

I saw that Friday January 30th there is a nationwide “ice out,” where we don’t buy anything at all, and don’t go to work or school. I will go to work since I work in healthcare, but I’ll gladly skip the Dunkin’ line in the AM. I’ll grab groceries on Saturday and I just filled up my gas tank! I think it’s smart to show these huge corrupt corporations and our government how much control we do have.

I also think it would be a good idea to boycott social media that day too- I will be at least. I think it will be great to have a reset, and I imagine as a collective it could be powerful. I’m not religious, but I am spiritual, and the idea of people all sitting in collective mediation / stillness / prayer sounds incredibly powerful.

Regardless of if it’s in a collective group or not, I will continue to keep the faith and pray that love and truth will always prevail. Although I am not religious, I do find the serenity prayer to be quite comforting. I’ll hold onto that at this time, and I am sending love to all those who need a little extra.

Another Saturday in January

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It is another day of the “arctic tundra” here in the Midwest. Luckily, we should be leaving the negative temperatures today, and I decided to leave my house today to get some coffee! I really wish I had planned ahead for these cold temperatures by booking a flight to the Bahamas or something, but I’ll just have to keep that in mind for next time. I have been in a little bit of a funk with feeling overwhelmed at work and just feeling the darkness of winter; I also just had my period and it was six days late so that didn’t really help. The more I reflect on this, the more I am realizing that I need to let go of control at work. I put this immense pressure on myself to stay on top of all of these things, but being in the insurance world, there is literally so much beyond my control.

At work, and in life in general, all I can control is my own reactions and my attitude. I have been so overwhelmed by all of the changes in patient’s insurance plans and still dealing with the remnants of our horrible transition with the new front desk- literally my period has been late the last couple months, and I knew they would be late because I was so stressed out! My body has been tense and I’ve been exhausted, and I no longer wish to put myself through this. I know I need to work on a good routine on how to decompress and also ideally work towards my wellness goals, but I know the focus just needs to be on self-love rather than shame. Since I have been in a negative headspace, it hasn’t felt like a good time to pursue a wellness routine- when I do these things in a place of self-loathing, it’s never healthy, nor does it end well.

I know I just need to focus on rest and joy. I have been feeling the need to stretch, so I am going to do some more of that today. I know I need to talk to my body nicer and be more mindful about how I speak about it. It’s easy to get into comparison culture, especially in the new year and seeing everyone posting themselves in the gym and eating really healthy, but 1. people always post the highlights, and 2. my journey is mine, it is not meant to be altered or influenced by others. I know that deep down, we all know what is best for us. I know that the more I listen to my gut and actually mindfully work towards my goals, the more confidence I will have, and the easier it will be to let go of things beyond my control.