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Happy April / Happy Full Moon!

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I’m using my blog here to cross off item number five on the above list! Happy full moon to everyone!

This full moon, I am letting go of:

• comparison- my journey is my own, and I can only compare myself to who I was yesterday. I cannot compare my body or my lifestyle to other people who do not live my life or have my brain.

• worries that are beyond my control- sometimes I hold onto work stress, as well as general life stress about family and future things that may never happen, and this is only robbing myself of being present and being happy. I can only control so much, and I can trust myself to get through any situations without having to overthink and worry.

• self – doubt- I hold myself back from goals due to my lack of self trust. I often can get into all or nothing mindsets which doesn’t work well when it comes to my health goals (diet mainly), because I have had issues in the past with getting obsessive. I know it’s been years and I have grown a lot, but I clearly still have some fear there.

I am releasing all of these things, as well as anything else that is keeping me blocked and stuck in cycles that are not benefiting me.

May this full moon be magical and powerful for everyone!

Just A Happy Sunday

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Today was such a nice day, despite the weather being windy and cloudy. My husband and I went to a very late breakfast at our usual spot, which was delicious as always! Prior to that I started laundry, took care of the dishes as well as the garbage (these are normally my husband’s chores, but I was feeling motivated this morning LOL) and I picked up the groceries! It was nice to have all of that done early in the morning.

This afternoon I decided to make some juice for the week, which are all f*cking delicious! I love when I have my husband try new juice recipes and seeing how he lights up after trying each one! I’ll post the pictures I put on my snapchat story below!

Overall, today was such a great day! We’re gonna have some dinner soon and I may do some diamond beading after that. I was thinking about finally starting an audiobook I downloaded a while ago, but I also may just listen to a true crime podcast like I usually do. I’m determined to make this week ahead a good week! Sending love and good vibes to everyone!

Saturday AM Thoughts: Matriarchy Edition

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I saw this post on Instagram about how the matriarchy is rising, and that some men will be scared of this. Within that post was a reference to how some men think that when women talk about the matriarchy, that they think women want to “rule over men.” This is not the case.

I honestly believe that thought is rooted both in ignorance, and fear. Ignorance makes sense, because none of us have been alive to see the matriarchy rise; we’re all used to this current system, which we can very blatantly see does not protect women or children. The fear, I think, comes from recognizing that almost every woman they know has been harassed or abused by a man in sometime in their life, so some men probably assume women want to seek revenge on men.

That fear is not completely wrong to have, as I’m sure there are tons of women who would love to bring back the witch trials and reverse the roles. I’m not going to lie, if there is evidence of people doing satanic rituals that include raping and eating children, I don’t see why the death penalty wouldn’t at least be on the table. However, most of us know on a soul level that it will not help to continue to burn people, but the constant covering up and protection of these horrific crimes against humanity can no longer continue- this is where the matriarchy comes in.

When I think of the matriarchy, there is no “ruling over” anyone- it’s all about community.
Think back to the caveman days: the women were always in community with each other and the children, while men would go and hunt and gather. Women focused on keeping each other and the children safe, and the men used their skills to bring food and supplies back to their families. This is a balance. The matriarchy needs men as well, and it is in our roots to help one another and work as a team. The matriarchy is about protecting children, recognizing how important it is to raise caring, empathetic humans for this world.

The matriarchy rising is not supposed to be a war between men and women, it’s the reuniting. It’s recognizing that we are meant to be a team. It’s holding each other accountable and taking responsibility for our actions. We as humans are meant to protect, help, and love one another, while also protecting and raising the generations to come. The matriarchy is not rooted in power, it’s rooted in love.

Wednesday Words

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I woke up finally feeling a lot better after feeling like shit the last couple days! I fell asleep at 7pm last night, woke up at 10pm really confused LOL but was happy to be able to go back to sleep for several hours.

This morning I was extremely grateful that I was feeling up for a shower and an iced coffee! I am convinced that the eclipse and full moon had something to do with this. I heard some woo-woo gal talking about how sometimes when we are feeling off or numb in our julian bodies, that is because our spirit/soul is out doing work in the spiritual realm to prepare for your next chapter here on Earth. I love me some magical woo-woo stuff so I am here for that explanation!

This just feels like a transformational year in general, and I know that love, light and God will prevail against all evil. Truths will continue to be revealed, the collective will continue to awaken and rise, and we were all born to be here during this time. I have faith it was all for a reason, and I will continue to have faith over fear.

March Blessings

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Happy March!

I always love the first of the month, as it symbolizes a new beginning! Today, the sun is shining, I get to go to my best friend’s baby shower, and my husband has his go-karting race this evening! We have a day centered around joy, blessings and the people we love.

This month I want to focus more on being present, being creative, and being joyful. The world is always going to have chaos and tragedy, and we deserve to enjoy all of the beautiful things life has to offer. I find myself happy when I am laughing in the presence of good company, and I also find joy in doing a simple craft alone in peace.

When I find myself getting worked up about anything, I need to start pausing and questioning “what is actually in my control in this moment.” I hope my first thought would be my breath, so I can actually take a few deep breaths to get back to center. My body doesn’t deserve to hold onto all this stress and tension, especially when most things I am stressed about are beyond my control.

I pray March brings a newfound sense of faith and spirituality, by allowing me to let go of any fears, doubts or tensions I may have been holding onto.

I pray March restores faith in humanity, showing the goodness and light that is amongst us all- and may we spread love and light ourselves.

I pray March is full of miracles and blessings, showing us all how truly beautiful life can be.

Thank you, thank you, thank you ♡

Saturday Gratitude

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Gratitude always makes me feel more present and grounded, so I want to take a moment to list what is keeping me happy lately:

• my husband (he’s the best) ♡

• diamond dot art

• iced coffee

• morbid podcast

• cute blank cards w/ colorful envelopes

• my comfy bed

• crafting with my gal friends

Valentine’s Day

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Although it’s a Hallmark holiday, today is considered a day about love. I pray that this world can see love and light prevail over the darkness. It’s disheartening to see certain things all over the media, but also good that things are coming to light- so long as we do something about it.

Hello February

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Today is the start of a new month, and it also happens to be Sunday, and we have a full moon! This feels like a few different fresh beginnings and I am here for it!

Yesterday was so much fun! I loved catching up with my friend at starbucks, and I also loved hanging with my other friends doing diamond by number crafts! The canvases look hella intimidating at first, and honestly I am nowhere near done, but once you start doing it, it’s so easy to just get into flow state and keep going!

We had run to the dollar store before starting our crafts to grab little plastic organizers for our diamonds/beads, and we happened to find tiny keychain versions of diamond by numbers! We ended up each picking out one and my friend grabbed one for her daughter, as well as another small paint by number and we had a successful trip!

Today I’m catching up with my high school BFF at breakfast and I’m so excited to see her and enjoy a delicious omelette! She’s pregnant and her baby shower is a month away so I’m super happy for her and can’t wait to hear about how everything is going!

Later on my husband will go to his parents house for family dinner, and some point before or after that I will need to touch up his hair (I retwist his locs and I definitely skipped last weekend). I just feel like today is going to be a great day, and I’m just feeling so very blessed.