Random Thoughts

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I feel like we all need to start re-centering and re-grounding ourselves. We all need to learn how to feel our emotions, instead of shoving them away.

I’m actually pretty sad that I get anxious to go on walks by my house. I cried about it the other day- but to be fair, I’m also on my period. I’ve just had a couple bad experiences, like 1. watching a dog get hit by a car and 2. some guy was going to try to kidnap me. oh.. and 3. a creepy coworker of mine showed up to my house unannounced while I was on a walk. Needless to say, I don’t really feel calm on my walks- I’m typically on high alert.

I selfishly hate that my cat has diabetes. It’s so hard for my husband and I to take vacations because she has to have her insulin twice a day, and she’s did horrible when she had an 8 hour stay at the vet, so she can’t really be put in a kitty hotel for long. I don’t want to fly her anywhere and driving her in a car for hours would also stress her out so it’s just all annoying as shit.

I am tired of patients yelling at me when aim trying to help them. You can’t really yell at me about your insurance policy- you signed up for it, not me. I didn’t write in the frequencies or downgrades or make up any of the stupid rules for your plan, and I also agree with you that they are stupid rules. It’s patients and providers against the insurance companies- don’t yell at me when I’m on your side!

I definitely need to drink more water.

I could really use a technology free day by the ocean. Warm sun, a light breeze, sand in my toes, and the sounds of the ocean… I feel like that would heal me.

I’m annoyed that Tell Me Lies is over.

Addicted to Fear

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I’m addicted to the things I hate.

The screens, the scrolling, staying up-to-date.

Overstimulated by horrific news and power dynamics.

Sickened by tax dollars funding elite pedophiles over academics.

Chaos and violence all on the “for you” pages.

Faith and love diminishes as fear and doubt rages.

Was this the plan all along? Addicted to screens and misinformation?

Fighting with our loved ones and neglecting the future generation?

We need regulated nervous systems and our minds at ease.

We need less shame and hatred, we need more kindness and peace.

The screens and socials are made to keep us depressed and addicted.

Constantly comparing and yearning for these “wonderful lives” that are depicted.

When we know deep down that none of this is real.

We scroll, we numb out and we forget how to feel.

We lose ourselves a little more each day that we don’t tune in.

We let our authenticity die every time that we log in.

Is this the future we want? Is this the life we want to live?

Do you want to stay stuck in fear with nothing left to give?

Our brains are wired for survival, yet in ways it keeps us trapped.

Constantly looking for negativity and disarray on the apps.

Take your power back- be mindful and intentional with how you spend your time.

Focus on what you can control, and leave the rest up to the divine.

Wednesday 2/4/26

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I’m quite exhausted, but feeling grateful this morning. I’m grateful for my husband, my health, and our home. I’m grateful for our cars, our cats, and our job. I’m grateful for our friends and family, as well as music and podcasts. Life can be overwhelming and upsetting at times, but those are the times it’s important to recognize all that you do have. I hope everyone has a good Wednesday!

Monday AM

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Woke up a bit anxious, but not entirely sure why. Sometimes a full moon can make you restless, so maybe I’m just sensitive to that. There has been some freezing drizzle and mist so I know I need to be extra careful driving this morning, maybe my body knew that was happening? Who knows LOL but I am headed out to work here in a few. Hope everyone is safe and has a good Monday!

Saturday 1/31

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Had a coffee date with a friend this morning! It was nice to catch up and enjoy starbucks inside! My husband and I just picked up groceries and I’m gonna head over to another friend’s house in an hour or so to hang out! Tomorrow I’ll also be catching up with another friend so I am just filling my cup with connection and fun this weekend! This is much needed after all the stress of January, so I’m praying it’ll be a nice reset and way to start off February!

Thursday AM

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It’s 0 degrees outside. On the plus side, the sun is rising and I got to see some pink clouds/sky on the way into work today. I also have a nice coffee for today that I will savor since tomorrow I’m going to participate in the nationwide “ice out” and not buy a thing! I’m also going to take the entire day off social media too, because I just need a damn reset and it feels like it should be part of the revolution to me lol!

Thursday AM

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Well, I forgot to post yesterday so my streak is ruined again LOL! This is my starting again! I just remote started my car because it snowed yesterday and it is currently 10°, but feels like -6° outside, and I’m really not looking forward to cleaning off my car. Tomorrow the high for the day is -4° with a real feel of -40° so I’m praying our office closes tomorrow. I am so over winter it’s disgusting at this point.

Sunday PM

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It’s 9:44pm and I’m off to sleep. Hoping to get a solid 8 hours before work tomorrow. Regardless of how much sleep I get, and regardless of the fact that mother nature paid her visit today giving me insane cramps, I am determined to make tomorrow a great day. Getting some sleep will help with that for sure, and laying on this heating pad is giving me such relief. I am so grateful that I had such a wonderful weekend with my husband, and I know this will be a great week ahead.