Mutual respect is absolutely necessary for any successful relationship.
Sometimes letting go is the only answer. Detach from the outcomes and trust.
Rearranging my space / house always feels so nice.
Most people are just projecting their own unlearned issues onto people- stop taking things personally.
Everyone you know is struggling with something in some sort of capacity, it’s better to just be kind always.
Today was such a nice day, despite the weather being windy and cloudy. My husband and I went to a very late breakfast at our usual spot, which was delicious as always! Prior to that I started laundry, took care of the dishes as well as the garbage (these are normally my husband’s chores, but I was feeling motivated this morning LOL) and I picked up the groceries! It was nice to have all of that done early in the morning.
This afternoon I decided to make some juice for the week, which are all f*cking delicious! I love when I have my husband try new juice recipes and seeing how he lights up after trying each one! I’ll post the pictures I put on my snapchat story below!
Overall, today was such a great day! We’re gonna have some dinner soon and I may do some diamond beading after that. I was thinking about finally starting an audiobook I downloaded a while ago, but I also may just listen to a true crime podcast like I usually do. I’m determined to make this week ahead a good week! Sending love and good vibes to everyone!
I called (well, texted) into work today, because we are in the middle of a blizzard warning. Most of my way to work is open roads by huge fields with no street lights; considering the weather apps say there are high winds, whiteout conditions, and half of the street view cameras I look at are down, I decided it’s not worth risking my life to go to work.
I also woke up feeling nauseous, but that is also because of my anxiety around traveling in this weather. I barely slept because I kept waking up checking for weather updates or seeing if they closed my job for the day- clearly not LOL!
I used to feel really guilty if I had to call off for anything, but now I don’t. I know I work hard, I am very blessed that my husband can work from home, and I can afford to take a day off so I can avoid traveling in horrible conditions. My coworker said she was going 20mph the entire way to work and the snow was blowing completely sideways! Luckily she made it in safely and will now deal with all of the cancellations that are inevitable.
As for me, I’m going back to bed. I’m grateful to be in the situation I am where I can take a day off when I need to and I don’t have to suffer in my work or personal life. I’m also grateful to be able to lay next to the love of my life in our comfortable bed. Life is quite beautiful.
Starting off the day walking and watching S.L.O.M.W! I have a little bridal shower to go to in a couple hours so I am going to get in the shower and start getting ready! I’m looking forward to celebrating my friend and just being there for her while we get closer and closer to her big day!!
I definitely am not loving how dark it is in the morning now that we just had Daylight Savings, but it will be nice that it will be lighter out later. This weekend was nice and chill, mainly just hung around the house with my husband- he hasn’t been feeling 100% since I was sick, so I’m hoping he wakes up feeling much better today. Let’s make today a great Monday!
Gratitude always makes me feel more present and grounded, so I want to take a moment to list what is keeping me happy lately:
• my husband (he’s the best) ♡
• diamond dot art
• iced coffee
• morbid podcast
• cute blank cards w/ colorful envelopes
• my comfy bed
• crafting with my gal friends
I am SOOOOOO happy it’s Friday! This week felt like an eternity of chaotic energy and I am just ready to have some fun this weekend! I’m going to run to TJ today to grab a couple more things for my friend’s baby since her baby shower is Sunday! I need to place a grocery order around my busy weekend as well, because tomorrow I’m hanging with my other friend to celebrate her birthday that just passed! Sometimes the weekends can be overwhelming to me when I have more than one day of plans, but I know that we all could use community / good company so I will enjoy that.
I feel like we all need to start re-centering and re-grounding ourselves. We all need to learn how to feel our emotions, instead of shoving them away.
I’m actually pretty sad that I get anxious to go on walks by my house. I cried about it the other day- but to be fair, I’m also on my period. I’ve just had a couple bad experiences, like 1. watching a dog get hit by a car and 2. some guy was going to try to kidnap me. oh.. and 3. a creepy coworker of mine showed up to my house unannounced while I was on a walk. Needless to say, I don’t really feel calm on my walks- I’m typically on high alert.
I selfishly hate that my cat has diabetes. It’s so hard for my husband and I to take vacations because she has to have her insulin twice a day, and she’s did horrible when she had an 8 hour stay at the vet, so she can’t really be put in a kitty hotel for long. I don’t want to fly her anywhere and driving her in a car for hours would also stress her out so it’s just all annoying as shit.
I am tired of patients yelling at me when aim trying to help them. You can’t really yell at me about your insurance policy- you signed up for it, not me. I didn’t write in the frequencies or downgrades or make up any of the stupid rules for your plan, and I also agree with you that they are stupid rules. It’s patients and providers against the insurance companies- don’t yell at me when I’m on your side!
I definitely need to drink more water.
I could really use a technology free day by the ocean. Warm sun, a light breeze, sand in my toes, and the sounds of the ocean… I feel like that would heal me.
I’m annoyed that Tell Me Lies is over.
I’m addicted to the things I hate.
The screens, the scrolling, staying up-to-date.
Overstimulated by horrific news and power dynamics.
Sickened by tax dollars funding elite pedophiles over academics.
Chaos and violence all on the “for you” pages.
Faith and love diminishes as fear and doubt rages.
Was this the plan all along? Addicted to screens and misinformation?
Fighting with our loved ones and neglecting the future generation?
We need regulated nervous systems and our minds at ease.
We need less shame and hatred, we need more kindness and peace.
The screens and socials are made to keep us depressed and addicted.
Constantly comparing and yearning for these “wonderful lives” that are depicted.
When we know deep down that none of this is real.
We scroll, we numb out and we forget how to feel.
We lose ourselves a little more each day that we don’t tune in.
We let our authenticity die every time that we log in.
Is this the future we want? Is this the life we want to live?
Do you want to stay stuck in fear with nothing left to give?
Our brains are wired for survival, yet in ways it keeps us trapped.
Constantly looking for negativity and disarray on the apps.
Take your power back- be mindful and intentional with how you spend your time.
Focus on what you can control, and leave the rest up to the divine.
I’m quite exhausted, but feeling grateful this morning. I’m grateful for my husband, my health, and our home. I’m grateful for our cars, our cats, and our job. I’m grateful for our friends and family, as well as music and podcasts. Life can be overwhelming and upsetting at times, but those are the times it’s important to recognize all that you do have. I hope everyone has a good Wednesday!
finding light in the dark 