I woke up finally feeling a lot better after feeling like shit the last couple days! I fell asleep at 7pm last night, woke up at 10pm really confused LOL but was happy to be able to go back to sleep for several hours.
This morning I was extremely grateful that I was feeling up for a shower and an iced coffee! I am convinced that the eclipse and full moon had something to do with this. I heard some woo-woo gal talking about how sometimes when we are feeling off or numb in our julian bodies, that is because our spirit/soul is out doing work in the spiritual realm to prepare for your next chapter here on Earth. I love me some magical woo-woo stuff so I am here for that explanation!
This just feels like a transformational year in general, and I know that love, light and God will prevail against all evil. Truths will continue to be revealed, the collective will continue to awaken and rise, and we were all born to be here during this time. I have faith it was all for a reason, and I will continue to have faith over fear.
I always love the first of the month, as it symbolizes a new beginning! Today, the sun is shining, I get to go to my best friend’s baby shower, and my husband has his go-karting race this evening! We have a day centered around joy, blessings and the people we love.
This month I want to focus more on being present, being creative, and being joyful. The world is always going to have chaos and tragedy, and we deserve to enjoy all of the beautiful things life has to offer. I find myself happy when I am laughing in the presence of good company, and I also find joy in doing a simple craft alone in peace.
When I find myself getting worked up about anything, I need to start pausing and questioning “what is actually in my control in this moment.” I hope my first thought would be my breath, so I can actually take a few deep breaths to get back to center. My body doesn’t deserve to hold onto all this stress and tension, especially when most things I am stressed about are beyond my control.
I pray March brings a newfound sense of faith and spirituality, by allowing me to let go of any fears, doubts or tensions I may have been holding onto.
I pray March restores faith in humanity, showing the goodness and light that is amongst us all- and may we spread love and light ourselves.
I pray March is full of miracles and blessings, showing us all how truly beautiful life can be.
I’m overstimulated by social media right now, but can’t seem to turn away. I know my brain needs some rest though, I am going to put my phone down after this post.
I saw that Friday January 30th there is a nationwide “ice out,” where we don’t buy anything at all, and don’t go to work or school. I will go to work since I work in healthcare, but I’ll gladly skip the Dunkin’ line in the AM. I’ll grab groceries on Saturday and I just filled up my gas tank! I think it’s smart to show these huge corrupt corporations and our government how much control we do have.
I also think it would be a good idea to boycott social media that day too- I will be at least. I think it will be great to have a reset, and I imagine as a collective it could be powerful. I’m not religious, but I am spiritual, and the idea of people all sitting in collective mediation / stillness / prayer sounds incredibly powerful.
Regardless of if it’s in a collective group or not, I will continue to keep the faith and pray that love and truth will always prevail. Although I am not religious, I do find the serenity prayer to be quite comforting. I’ll hold onto that at this time, and I am sending love to all those who need a little extra.
I have transformed the part of myself that was scared to be seen. I posted my raw, filter free reels this year on IG as a way to just practice letting my real thoughts out in a public way. I transformed myself into a more confident version of myself, and I am much less fearful of sharing my thought and opinions. I no longer care if people don’t like me, because I know who I am and I have the best support around me.
I have learned to be more patient with myself. I’ve had some hard breakdowns this year for sure, and I felt frustration when they were the same ones I have had before, but there’s a reason they resurfaced. I now was able to move through those hard emotions with more maturity and understanding, and it slowly becomes less and less intense. I am learning how to be my own best friend and hype-woman, because I know I am a great hype-woman for my friends, and I deserve to give myself that same energy.
In 2026, the confident, best friend version of me is ready to take over. Hyping myself and others up, spreading joy and laughter, and just being a bright, bold light in this world. There’s no more time to shrink, because when we shine, we allow others to shine too.
The sun is shining through the sliding glass door across the room as I type this at my standing desk. It is Christmas eve, and although most may be wishing for a white Christmas, I am grateful that we are not getting any snow this year. This is definitely a selfish wish simply because my husband and I are taking a little mini-Christmas vacation tomorrow and we have to drive a couple hours away, so I prefer to have some clean roads for the trip!
I know sometimes weird feelings come up for me during the holidays, and this year has been a little of the same, but also a little different. Sometimes I find myself playing the comparison game: you know, wishing I had the huge family that got together with fun Christmas outfits and had kids running around screaming with joy. This year, I still do not have these things, but what is different is that I am just feeling at peace; I am feeling that I can fully lean into faith and know that I can trust in divine timing in my life, as it has all worked out better than I could have planned.
This holiday season, I have very close friends of mine who are pregnant, and another close friend who just welcomed her new baby to the family less than a month ago. I am absolutely overjoyed for all of them, especially because my pregnant friends have wanted to be pregnant for a long time! It also just gives me hope for my own future family planning, as sometimes I let fears creep in regarding that topic. I can’t lie, I have had moments where part of me is like “OMG I need to get pregnant now and start our family now!” but I quickly recognize that I am lost in comparison, and instead I just focus on leaning into the joy of how amazing this is for all of my friends!
We’re in the last month of the year, and I am feeling some weird closure around 2025 that feels weirdly final. I feel like I have learned a lot from repeated lessons this year, and one of the most often repeated lesson is that I should always just lean into faith over fear. I know that my thoughts and emotions can be a bit more extreme, so when I get stressed/anxious, I often catastrophize and get myself all worked up and it is always for no reason. In the end, things will work out how they are supposed to, and no matter what, I can always handle it. Life is chaotic and tragic and full of so many feelings, but it is also immensely beautiful and magical all at the same time.
As I go into 2026, I want to be my own best friend. I want to hype myself up the way that I hype my friends up and cheer them on. When my negative self-talk comes in and tries to make me feel stupid and ruminate in the failures, I know that it is just remnants of the traumatized me, and I just have to give myself love and grace. I do not hold anyone else to the insane, perfectionistic standards that I have created for myself, nor do I deserve to have that pressure on myself either. Being a perfectionist just breeds stress and tension, and I am letting go of this as I keep leaning into faith and divine timing.
2026 is a “1” year in numerology, which is looked at as a fresh reset- a true new beginning. I am all about signs from the universe and leaning into angel numbers, and I am leaning into that energy of new beginning and using it to boost my motivation! I am working on a creative project and I want to lean into that more in the new year, especially because I always feel so happy after I’ve made progress on it! It is also is a fun way for me to let go of perfectionism, and just focus on authenticity and joy.
It has been a while since I have made a longer post on here, and today felt like a great day to take some time to just reflect. It has been an interesting year, and I am excited that my husband and I are going to have a fun Christmas together and this will hopefully be the start of a new annual tradition! Sending love to everyone who needs a little extra this season, and I hope your holiday season brings you love and peace.
Snapchat wants users to now pay for their own memories even though they’ve sold our faces/voices/data to companies.
I don’t know about you, but I feel a technological revolution coming, and I’m on the side of books and nature.
I will gladly remove my social media and streaming services. I’m sure there are others who feel the same, and others who absolutely won’t- both are okay. So long as I am living in alignment with my morals, I will be okay. That goes the same for you.
I pray that the Universe/God will allow love, light and truth to always come forth and outshine any lies and fear.
finding light in the dark 