Gratitude always makes me feel more present and grounded, so I want to take a moment to list what is keeping me happy lately:
• my husband (he’s the best) ♡
• diamond dot art
• iced coffee
• morbid podcast
• cute blank cards w/ colorful envelopes
• my comfy bed
• crafting with my gal friends
I am SOOOOOO happy it’s Friday! This week felt like an eternity of chaotic energy and I am just ready to have some fun this weekend! I’m going to run to TJ today to grab a couple more things for my friend’s baby since her baby shower is Sunday! I need to place a grocery order around my busy weekend as well, because tomorrow I’m hanging with my other friend to celebrate her birthday that just passed! Sometimes the weekends can be overwhelming to me when I have more than one day of plans, but I know that we all could use community / good company so I will enjoy that.
Did some paint by numbers with the gals today! It was fun just yapping, snacking and doing some girly art!
Grateful for music, especially the kind that gives me goosebumps and brings tears to my eyes.
Grateful for my husband, especially his kisses and his laugh. Not to mention his patience, determination, intelligence and work ethic. There’s a lot I love about this man.
Grateful for coffee, especially some iced coffee w cream from Dunkin’.
Grateful for my car, especially the fact that she keeps me safe and has a cute pink steering wheel cover.
Grateful for my job, especially the fact that I’m not micromanaged.
I feel like we all need to start re-centering and re-grounding ourselves. We all need to learn how to feel our emotions, instead of shoving them away.
I’m actually pretty sad that I get anxious to go on walks by my house. I cried about it the other day- but to be fair, I’m also on my period. I’ve just had a couple bad experiences, like 1. watching a dog get hit by a car and 2. some guy was going to try to kidnap me. oh.. and 3. a creepy coworker of mine showed up to my house unannounced while I was on a walk. Needless to say, I don’t really feel calm on my walks- I’m typically on high alert.
I selfishly hate that my cat has diabetes. It’s so hard for my husband and I to take vacations because she has to have her insulin twice a day, and she’s did horrible when she had an 8 hour stay at the vet, so she can’t really be put in a kitty hotel for long. I don’t want to fly her anywhere and driving her in a car for hours would also stress her out so it’s just all annoying as shit.
I am tired of patients yelling at me when aim trying to help them. You can’t really yell at me about your insurance policy- you signed up for it, not me. I didn’t write in the frequencies or downgrades or make up any of the stupid rules for your plan, and I also agree with you that they are stupid rules. It’s patients and providers against the insurance companies- don’t yell at me when I’m on your side!
I definitely need to drink more water.
I could really use a technology free day by the ocean. Warm sun, a light breeze, sand in my toes, and the sounds of the ocean… I feel like that would heal me.
I’m annoyed that Tell Me Lies is over.
This morning I woke up drenched in sweat and mother nature has come to visit with a vengeance apparently. It feels like all the collective rage that has been building up is releasing itself, and although it’s painful and exhausting, it’s necessary.
It’s technically the new moon as well, although it peaks tomorrow with a solar eclipse, so it just all feels like divine timing. With the eclipse starting off the year of the Fire Horse tomorrow, I have hope for a powerful, beautiful transition for the collective. Transitioning power from corrupt, evil systems, back to authentic, empathetic community.
Yesterday was such a lovely day! My husband and I went out to breakfast, grabbed some more diamond by numbers from Hobby Lobby, and I made some yummy fresh juice and lemon ginger shots for the week!
Today I’m gonna call my friend who is doing some traveling in Peru to hear about all her adventures and see what her next plans are, and other than that, it should be a nice chill day!
The sun has been shining all weekend and we finally got into 40 degree weather, so basically I have been reborn and I’m alive again! LOL! However I definitely am ready to smell some grass and flowers- but we’re getting close!!
I hope everyone has a lovely Sunday!
I’m addicted to the things I hate.
The screens, the scrolling, staying up-to-date.
Overstimulated by horrific news and power dynamics.
Sickened by tax dollars funding elite pedophiles over academics.
Chaos and violence all on the “for you” pages.
Faith and love diminishes as fear and doubt rages.
Was this the plan all along? Addicted to screens and misinformation?
Fighting with our loved ones and neglecting the future generation?
We need regulated nervous systems and our minds at ease.
We need less shame and hatred, we need more kindness and peace.
The screens and socials are made to keep us depressed and addicted.
Constantly comparing and yearning for these “wonderful lives” that are depicted.
When we know deep down that none of this is real.
We scroll, we numb out and we forget how to feel.
We lose ourselves a little more each day that we don’t tune in.
We let our authenticity die every time that we log in.
Is this the future we want? Is this the life we want to live?
Do you want to stay stuck in fear with nothing left to give?
Our brains are wired for survival, yet in ways it keeps us trapped.
Constantly looking for negativity and disarray on the apps.
Take your power back- be mindful and intentional with how you spend your time.
Focus on what you can control, and leave the rest up to the divine.
Yesterday after work my husband had to go to his go-karting race, and I decided to skip this one and stayed home to be productive, but also ended up getting on my walking pad and watching an episode of Tell Me Lies, and later on I had time to do some of my diamond by number canvas! Honestly, it’s kind of crazy how prioritizing joy can completely shift you from exhausted to refreshed! I am going to try to keep that in mind more often.
finding light in the dark 