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Friday

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We had to drop off our diabetic cat at the vet this morning for her glucose curve test. Basically they will give her food and her insulin and check her blood sugar multiple times thought the day to see what is going on. I’m really hoping we get some answers from that.

I was going to go into work late today, but I ended up just staying home. I don’t know if it’s the PMS or stress (or both), but I’ve just been having on and off nausea and really was not feeling up for the day. I’m glad I get some time to rest as I also have a busy weekend ahead.

Tomorrow is my high school BFF’s birthday and we’re going to a local Oktoberfest, which should be fun! Then Sunday I am taking my mom to the Bears vs. Cowboys game! She absolutely loves the cowboys and has never been to an NFL game, so I feel very lucky that I am able to take her. Today I’m just gonna keep resting and eliminating stress to conserve my energy for this weekend.

Monday Mood

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It’s Monday! I’m tired, but grateful for this job and this week. My husband and I were supposed to get tattoos this weekend, but our tattoo artist had to reschedule due to having Covid. We ended up filling our weekend with other fun activities: we went and saw a movie, and we also went to the shooting range!

I definitely cried and basically had a whole panic attack before going to the range, but I mustered up the courage and I shot three different guns! I have also been having so much fun with my new iPad and making digital designs that on ProCreate! I finally feel like I have a hobby that it’s hard to pull me away from, which is making me feel very excited!

I hope everyone has a great week ahead! Here are some recent designs I’ve made:

Saturday Gratitude

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Beyond blessed to be alive and well, and there is so much to be grateful for today:

  • the sun is shining!
  • my husband and I went out to our favorite breakfast place
  • still loving Swag II (Bieber’s newest album)
  • we got to hang out w good friends yesterday
  • got some new jeans that fit well!
  • hot showers!

Wednesday AM (gratitude)

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It’s been a while since I’ve done this and I remember how good it made me feel, so here are some things and I am grateful for today and why!

  1. My husband. I’m so blessed to have such a respectful, loving, intelligent man as my life partner. He makes me feel loved and appreciated, and I am so grateful for all of the patience and support he has given me throughout the years.
  2. Our home. It is truly a blessing to wake up with electricity, clean running water, appliances to wash clothes and keep groceries cold. We’re lucky we bought our home when we did and it’s a blessing to be able to afford our mortgage.
  3. Iced coffee. This sounds like such a minuscule thing in life, yet it brings me so much joy. I love having a little treat that includes some caffeine, and I’m grateful we can afford this little luxury.
  4. My job. I’m so happy to be in a job where I no longer have a toxic boss/manager, I am not micromanaged, and I bosses who actually ask for and listen to feedback. I am so glad I found this office and I plan to stay here for the long haul!
  5. My health. I am able to walk, talk, eat, drive, use the bathroom, dance, and do a whole bunch of things without needing assistance, and that is a blessing. I’m grateful that my blood pumps and my lungs breathe all without me having to think about it.

There are soooo many things I could list, but I need to get ready for work! What are you feeling grateful for today?

Saturday Vibes

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Tonight is one of my friends bachelorette parties!! I’m one of her bridesmaids so me and her maid of honor and another bridesmaid are going to decorate the hotel before the bride-to-be arrives, and then we’re gonna go out for a night at the bars! I’m honestly not super into going out anymore, but I love her and her friends are super nice too so I know it’ll be a good night!

FriYAY

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Happy Friday!! I have so many things to be grateful about today:

New Justin Bieber album is out!

I have a nail appointment today!

I get to shop with my friend that I haven’t seen in a while!

I work at a job where my bosses are flexible and appreciative!

I woke up in good health next to the love of my life!

Wow what a day!! Wishing everyone a happy Friday and happy weekend!!

Tuesday

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Went back to work today! I worked skipped lunch and just worked 7-2pm which was nice. I’m very grateful for my job and the flexibility I have with my schedule! I got all of the insurance checks in, my follow up calls done, and several pre-estimates called on, so it was a productive day for sure!

I’m glad I got some time to myself today- sometimes I really wish I could work remotely because I would be so much more productive if I didn’t have anyone bothering me at work. I’m always happy to be helpful with work stuff, but sometimes I feel like some people just want to vent and waste time.

What’s worse is no matter how much I don’t participate and tell this person to just stay out of it and focus on her own work or go talk to the bosses, she just keeps venting and telling me everything about her day. I don’t have any authority anyways, but I literally am always so much more productive when she isn’t there!

I have told the bosses a bit about her being distracting, and I’ve never pushed the work from home thing because I figured I’d want to ask for that privilege if/when it’s time to have children. I’m going to see how the rest of this year goes and maybe I’ll ask for a work from home day for 2026. Either way, I love my job and am grateful to have the job I do and I have to remember that!

Alright with that I’m off to enjoy my evening, but I wanted to share this cute little digital vision board I made with some images from Pinterest! I really like how it turned out!

September Prayers

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May September bring a calmness to your life, allowing you to slow down and be present.

May September show you that miracles can happen and there truly is magic in the world around you.

May September bring abundance and luck around every corner, surprising and inspiring your inner child.

May September allow you to soak in all that you’ve created and all that you have accomplished over the past few years.

You have evolved, and you will continue to evolve. The breakdowns have lead to breakthroughs. The hardships have strengthened your boundaries. You aren’t a never-ending project that needs fixing, you’re a unique, powerful being that deserves to love yourself in the same way that you love everyone else. May September open your eyes to that.

Sunday AM Thoughts

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Last night my high school BFF slept over! We watched movies, ate snacks, and did some spooky crafts! It was so nice to just unwind and have fun! We also went and grabbed some coffee this morning and walked around the little downtown area which was nice! Now my husband and I are headed to breakfast and she went home to enjoy the rest of her Sunday! I’m so grateful for weekends like these!

Wednesday

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Feeling a lot lighter today after sitting in some heavy emotions yesterday. Crying is truly such a good release, and boy did I let myself ugly sob! I also got to talk to my therapist and told her I was feeling very angry. She asked what I am feeling angry about, and so I decided to read her the part of my blog from the other day where I wrote in all caps about the things I was upset about. The way that reading words out loud is sooooo different than writing… I started BAWLING. I feel like reading it out loud really helped bring the release I needed from the last couple days, and as hard as it was, it felt so good.