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October Prayers

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Dear Universe,

May October feel cozy and sweet, like the cinnamon and pumpkin seasonings in our drinks.

May October feel like a breath of fresh air, bringing peace and quiet to chaotic minds and bodies.

May October feel like letting go, releasing all of the weights and worries that were never ours to hold.

May October bring clarity and comfort to all who are needing a little extra lately.

I pray October is bringing love, blessings and peace to the entire collective. I pray we are present enough to see and receive all of life’s beautiful offers and opportunities. I pray that this month we’re all able to trust and lean into faith, rather than succumbing to fear and doubt. May October be blessed. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Little Life Update

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Life has been a little hectic lately dealing with sick cats. We brought our diabetic cat to the vet to stay all day for her glucose curve, and they ended up finding a tapeworm in her stool. They told us that they come from fleas or eating mice which is even more confusing because our cats show no signs of fleas, and the one time she caught a mouse (8 years ago) she definitely brought it to me like most cats do.

She then of course didn’t feel well due to stress from vet and now taking dewormer, but we also had to stop her insulin as well. Now my other cats started throwing up this week, one of which had diarrhea, so we had to drop off stool samples from my other cats off at the vet this week and was supposed to get a call yesterday but the vet was in surgery so she didn’t call. Today we should get the results and if the other cats have worms, then we also need to treat them.

Part of me is scared we are overdosing our cat with insulin, even though the vet says we aren’t even at max dose yet, but I swear she’s been like deteriorating since her diagnosis in May. She has arthritis, which makes sense because she was holding lots of extra weight for a while, but just seeing her walk so slow and not wanting to be walking around for more than a few steps is hurting my heart.

We’re gonna have to bring her for a second opinion about the diabetes and dosage too. I just want to see if maybe there are other, more natural routes for her. She’s about to be 10 so I know she’s a senior kitty now, but I’ve had cats who lived to be 17 and I’d love to see our Mushu get there.

It’s hard having all of our babies not feel well- luckily the other two have stopped puking/having diarrhea so hopefully that stays like that. Of course, if their stool does have worms, then we will have to deworm. We will see what the vet says today and hopefully we’re on the upswing from here!

Monday Evening

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I messed up my streak! Oh well, guess today is day one again! I had a fun weekend, so it was definitely worth missing a blogging day. Yesterday I took my mom to the Bears Vs. Cowboys game!! She loves the Cowboys, so that was kind of a bummer that the Bears suddenly figured out how to play football yesterday, but either way the experience was awesome!

On Saturday my husband and I went to a local Oktoberfest and met up with my friend for her birthday! It was so fun being a little kid again riding all the rides and just enjoying the atmosphere! I feel very blessed to be living this life, and the fact that I can be present to the love around me is also a blessing in and of itself. Being someone who has been chronically anxious, it’s nice to be able to feel joy in the present moment.

Friday

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We had to drop off our diabetic cat at the vet this morning for her glucose curve test. Basically they will give her food and her insulin and check her blood sugar multiple times thought the day to see what is going on. I’m really hoping we get some answers from that.

I was going to go into work late today, but I ended up just staying home. I don’t know if it’s the PMS or stress (or both), but I’ve just been having on and off nausea and really was not feeling up for the day. I’m glad I get some time to rest as I also have a busy weekend ahead.

Tomorrow is my high school BFF’s birthday and we’re going to a local Oktoberfest, which should be fun! Then Sunday I am taking my mom to the Bears vs. Cowboys game! She absolutely loves the cowboys and has never been to an NFL game, so I feel very lucky that I am able to take her. Today I’m just gonna keep resting and eliminating stress to conserve my energy for this weekend.

Monday Mood

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It’s Monday! I’m tired, but grateful for this job and this week. My husband and I were supposed to get tattoos this weekend, but our tattoo artist had to reschedule due to having Covid. We ended up filling our weekend with other fun activities: we went and saw a movie, and we also went to the shooting range!

I definitely cried and basically had a whole panic attack before going to the range, but I mustered up the courage and I shot three different guns! I have also been having so much fun with my new iPad and making digital designs that on ProCreate! I finally feel like I have a hobby that it’s hard to pull me away from, which is making me feel very excited!

I hope everyone has a great week ahead! Here are some recent designs I’ve made:

Saturday Gratitude

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Beyond blessed to be alive and well, and there is so much to be grateful for today:

  • the sun is shining!
  • my husband and I went out to our favorite breakfast place
  • still loving Swag II (Bieber’s newest album)
  • we got to hang out w good friends yesterday
  • got some new jeans that fit well!
  • hot showers!

Wednesday AM (gratitude)

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It’s been a while since I’ve done this and I remember how good it made me feel, so here are some things and I am grateful for today and why!

  1. My husband. I’m so blessed to have such a respectful, loving, intelligent man as my life partner. He makes me feel loved and appreciated, and I am so grateful for all of the patience and support he has given me throughout the years.
  2. Our home. It is truly a blessing to wake up with electricity, clean running water, appliances to wash clothes and keep groceries cold. We’re lucky we bought our home when we did and it’s a blessing to be able to afford our mortgage.
  3. Iced coffee. This sounds like such a minuscule thing in life, yet it brings me so much joy. I love having a little treat that includes some caffeine, and I’m grateful we can afford this little luxury.
  4. My job. I’m so happy to be in a job where I no longer have a toxic boss/manager, I am not micromanaged, and I bosses who actually ask for and listen to feedback. I am so glad I found this office and I plan to stay here for the long haul!
  5. My health. I am able to walk, talk, eat, drive, use the bathroom, dance, and do a whole bunch of things without needing assistance, and that is a blessing. I’m grateful that my blood pumps and my lungs breathe all without me having to think about it.

There are soooo many things I could list, but I need to get ready for work! What are you feeling grateful for today?

Saturday Vibes

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Tonight is one of my friends bachelorette parties!! I’m one of her bridesmaids so me and her maid of honor and another bridesmaid are going to decorate the hotel before the bride-to-be arrives, and then we’re gonna go out for a night at the bars! I’m honestly not super into going out anymore, but I love her and her friends are super nice too so I know it’ll be a good night!

FriYAY

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Happy Friday!! I have so many things to be grateful about today:

New Justin Bieber album is out!

I have a nail appointment today!

I get to shop with my friend that I haven’t seen in a while!

I work at a job where my bosses are flexible and appreciative!

I woke up in good health next to the love of my life!

Wow what a day!! Wishing everyone a happy Friday and happy weekend!!