You can find meaning and magic in every interaction if you want to.
Grief is a wild, strong emotion- but that only means the love was strong.
Where focus goes, energy flows. Be mindful of the energy you’re calling in.
We’re all ignorant to things and we’re meant to be. No human is meant to know everything.
When you’re feeling intense or extreme in your emotions, it can be hard to try to find the medium- this is when you need to pause and get into your body. Shake. Scream. Dance. Cry. Pause.
What makes a good neighbor?
Someone who doesn’t scream at and abuse their significant others and minds their own business. That definitely sounds like the bare minimum (and is LOL), but we have a crazy neighbor and at this point, we just appreciate the neighbors who are nothing like him. We also don’t have kids or anything currently, and I hear my coworkers talk about how they have nice neighbors who will help them with their kids and/or bus stop things which I find to be very nice! Basically neighbors who are helpful when needed, and mind their business all the rest of the time!
Definitely started a post this morning and forgot to go back to it LOL! I am pretty tired now but trying to get back on a daily writing streak so just wanted to make a post quick!
It’s a new moon and I am looking at myself with rosy colored lenses. I no longer wish to compare and criticize my body or my health, instead I choose to celebrate the wins and be grateful for what is. I no longer wish to “fix” and “improve” myself, instead I will just be.
Just being me is enough. Focusing on joy and love is what I prefer over the fears and doubts that chaos can bring. I am leaning into faith over fear, and really just trying to stay focused on gratitude and peace.
What are you most proud of in your life?
I’m proud of the fact that even though I grew up in chaos and had traumatic experiences, I still choose to grow and not allow that to turn me into a bitter person.
I trust in the Universe to keep me protected from all evil, and all things blocking me from my purpose.
I trust my Angels and Guides to keep me on the path to my higher self, loving and supporting me along the way.
I trust in Diving Timing; even when it may not always feel right in the moment, I know there is a bigger and better plan.
There is so much beyond my control, and I no longer wish to hold the weight of the world. I trust that love and light will always prevail. I trust that people are more kind and loving and connected than the media may make it seem. I trust that there is good in this world, and greatness in the divine. Thank you, thank you, thank you. 🤍✨
Last night I had a few friends over for a “ghouls night!” It was so nice just chatting, painting pumpkins and watching movies! It makes me want to host more lowkey nights like that with only 3-4 people so we can all connect and just enjoy conversations and crafts!
When you think of the word “successful,” who’s the first person that comes to mind and why?
When I think “successful” I think of Mel Robbins, because:
1. She is a best selling author
2. She has a popular podcast
3. She is AUTHENTIC
I love listening to Mel, because she just comes off as such a real human being! She is constantly writing and recording while also being a wife, as well as a mother to three adult children. She tells it like it is and with her interviews, it seems like she has access to all of these very smart, successful people. I love that she didn’t start her podcast until she was 54, and she completely blew the game out of the water. She’s definitely someone I admire and I’d love to meet one day.
The way we speak to ourselves really matters.
You’re not supposed to be liked by everyone, and if you’re being authentic, you won’t be liked by everyone.
Adults can handle their own discomfort and disappointment, it’s not your job to make everyone else happy.
Shaming and blaming yourself will never bring the results you want.
Life will always have chaos, we’re meant to prioritize joy.
Fear sells. Fear controls. In a world of fear- have faith.
It’s been a while since I’ve sat and written anything long form on here, and I can’t say I necessarily want to do that right now either, but I have been feeling some shifts this weekend that I feel like articulating and expanding upon for a second.
I am someone who hates disappointing people, but I’m also someone who really has been trying to empower the whole “don’t do want you don’t want to do” mindset. As someone who has been a people-pleaser her whole life, I was basically not living in any sort of authenticity because I always did whatever people wanted even when I didn’t necessarily want to do that.
This weekend we were invited to my husband’s cousin’s graduation ceremony. Now, we are obviously very excited and happy for his cousin for following his dreams and meeting his goals, but this ceremony was 3.5 hours away and we were not trying to pay for a hotel out there, so it was going to be an in and out trip. My husband ultimately decided to not go and that we would take his cousin and his wife out another time, which I felt so relieved about. I was not looking forward to a 7 hour commute and a ceremony.
My default is to feel guilt and shame about this, even though I really have not gone against any of my morals. For me, I would not expect my cousins to drive 3.5 hours for my college graduation… in fact, they didn’t even drive the 2 hours and I have never taken that personally! I do understand my relationship with family can be different than his, and ultimately this was his decision to skip the graduation so I really should be detached from it, yet yesterday I couldn’t help but feel guilty and like we’re the a**holes of the family. In reality though, we haven’t done anything wrong. I can understand 100% if they’re upset, but also I’m sure they can understand where we’re coming from too and it’s not something that will rip the family apart.
We also were asked to help our friends move on that same day and we didn’t go help them even though we didn’t end up going to the graduation. My husband had a project he was working on and I honestly just took a day for myself. I’ve been finally leveling out after a couple weeks of being very stressed and having bad mental health, so I just needed a day for rest and joy. Yesterday we did go to help them finish moving some boxes, but part of me still felt rude for not going to help on Saturday, even though I know I would have been exhausted and overall just not pleasant to be around.
My husband felt no guilt whatsoever for not going to the graduation or helping friends move, and it’s just crazy how differently our brains work. I also am like, maybe I should just embrace the fact that I also didn’t want to go do any of these things, and if that makes me an “a**hole,” then so be it! I think I have such issues with being “rude” or doing anything to upset people, because I really didn’t like how mean my dad was when I grew up.
In reality though, he was typically drunk and would be name-calling/making fun of big emotions. He’d pick on my weight or my intelligence, and that’s not anything I could see myself doing, nor is that what I have done this weekend. It definitely felt that his rudeness was more intentional, and me skipping out on a graduation is not actually comparable to the ways my dad was an a**hole.
I guess this is why I write, and why I need to get back to it. When I actually take time to think through and articulate my thoughts, I realize how illogical I’m being when it comes to how I punish myself or make myself feel guilty all the time. My inner critic gets very loud the instant that I feel I’ve done wrong, and I have to remember that she also is not very logical- she’s part of survival mode. My brain still thinks that being “perfect” and never upsetting anyone is how to stay safe, but that is not feasible, nor is it true. Authenticity is the answer. Love is the answer. I just have to embody those two things, and all will align as it should.
finding light in the dark 