
Taking a day of rest after throwing up this morning. I know it’s because I ate bad food yesterday and went right to bed, so at least I’m not actually sick. I just feel gross and tired, and I am grateful to be able to take a day to rest.

Taking a day of rest after throwing up this morning. I know it’s because I ate bad food yesterday and went right to bed, so at least I’m not actually sick. I just feel gross and tired, and I am grateful to be able to take a day to rest.

Today was chill and I’m feeling so grateful. My cats are all seeming to feel happy and healthy today! *knocks aggressively on wood*
I’m looking forward to this week ahead – I’m feeling all good vibes coming my way! Could be because it’s our wedding anniversary on Thursday, but regardless I can just sense goodness on the way.


Life has been a little hectic lately dealing with sick cats. We brought our diabetic cat to the vet to stay all day for her glucose curve, and they ended up finding a tapeworm in her stool. They told us that they come from fleas or eating mice which is even more confusing because our cats show no signs of fleas, and the one time she caught a mouse (8 years ago) she definitely brought it to me like most cats do.
She then of course didn’t feel well due to stress from vet and now taking dewormer, but we also had to stop her insulin as well. Now my other cats started throwing up this week, one of which had diarrhea, so we had to drop off stool samples from my other cats off at the vet this week and was supposed to get a call yesterday but the vet was in surgery so she didn’t call. Today we should get the results and if the other cats have worms, then we also need to treat them.
Part of me is scared we are overdosing our cat with insulin, even though the vet says we aren’t even at max dose yet, but I swear she’s been like deteriorating since her diagnosis in May. She has arthritis, which makes sense because she was holding lots of extra weight for a while, but just seeing her walk so slow and not wanting to be walking around for more than a few steps is hurting my heart.
We’re gonna have to bring her for a second opinion about the diabetes and dosage too. I just want to see if maybe there are other, more natural routes for her. She’s about to be 10 so I know she’s a senior kitty now, but I’ve had cats who lived to be 17 and I’d love to see our Mushu get there.
It’s hard having all of our babies not feel well- luckily the other two have stopped puking/having diarrhea so hopefully that stays like that. Of course, if their stool does have worms, then we will have to deworm. We will see what the vet says today and hopefully we’re on the upswing from here!
I messed up my streak! Oh well, guess today is day one again! I had a fun weekend, so it was definitely worth missing a blogging day. Yesterday I took my mom to the Bears Vs. Cowboys game!! She loves the Cowboys, so that was kind of a bummer that the Bears suddenly figured out how to play football yesterday, but either way the experience was awesome!
On Saturday my husband and I went to a local Oktoberfest and met up with my friend for her birthday! It was so fun being a little kid again riding all the rides and just enjoying the atmosphere! I feel very blessed to be living this life, and the fact that I can be present to the love around me is also a blessing in and of itself. Being someone who has been chronically anxious, it’s nice to be able to feel joy in the present moment.

What’s your all-time favorite album?
Probably Pure Heroine by Lorde. Swimming by Mac Miller is up there too, as well as SOS (+ Deluxe Lana) by SZA.
We had to drop off our diabetic cat at the vet this morning for her glucose curve test. Basically they will give her food and her insulin and check her blood sugar multiple times thought the day to see what is going on. I’m really hoping we get some answers from that.
I was going to go into work late today, but I ended up just staying home. I don’t know if it’s the PMS or stress (or both), but I’ve just been having on and off nausea and really was not feeling up for the day. I’m glad I get some time to rest as I also have a busy weekend ahead.
Tomorrow is my high school BFF’s birthday and we’re going to a local Oktoberfest, which should be fun! Then Sunday I am taking my mom to the Bears vs. Cowboys game! She absolutely loves the cowboys and has never been to an NFL game, so I feel very lucky that I am able to take her. Today I’m just gonna keep resting and eliminating stress to conserve my energy for this weekend.
What would your life be like without music?
I absolutely love music. Singing, dancing, just having it on in the background- I always prefer to have music on. I love finding songs that give me goosebumps and bring tears to my eyes. I was just talking with my coworker yesterday about music and how I think about what my future children will say they grew up listening to. For me, my parents listened to a lot of Nine Inch Nails, System of a Down, Smashing Pumpkins, etc. Lots of loud, I’d even say angry music. My husband grew up listening to a lot of classic old school R&B, more calm, love songs.
I would much rather our future children grow up in a household of calm, loving music. I think of Cleo Sol, Giveon, Khamari, Tems, Khalid, Masego; when I listen to music like this, I feel quiet centered and calm. Whether or not the music actually had an effect on us, I’d say our personalities kind of actually match the music my husband and I listened to as kids. I feel like come off more chaotic and irritable, while my husband is calm and respectful.

Gratitude is truly life changing.
People will always judge, but so long as you’re happy with yourself, their opinions don’t matter.
People can only meet you as deeply as they’ve met themselves.
Everyone is a mirror, but sometimes people are just assholes.

I’m feeling tired, and grateful. I feel like good is on its way, and I am just open to receiving life’s abundance.