Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?
I definitely spend more time thinking about the future, and I think it just comes from my control issues/anxiety. I find myself worrying about worst case scenarios sometimes, and I just have to redirect myself to the present and be grateful for the life I have today. I also have to trust that I can handle whatever challenges life brings.
The sun is shining! ☀️
The coffee is hitting! ☕️
The grocery order is picked up! 🛒
The house is relatively clean! ✨
We’re in good health! 🙌🏼
The nails are cute! 💅🏻
Feeling blessed today, and grateful to be alive. 🫶🏼
I am letting go of my worries and anxieties about the future, and instead I am trusting that I can handle anything that comes my way.
I am letting go of the need for perfectionism, and instead I am embracing mistakes and failures, as I know they only allow me to evolve.
I am letting go of shame and embarrassment, and instead I am leaning into self-love and confidence in myself and my uniqueness.
What colleges have you attended?
I went to one community college and got my associates degree and then stopped as I needed to work full time to pay bills being out on my own. I paid for my degree outright with no loans! So proud of that.
Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?
When I am dancing and singing around the house, I consider that to be playtime. I love just being goofy and enjoying good music. I also love when I can do some vision boarding/collages as I feel like I’m in elementary school again! This year I started a journal that way I can fill the pages with visions and goals throughout the year!
New year, same me- just more authentic.
No more masks or people-pleasing.
No more dimming my light.
No more being quiet or shameful.
Honesty and consistency all 2025.
Compassion and empathy all 2025.
Purpose and passion all 2025.
2025 is a 9 year, signaling completion.
It’s 1:11 as I write this
All is as it should be.
Welcome, 2025.
What makes you feel nostalgic?
I feel nostalgic whenever I go to a roller rink or when I hear some early 2000s Outkast and Black Eyed Peas. Also we had disposable cameras at our Til Death Do Us Party, and that gave me such a sense of nostalgia.
What are your biggest challenges?
I’d say one of my biggest challenges is getting into healthy routines like working out and cooking. I never grew up eating super healthy or watching anyone prioritize health, wellness or the importance of movement. It’s something I want to do, and I have slowly been working towards.
Part of the reason this is a challenge is due to another issue I struggle with: lack of self trust. I am someone who feels better when I am in control, and I am someone who can be very hard on myself. With those things being said, I have definitely taken a diet a little too seriously in the past, and it was very unhealthy. I was losing weight and seeing results, and people around me were commenting and encouraging me- but in reality I was barely taking in 800 calories a day, and I was extremely strict with myself.
I know that if I want to be healthy, it has to be a lifestyle that I live. It can’t be something that I am tracking and counting; it can’t come from me shaming myself, it has to come from love. I want to love myself and my body enough to feed it the nutrients it truly needs and to workout regularly. I also want to trust myself to be able to make a change without becoming obsessed. Luckily I am still in therapy, and I get to see my therapist on Friday so we can discuss the goals for this new year.
Happy Monday!
I’m back to work today and then off again for a couple days, but I’m just happy to be feeling relatively healthy again! Still have some sinus congestion, but overall just feeling so much better. Also SZA dropped SOS Deluxe LANA album so I’ve been jamming to that nonstop and just enjoying the rest of 2024!
Happy new moon! 🌑
finding light in the dark 