Cold weather is not my favorite, but at the same time, I am such a homebody and the cold really gives a great reason to stay inside. Also, snow is beautiful when you’re in the comfort of your own home with absolutely no obligations to leave.
Today I am tired, but that’s because it’s cloudy out and my weekend was full of fun and good company! My mom and I went shopping and found her an outfit to wear to my wedding, and it was actually the first thing she tried on! She got some cute, flows pants which are perfect for the beach and then a solid cream top! We also found earrings for me to wear and some cute clothes for vacation!
My fiancé and I went to a brewery with this best friend this weekend which was also nice. We had good beer, ordered some yummy pizza from the place next door and just got to enjoy the outdoors! His friend’s dog was with us and she is so well-behaved, but she is also a great guard dog. There were a couple of people stumbling around near us (cops were already nearby trying to handle them), and immediately she was on guard and ready to let them know that they weren’t to come near us.
Yesterday was a more productive day just spent with my fiancé! We got some cleaning done and picked up our groceries as well, and then I cleaned up and re-twisted his dreads at the end of the day! I love days where we just get to spend time together and get ourselves all set for the week.
This week leads up to a long weekend and if weather permits, we will be going on our friend’s boat on Saturday! If weather does not permit, I’ll likely just do more purging around the house and get a schedule together for myself for the week ahead! During the week I have a nail appt and a dinner date with a friend, so those will be nice little self care things to get me through the week!
My lunch break here is almost done so I’m gonna enjoy my yogurt and get back to it! I hope everyone has a great week ahead ✨
I have never broken a bone (knocks on wood), but when I was 8 years old I did fracture my growth plate in my right hand by the ring finger knuckle. This was my first year of public school after being homeschooled for a couple of years and I was enjoying my time at recess. When they blew the whistles and it was time to line up to go back to class, I started running down the hill and on my way down I tripped and fell. As I went to catch myself, my middle finger and ring finger on my right hand basically did the splits, and I felt immediate pain.
When I went to get myself up, I took a look at my hand and my fingers were stuck split apart and I remember feeling scared and just crying out in pain. A teacher took me to the nurse and they called my dad to come and get me, and he ended up taking me to either the hospital or some sort of urgent care that had imaging available.
They took x-rays and brought the doctor in who let me and my dad know that I dislocated my ring finger, and that they needed to put it back into place. My 8 year old self was immediately scared, because something told me I was about to be in pain again. Of course, I was right and they told me that they needed to pull on my finger and move it back where it’s supposed to be, and that they really want to do it in one try to that they don’t have to do it again.
I cooperated mainly because the idea of me flinching or messing it up and having to do it all over again sounded worse than just getting it done in one shot. I did as they said and relaxed to the best of my ability and as I sat there on the table the doctor quickly grabbed my hand, pulled and shifted my finger back where it was supposed to me. In the midst of that I definitely let out a little scream and began to cry again, and immediately asked “do you have to do it again!?”
They told me they’d need another x-ray to know for certain so they started that process. Once they said it was all in place, I was so relieved to find out that I didn’t have to go through that torture again. I remember them telling me and my dad that there was a fracture and I’d have to wear a cast, and that I was excited for, because I’d seen other kids have people sign their casts.
I left with my fingers tapped together with a wrap bandage that they put all the way to my elbow for whatever reason, and a whole ass sling. We had to make a separate appointment elsewhere to go get the hard cast, and once we did that I only had the cast on my hand- it was cut off right by the wrist. I got hot pink because that was what I wanted, and I don’t remember how many weeks I had to wear it for, but I do remember seeing a very colorfully bruised (and kinda smelly) hand once they removed it.
I didn’t have to get recasted or do anything different in life once the cast was removed, other than going back to writing with my dominant hand that was out of commission for a few weeks (bet my teachers loved trying to read my homework during that time). I remembered being told that later in life I could feel aches or pains associated with the fractured growth plate, and this past winter I started having days where it would just throb in the exact area that was injured. It took 20 years, which was likely exacerbated by cell phone and computer mouse usage, but they were definitely right.
I really would rather not do that again or break any bones, which means I probably should be working out more and working on my balance to help me as I continue to age. I just checked the weather right now after writing that and it’s 66 and sunny out, so I think that means it’s time for a walk! I’ll make sure not to run down any hills.
What’s one small improvement you can make in your life?
I know I need the stillness. I know I need the pause. Part of me still fights it, because my mind and body were always used to chaos. Instead, I scroll or do chores or do anything to avoid the stillness, even though I know that the stillness helps me and is actually bearable in my current state. I know it’ll improve my life to make a dedicated meditation practice, even if it’s only for five minutes a day. Maybe I will tonight, but that’s what I always say.
It’s a gorgeous day outside, and I am currently sitting in my papasan chair with my cat laying on my torso. I went on a walk this morning which was very refreshing and peaceful. Once I got back home, my fiancé and I went on a scenic drive out to grab some lunch and we treated ourselves to the new summer berry lemonade refreshers from Starbucks.
I decided to read a little while he is playing VR and after a chapter with Mushu purring on me I was quickly falling into a nap. Today is a day to rest and really soak up the love around me. I am so grateful for this life, and I’m happy to be present in these beautiful moments.
One of my good friends messaged me yesterday reminding me to look out for the northern lights (bless her soul), so I had set an alarm for midnight to get up and go luck. Well my ass was too tired at that point and my fiancé hadn’t come to bed yet so I told myself that I’ll think about getting up when he comes to bed!
So at around 2:00am he strolls in ready for bed and I got out of my bed and went out to the balcony. I originally didn’t bring my phone out, so I was just staring at the sky when I can see moving lights and little flashes around the sky- it was so clear and beautiful! So of course I ran back to get my phone and decided to take some photos on night mode! I was so shooketh by the beauty I had captured and needed to share it here!
I am so grateful that I finally got to see this magical light show, and rumor has it I may be able to see it again tonight! We will see what happens, but either way I am so happy I got to see the northern lights finally!!
Freedom means feeling at ease physically, spiritually, and mentally. Freedom is not worrying about how situations will play out or how long it’ll take to reach your dreams, it’s trusting that all is happening for you and in the best timing that is possible. Freedom is waking up without your heart racing in a panic, but instead you have a deep feeling at peace and are ready to go with the flow of the day. Freedom is not giving a f*ck what other people think of you, because after years of healing and diving into the depths of your soul, you know exactly who you are and you know you can trust yourself. Freedom is peace.
The angel number of “alignment” is on the clock as I start this, and today I am feeling it so much. I have been at my current job since the beginning of the year, so just over 4 months, and I have been enjoying it! I still do dental billing, just at a new office and I am so amazed at how great the doctors/owners are with being transparent and appreciative. I have been told multiple times that I am doing a great job and they’re so happy with me, and this is something I never heard from other employers other than that their required yearly reviews.
Well today the doctor who I work with the most pulled me into her office today and again gave me great feedback on how I’m doing, and then she proceeded to say: “We want to give you a $2 raise.” My jaw dropped. I literally felt myself getting emotional and my body felt so light but also weird. I thanked her and told her how much I appreciate her and the other doctors being so open and supportive, and I told her that I’ve never worked anywhere like this and how grateful I am to be there.
I am just feeling so supported and loved this year. I’m blessed that I always feel that from friends and family, but to finally also have a job where I feel appreciated is honestly incredible. I work full time 40 hours a week I am at this office, and for a lot of my life those 40 hours were at incredibly toxic work environments.
I worked in places where the boss would talk shit about other employees right to you, which only has you wondering what they say about you when you’re gone. I worked where you are constantly getting more and more work dumped on you, but no compensation to go with it. I’ve also worked places where you’re told to do something but once you do it they are mad and said they never told you to do that.
I think part of me always chose to stay in these chaotic workplaces because I was used to that type of environment in my childhood. Since I no longer had those issues in my home life, part of me would still seek out toxicity so I’d just find it in abusive work environments. In reality, I want peace in and all around me, and I’m finally at a place where I can allow peace and rest to be a priority. Now that I have a job where I am not constantly on eggshells, I finally feel free enough to speak up and discuss any concerns I have without fear of retaliation.
I feel so grateful for this job, and for this life. I feel even more grateful that I am able to be present to it all.