Author: hermagicalthoughts

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Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

When I worked for a raging narcissist, I wish I had quit sooner. I wish I had listened to my gut the first day I walked in, and I wish I had started looking for other jobs. I knew right away that it was going to be chaotic and that this was a place that was not running well.

At the time, I took it on as a challenge and kept telling myself that if I quit, I failed. When I think of that, I wish I would have had a different mindset about that at the time. It is not failing to leave a toxic environment. It is not failing if you only stay at a job for a few weeks, because your boss is emotionally unstable and abusive. I knew I easily could have found another job, but I had it in my head that I started this job so now I need to prove that I could do it.

At least now I have learned a lot of lessons from that job (and others), and I am much more aware and confident in my ability to stand up when I am being talked down to. I’m learning that I do have a voice and I deserve to be heard, and I am 100% allowed (and encouraged) to speak up when I am feeling uncomfortable. As much as I wish I hadn’t stayed at that job so long, I took valuable lessons from that place.

Wed 4/30/25

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1:11 on the clock as I start this. I’ve been seeing this a lot lately: new beginnings / trust your intuition. I am trying to tune into the universe and into the stillness, as I’ve been feeling a bit chaotic lately. My hormones are all out of wack because of me having my surgery this month as I really wasn’t eating, and that makes my cycle delayed. So I’m just really ragey today LOL. Trying not to be though- I know I have a very blessed life and my girls trip is a few days away which will be so nice!

Sunday/New Moon 4-27-25

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Good morning! I’m so happy to see the sun shining on this gorgeous day- a day of rest and resetting. Self care is on the list today- which includes a little bit of spoiling ourselves with some pedicures today. My husband and I haven’t had pedicures since November… LOL so we’re a bit overdue. I also wanted to get one before my girls trip coming up!

I’m also gonna pick up some groceries today and do my best to have a more nutritious week than I have been having lately, because I know my body deserves to be healthy and full of vitamins and nutrients. This part is always harder for me, but I am going to focus on small wins and keep reminding myself why I am doing this.

New moons are time for new intentions, and since we are no longer in eclipse season, the energy is much calmer. Plant those seeds that you wish to grow, and take time to nourish them. No rushing, no pushing- just trusting in the divine timing of it all. I am focusing on my physical and mental health, as well as how I can be more grounded- both in nature and in my own positive energy.

Friday 4-25-25

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Today was a good day! I had a good day at work, I got to see my therapist, and I watched a couple of episodes of Severance with my husband! I am excited for our weekend as we have a 30th birthday party to go to, we have pedicures booked, and we are getting eye exams/new glasses!

I’m also excited for the new moon on Sunday, which is the same day my husband and I are getting our pedicures. It’ll be a nice day to just relax and have some self care. I’m excited for my girls trip coming up soon, and I am just feeling a greater sense of self lately. I’m so grateful for this life and this beautiful Friday.

Energy

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The energy of today was chaotic as f*ck if you ask me. Work was wild, it felt like emotions were at an all time high, and I’m PMS-ing on top of it which doesn’t help. A couple of my friends I talked to today also felt this wild ass energy today, so I’m just trying to frame it positively like we are all about to level up by remembering where we need to set our boundaries and enforce them. I am not going to continue to let other people mess up my mood or how I am feeling about my day. How other people act is not my problem or my responsibility, I am only responsible for my own reactions and responses. Can you tell I’ve been reading “The Let Them Theory” by Mel Robbins? LOL!

Honestly though, this “Let Them” thing is harder than it sounds, but I am glad that this is on the forefront of my mind right now. I have definitely let other people’s lack of care and competence at work bother me, but literally it is not my problem. I am good at what I do, and I am not responsible for anyone else’s job or work ethic- I am only responsible for my own. I love the owners I work for, I love what I do even if it is stressful some days (I mean it’s fighting against insurance companies… so it’s just going going to be stressful somedays LOL) and I can be proud of my own work and focus on all of the positive aspects of my job.

It is important to feel and release the frustration from the day, but I can also choose to do that in a positive way. Instead of dwelling on the negative and continuing to talk about it, I can choose to do an activity to help ground me and bring me back to center. Sometimes that is dancing around my house, other times it is writing in my journal or here on my blog, and sometimes it is singing my heart out in the shower- all of these things are enjoyable to me, and they allow me release the tension from the day.

I definitely gave away a lot of my energy today. I got caught up being upset about things that are beyond my control, and I know that going forward, I do not want to waste my time on negative people or situations. I sometimes get mad at myself for caring too much when it feels like other people don’t care at all, but at the same time, I love that I care. I love that I am someone who takes pride in their work and work ethic. The reason I was able to move out and buy a home when I did is because: 1. I have an incredible husband who has been my rock through the entire journey and 2. I have always worked hard at every job I had, working towards promotions, being recognized for my skills/work ethic, and I am proud of myself for that. I do not need to waste time on negativity when there are so many blessings around me. I am grateful for this life I live, and I have worked hard to get here.

With that being said, thank you Universe and Angels for protecting me and helping me stay grounded in my own peaceful energy. Thank you for the fact that my husband and I can afford our bills, have access to food and water, have working vehicles and good jobs. Thank you for watching over us and supporting our love, and thank you for this beautiful life. I am so thankful to be at a place in my life where I am not in a constant state of anxiety, and I refuse to allow irrelevant things to knock me off my path to my higher self. I love the fact that I am a sensitive soul who cares, and in reality, I appreciate ever soul I meet. I say that, because no matter what the interaction is, I know I am learning from everyone that I cross paths with, and I with that knowledge I can only evolve.

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What makes you nervous?

Public speaking isn’t my favorite, which is also another reason why I have delayed started my podcast. I did well when I took a public speaking class in college, but it still makes me so nervous to think about speaking in front of large crowds. I know my podcast at least will be recorded in the comfort of my house and my own company, but knowing that I want to post it publicly does make me nervous too. I’m sure the nerves also have something to do with the fact that I’d be talking about my own personal story and healing journey (vulnerable af). I’ve done things in the past that have been out of my comfort zone and I have been totally fine, so I know once I finally pull the trigger and record I’ll be okay.