I am home and will be in bed for the next few days, and my surgery was a success. The doctor was not lying about this pain though- itās pretty rough. My husband is making sure Iām taking my medications on time and is bringing me everything I need (so blessedš„¹š), and I am prioritizing hydration and rest.
I was feeling emotional before surgery, because I had so many friends messaging me telling me they were praying for me and thinking of me. One even sent me an e-gift card for Smoothie King which I am looking forward to trying hopefully within the next week or so!
I just feel so lucky and grateful to have so much love and support around me. As much as I am struggling right now with the pain, I know it will all be worth it; even though currently it feels like I am swallowing shards of glass.
Excited for a calm weekend to relax and reset. We have no plans other than hanging out around the house and going on a breakfast date to our favorite place (aka where we got engaged). Im just thinking about how I will be able to get the house cleaned up and take time to myself; as an introvert, these are my favorite weekends.
Also itās Friday the 13th which is one of my favorite days, as my husbandās lucky number is 13, and we have three black cats! For us, we have always considered it to be a lucky day- and Iām feeling this energy.
When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?
Iāve been leaning a lot more into signs, synchronicities and spiritual practices and I had been getting signs around 7s. I was leaning into it and happened to find some old scratch offs that my grandma gave me a while back, and the total winnings on the scratch offs equaled to $7. I knew that the next time we went to the gas station, I had to bring those.
We decided to go to breakfast and the store first and that weād scratch them once we got home. Once we were home we start scratching away and although none of the actual games one, there was a bonus scratch game on each card where if the two symbols in the bonus matched then you won the prize listed. I start scratching and see two symbols of grapes- they match!! I start scratching away and I see that we just won $77!
I am not a gambler as I usually lose, but this time I decided to play on the 7s and I am so happy that I did! I played $7 back in and only got a $1 winner (which I still have yet to cash in) and happily took my $70! Thatās definitely the most I have ever won on a scratch off and I will always remember this story.
Iād like to take this time to just write about a few things that I am grateful for in my life. I think that itās important that we take time out to focus on what is going well in our lives. If we are constantly waiting for the next thing or thinking we wonāt be happy until certain goals are reached, then we are delaying our own happiness. I prefer to be happy, and practicing gratitude helps me with this. If you can, take some time to write down at least three things youāre grateful for right now!
Iāll start:
⢠I am so very grateful for the relationship that I have with my boyfriend. I am blessed to be with a man who is respectful, intelligent, hard-working, and who makes me feel safe and loved. I have seen many unhealthy relationships in my life, and I feel so lucky to have such a happy, healthy relationship with him. We always make sure to appreciate one another and we have learned how to communicate well with one another over the past 11 years, and for that I am grateful.
⢠I am thankful for books/podcasts. I recently got into podcasts this year, and also started reading more books about self-care and healing. I honestly have learned so much from these brilliant authors/podcasters and in a way I almost feel like they have helped me more than therapy has. I think just because I donāt get to see my therapy as often as Iād like, but during times when I feel like I need her, I can throw on Jay Shetty or Dr. Nicole LePara (aka The Holistic Psychologist) and feel like theyāre talking right to me! Unfortunately, not many people have access to therapy, but most people have access to books and podcasts, and for that I am grateful.
⢠I am thankful for the act of writing/journaling. I always enjoyed writing as a kid, and after a recent zoom interview with some members of the writing community I am in, I think I realized why. The founder of the community said there are studies showing how writing/journaling can be as beneficial as therapy! I can honestly say when I take time to write, I always feel better afterwards. As a child, it was my way to release and escape from the chaos inside my house and myself, and now I am planning on writing a book. I love writing in my blog, as well as writing poetry, and I would love to write a self-love book one day. I am grateful for right to write and for the skills I have and will continue to develop.
When I was in high school, I would often win concert tickets off the radio. My friends would ask me if I was somehow cheating to get these tickets, but truly Iād just plan my days around when tickets were being given out! Iād set reminders/alarms in my phone, and Iād make sure if I was at home to use my parents home phone along with my cellphone (landlines always go through faster for me, and is how I won most of these tickets).
In the past I won tickets to Kanye, Mikey Cyrus, Kid Cudi, Bryce Vine, and even front row Jingle Bash tickets one year! Itās been a little while since Iāve won any, granted covid has been a thing so shows really havenāt been going on, but this weekend my luck struck again: Russ DMād me on instagram giving me two tickets to his upcoming show in Chicago!
Now, I honestly couldnāt tell you if I was more excited to get a message from him or the fact that Iāll be getting to see him live, but wow was I jumping around like a little kid jacked up on sugar LOL. The nice thing is that my boyfriend also listens to him and likes his music, so we will get to enjoy the show together!
What is super ironic about this whole thing is that Iāve been on a self-care journey for quite a while now, and Iām learning a lot about manifesting and gratitude. My coworker had actually recommended Russā book āItās All In Your Headā to me a while back and she sent me his digital book via email. Well on Saturday morning my friend was over and was still asleep, so I decided to take that time to read the rest of his book on my phone, and I was completely inspired by it!
When my friend woke up I was telling her about some of the stuff I read (Iāve attached an excerpt from the book on here as I had shared it to my instagram page), and was just reflecting back on the book throughout the day! It was later in the afternoon when we were back at my house and I saw Russ had posted an instagram story ā2 min agoā and he was talking about giving out tickets to fans as he had been all week. I immediately messaged him in hopes that heād see it, and within a couple more minutes my wish was granted!
I am still honestly in shock that he DMād me and that my boyfriend and I get to see him live, and Iām so very grateful as Iāve been missing concerts so much lately! Itās next month and it canāt come soon enough! Now Iām inspired to keep looking for more concerts and ticket giveaways!
I hope everyone had a great weekend and has a great week ahead! Sending you all love and positivity!