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Happy April / Happy Full Moon!

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I’m using my blog here to cross off item number five on the above list! Happy full moon to everyone!

This full moon, I am letting go of:

• comparison- my journey is my own, and I can only compare myself to who I was yesterday. I cannot compare my body or my lifestyle to other people who do not live my life or have my brain.

• worries that are beyond my control- sometimes I hold onto work stress, as well as general life stress about family and future things that may never happen, and this is only robbing myself of being present and being happy. I can only control so much, and I can trust myself to get through any situations without having to overthink and worry.

• self – doubt- I hold myself back from goals due to my lack of self trust. I often can get into all or nothing mindsets which doesn’t work well when it comes to my health goals (diet mainly), because I have had issues in the past with getting obsessive. I know it’s been years and I have grown a lot, but I clearly still have some fear there.

I am releasing all of these things, as well as anything else that is keeping me blocked and stuck in cycles that are not benefiting me.

May this full moon be magical and powerful for everyone!

Just A Happy Sunday

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Today was such a nice day, despite the weather being windy and cloudy. My husband and I went to a very late breakfast at our usual spot, which was delicious as always! Prior to that I started laundry, took care of the dishes as well as the garbage (these are normally my husband’s chores, but I was feeling motivated this morning LOL) and I picked up the groceries! It was nice to have all of that done early in the morning.

This afternoon I decided to make some juice for the week, which are all f*cking delicious! I love when I have my husband try new juice recipes and seeing how he lights up after trying each one! I’ll post the pictures I put on my snapchat story below!

Overall, today was such a great day! We’re gonna have some dinner soon and I may do some diamond beading after that. I was thinking about finally starting an audiobook I downloaded a while ago, but I also may just listen to a true crime podcast like I usually do. I’m determined to make this week ahead a good week! Sending love and good vibes to everyone!

Monday AM: Blizzard Edition

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I called (well, texted) into work today, because we are in the middle of a blizzard warning. Most of my way to work is open roads by huge fields with no street lights; considering the weather apps say there are high winds, whiteout conditions, and half of the street view cameras I look at are down, I decided it’s not worth risking my life to go to work.

I also woke up feeling nauseous, but that is also because of my anxiety around traveling in this weather. I barely slept because I kept waking up checking for weather updates or seeing if they closed my job for the day- clearly not LOL!

I used to feel really guilty if I had to call off for anything, but now I don’t. I know I work hard, I am very blessed that my husband can work from home, and I can afford to take a day off so I can avoid traveling in horrible conditions. My coworker said she was going 20mph the entire way to work and the snow was blowing completely sideways! Luckily she made it in safely and will now deal with all of the cancellations that are inevitable.

As for me, I’m going back to bed. I’m grateful to be in the situation I am where I can take a day off when I need to and I don’t have to suffer in my work or personal life. I’m also grateful to be able to lay next to the love of my life in our comfortable bed. Life is quite beautiful.

Monday AM

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I definitely am not loving how dark it is in the morning now that we just had Daylight Savings, but it will be nice that it will be lighter out later. This weekend was nice and chill, mainly just hung around the house with my husband- he hasn’t been feeling 100% since I was sick, so I’m hoping he wakes up feeling much better today. Let’s make today a great Monday!

Wednesday Words

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I woke up finally feeling a lot better after feeling like shit the last couple days! I fell asleep at 7pm last night, woke up at 10pm really confused LOL but was happy to be able to go back to sleep for several hours.

This morning I was extremely grateful that I was feeling up for a shower and an iced coffee! I am convinced that the eclipse and full moon had something to do with this. I heard some woo-woo gal talking about how sometimes when we are feeling off or numb in our julian bodies, that is because our spirit/soul is out doing work in the spiritual realm to prepare for your next chapter here on Earth. I love me some magical woo-woo stuff so I am here for that explanation!

This just feels like a transformational year in general, and I know that love, light and God will prevail against all evil. Truths will continue to be revealed, the collective will continue to awaken and rise, and we were all born to be here during this time. I have faith it was all for a reason, and I will continue to have faith over fear.

March Blessings

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Happy March!

I always love the first of the month, as it symbolizes a new beginning! Today, the sun is shining, I get to go to my best friend’s baby shower, and my husband has his go-karting race this evening! We have a day centered around joy, blessings and the people we love.

This month I want to focus more on being present, being creative, and being joyful. The world is always going to have chaos and tragedy, and we deserve to enjoy all of the beautiful things life has to offer. I find myself happy when I am laughing in the presence of good company, and I also find joy in doing a simple craft alone in peace.

When I find myself getting worked up about anything, I need to start pausing and questioning “what is actually in my control in this moment.” I hope my first thought would be my breath, so I can actually take a few deep breaths to get back to center. My body doesn’t deserve to hold onto all this stress and tension, especially when most things I am stressed about are beyond my control.

I pray March brings a newfound sense of faith and spirituality, by allowing me to let go of any fears, doubts or tensions I may have been holding onto.

I pray March restores faith in humanity, showing the goodness and light that is amongst us all- and may we spread love and light ourselves.

I pray March is full of miracles and blessings, showing us all how truly beautiful life can be.

Thank you, thank you, thank you ♡

Saturday Gratitude

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Gratitude always makes me feel more present and grounded, so I want to take a moment to list what is keeping me happy lately:

• my husband (he’s the best) ♡

• diamond dot art

• iced coffee

• morbid podcast

• cute blank cards w/ colorful envelopes

• my comfy bed

• crafting with my gal friends

Friday Feels

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I am SOOOOOO happy it’s Friday! This week felt like an eternity of chaotic energy and I am just ready to have some fun this weekend! I’m going to run to TJ today to grab a couple more things for my friend’s baby since her baby shower is Sunday! I need to place a grocery order around my busy weekend as well, because tomorrow I’m hanging with my other friend to celebrate her birthday that just passed! Sometimes the weekends can be overwhelming to me when I have more than one day of plans, but I know that we all could use community / good company so I will enjoy that.