Author: hermagicalthoughts

Sunday Thoughts and Gratitude

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I feel grateful for the beautiful day I have spent with my husband. We’re about to go on a walk together which always makes me happy! Well, we’re actually going to play frisbee golf, which is also a fun time! I just want to get outside in the sun.

This morning we were up pretty early- we have to give our cat her insulin at the same time every day, and the doses are 12 hours apart. Since I was up so early to give her the insulin, I ended up staying up and watching the rest of Secret Lives of Mormon Wives (lol don’t judge me) and my husband woke up about an hour and a half later.

We decided to go for a drive to go get some coffee, and then we went shopping for a little bit before heading back home. We did some cleaning around the house today which feels really good, and I purged my closet which was also needed!

This long weekend was much needed, and I’m just feeling so present and so grateful for so many things. I’m happy the weather is getting warmer and the sun is out. I’m happy that we learned how to give our cat her insulin and she will be feeling a lot better soon; I’m also grateful that she can still live for many years with diabetes, and remission is also a possibility!

I’m grateful that my husband and I get to enjoy this long weekend together, and that we can afford this life that we live. We’re so blessed to have our jobs and our skill sets, and I’m so proud of how far we’ve come, both individually and as a couple, over the past 13.5 years. I am so thankful for this life, and thankful to be present here in my body to feel all of the love.

Thursday Morning Thoughts

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I’m tired and in bed before I have to get up for work, and just wanted to take a moment to jot down some random thoughts I’ve had recently:

  • peace and calmness can feel odd or off to someone who has experienced a lot of anxiety and hyper-vigilance
  • if you’re taught that everything is scary and is the end of the world, that makes sense why you’d think that. however, we can still unlearn / de-program those concepts that aren’t actually helping us
  • sometimes it feels like our brains are actively working against our healing journeys and that’s because they’re wired for survival.
  • I don’t need apologies from those who have hurt me- I apologize to myself for not speaking up and setting boundaries when needed.
  • we judge people we love because we want better for them, yet we get mad when people judge us or tell us how to live our lives because we know what’s best for ourselves. (plot twist: they already know, it’s just hard to change and develop new habits)
  • life on earth includes oceans, sunsets and sunflower fields, friendships, true love and hugs: it’s not all bad here

5/20/25

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Just been feeling kinda off, but also not? Like I’m not depressed or anxious which is nice- I’d like to say I’m content, but also I do have some stresses. We just found out our cat is diabetic; I’m happy that it is manageable and she will feel better soon once we start her insulin, but it’s just going to be a life adjustment for sure.

Luckily my parents had a diabetic cat as well, so my mom could help me out if we go on a vacation or something, but it’s a bit harder when it’s a family trip. Either way, we have our appointment at the vet on Friday to learn how to give her the shots and I will just ask my questions at that time. My coworker said her vet would have vet techs available to go to the home to give medication while they were out of town, so I’ll see if that’s an option if ever needed.

I’m not super overwhelmed by this; honestly I’m just glad we can afford this and give her this treatment. I just feel like I’m sitting in a “calm before the storm” type situation, but I’m realizing right now that it’s just my anxiety telling me I’m not allowed to feel calm or at peace. I’m just going to sit in this present moment and let myself enjoy the lack of anxiety.

FriYAY

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I’m laying in bed because I really don’t feel like getting up, but I’m reminding myself that it’s Friday and I have a nice weekend ahead of me. I also have therapy after work which I always look forward to!

This week was kind of a wild one at work, but it’ll be nice to finally have a day where I can just keep my head down and my headphones in and just get stuff done! I’m excited to see the sun shining, and I know today is going to be a good day!

Wednesday Wisdom

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Just thought I’d start the day with some quotes that I have found to be helpful for myself in breaking free from people-pleasing, anxiety and perfectionism!

• You will inspire some and trigger others; both are medicine.

• There’s no reason to be a people-pleaser- people are never pleased.

• Accept people as they are, but place them where they belong.

• Peace that costs you your power isn’t peace- it’s performance. You’re not here to perform.

• Worrying doesn’t take away tomorrow’s troubles, it just takes away today’s peace.