I can hear the rain falling outside as I lay in bed, and it makes me not want to get up. Luckily, I really don’t have to since I did laundry and grocery shopping already this weekend, but my ass will go crazy if I stay in bed all day.
Once I get up I’ll do some stretching, mainly because my neck/shoulders have been a bit tight. After that I need to burn another one of my 13 wishes that I wrote on the Winter Solstice. I saw this idea that you write 13 wishes down, fold them up real small, and then each day from December 24th- January 4th you pick one up (don’t read it) and burn it. Then on January 5th, that last wish left you’ll own up, and now that is the one that you have to make happen in 2026!
I like this idea, because those other ones that you burn are just being released to the Universe, and you just have to have faith and trust that those wishes are being worked on. Then it also brings down the endless “resolutions” to one true dream that you can dedicate time and focus to.
I’ll roll out of bed here soon, but for now I’ll be enjoying snuggles with my husband and listening to Bailey Sarian. I hope everyone has a relaxing Sunday.
I have transformed the part of myself that was scared to be seen. I posted my raw, filter free reels this year on IG as a way to just practice letting my real thoughts out in a public way. I transformed myself into a more confident version of myself, and I am much less fearful of sharing my thought and opinions. I no longer care if people don’t like me, because I know who I am and I have the best support around me.
I have learned to be more patient with myself. I’ve had some hard breakdowns this year for sure, and I felt frustration when they were the same ones I have had before, but there’s a reason they resurfaced. I now was able to move through those hard emotions with more maturity and understanding, and it slowly becomes less and less intense. I am learning how to be my own best friend and hype-woman, because I know I am a great hype-woman for my friends, and I deserve to give myself that same energy.
In 2026, the confident, best friend version of me is ready to take over. Hyping myself and others up, spreading joy and laughter, and just being a bright, bold light in this world. There’s no more time to shrink, because when we shine, we allow others to shine too.
I didn’t wake up with presents under the tree, but I still woke up with holiday glee! Today my husband and I are taking a little mini trip to enjoy some indoor water parks, swim up bars, and some shopping! See, Christmas can still be fun when you’re 30!
I’m currently waiting in the longest Starbucks line ever to get us some coffees for the road, and I’m honestly not even bothered by the line. I’m just enjoying the fact that it’s a peaceful holiday, and I get to enjoy all of my favorite things this holiday! I love water parks and shopping, and I especially love when I get to do those things with my favorite person!
The sun is shining through the sliding glass door across the room as I type this at my standing desk. It is Christmas eve, and although most may be wishing for a white Christmas, I am grateful that we are not getting any snow this year. This is definitely a selfish wish simply because my husband and I are taking a little mini-Christmas vacation tomorrow and we have to drive a couple hours away, so I prefer to have some clean roads for the trip!
I know sometimes weird feelings come up for me during the holidays, and this year has been a little of the same, but also a little different. Sometimes I find myself playing the comparison game: you know, wishing I had the huge family that got together with fun Christmas outfits and had kids running around screaming with joy. This year, I still do not have these things, but what is different is that I am just feeling at peace; I am feeling that I can fully lean into faith and know that I can trust in divine timing in my life, as it has all worked out better than I could have planned.
This holiday season, I have very close friends of mine who are pregnant, and another close friend who just welcomed her new baby to the family less than a month ago. I am absolutely overjoyed for all of them, especially because my pregnant friends have wanted to be pregnant for a long time! It also just gives me hope for my own future family planning, as sometimes I let fears creep in regarding that topic. I can’t lie, I have had moments where part of me is like “OMG I need to get pregnant now and start our family now!” but I quickly recognize that I am lost in comparison, and instead I just focus on leaning into the joy of how amazing this is for all of my friends!
We’re in the last month of the year, and I am feeling some weird closure around 2025 that feels weirdly final. I feel like I have learned a lot from repeated lessons this year, and one of the most often repeated lesson is that I should always just lean into faith over fear. I know that my thoughts and emotions can be a bit more extreme, so when I get stressed/anxious, I often catastrophize and get myself all worked up and it is always for no reason. In the end, things will work out how they are supposed to, and no matter what, I can always handle it. Life is chaotic and tragic and full of so many feelings, but it is also immensely beautiful and magical all at the same time.
As I go into 2026, I want to be my own best friend. I want to hype myself up the way that I hype my friends up and cheer them on. When my negative self-talk comes in and tries to make me feel stupid and ruminate in the failures, I know that it is just remnants of the traumatized me, and I just have to give myself love and grace. I do not hold anyone else to the insane, perfectionistic standards that I have created for myself, nor do I deserve to have that pressure on myself either. Being a perfectionist just breeds stress and tension, and I am letting go of this as I keep leaning into faith and divine timing.
2026 is a “1” year in numerology, which is looked at as a fresh reset- a true new beginning. I am all about signs from the universe and leaning into angel numbers, and I am leaning into that energy of new beginning and using it to boost my motivation! I am working on a creative project and I want to lean into that more in the new year, especially because I always feel so happy after I’ve made progress on it! It is also is a fun way for me to let go of perfectionism, and just focus on authenticity and joy.
It has been a while since I have made a longer post on here, and today felt like a great day to take some time to just reflect. It has been an interesting year, and I am excited that my husband and I are going to have a fun Christmas together and this will hopefully be the start of a new annual tradition! Sending love to everyone who needs a little extra this season, and I hope your holiday season brings you love and peace.
I’m literally so exhausted, I’m about to go to bed. It’s almost 9:30pm and I’m literally off for the next five days and I’m ready to kick off this time off with some rest. I want to get back on track with writing daily, even if it is just little blurbs like these. I’m sensing a social media break coming which typically means more writing, so we will see!
This is the only full day I have to work this week, so I’m looking forward to just going in & putting my head down & getting to work! I have a game plan & I am going to make sure it’s a positive, productive day. Tomorrow I work a half day, and then I’m off until Monday again! It’ll be so nice to have time off with my husband- even just hanging out this weekend was great!
Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.
First day of work- why do I feel like it was not very eventful? I feel like I don’t even really remember it, but maybe I was just so anxious I blocked it out LOL! I’m not a parent, and school was so long ago I don’t remember that at all.
A repeated lesson that keeps coming up for me is that worrying/stressing out is so not necessary. Fear and stress are part of the ego, while faith is part of the soul. I feel lighter and happier in general when I operate on a soul level, having faith in the divine.
Being in alignment with your own values and morals brings confidence. You don’t care what the outside people think, because you’re happy with the way you live your life.
Anger shows you where boundaries are not being set and/or met.
As hard as it can be, taking a breath / pause when you’re feeling overwhelmed actually does help.
The older I get, the more I learn that I can lean into faith instead of trying to control.
People will judge no matter what, just do what brings you joy.
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