
Tuesday Note:
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Woke up a bit anxious, but not entirely sure why. Sometimes a full moon can make you restless, so maybe I’m just sensitive to that. There has been some freezing drizzle and mist so I know I need to be extra careful driving this morning, maybe my body knew that was happening? Who knows LOL but I am headed out to work here in a few. Hope everyone is safe and has a good Monday!

Had a coffee date with a friend this morning! It was nice to catch up and enjoy starbucks inside! My husband and I just picked up groceries and I’m gonna head over to another friend’s house in an hour or so to hang out! Tomorrow I’ll also be catching up with another friend so I am just filling my cup with connection and fun this weekend! This is much needed after all the stress of January, so I’m praying it’ll be a nice reset and way to start off February!
It’s 0 degrees outside. On the plus side, the sun is rising and I got to see some pink clouds/sky on the way into work today. I also have a nice coffee for today that I will savor since tomorrow I’m going to participate in the nationwide “ice out” and not buy a thing! I’m also going to take the entire day off social media too, because I just need a damn reset and it feels like it should be part of the revolution to me lol!
I’m grateful I woke up in a warm bed next to the love of my life this morning.
I’m grateful that I can afford to treat myself to a coffee this morning.
I’m grateful I have a job to go to that, although it can be stressful at times, it funds my life and allows me to pay my bills.
I’m grateful for hot coffee on a freezing cold day.
I’m grateful for my “chill” playlist, as it will keep me grounded in my work today.
I’m grateful for empathetic, passionate people.
Some humans are caring, compassionate and kind, while (unfortunately) others lack empathy and fail to have any moral compass. The human mind is the most complex organ to exist; it has the capacity to have one believing that they themselves are “God,” while others feel so low, feeling like they are the scum of the Earth. The thing about the brain that is so wild is that whatever you believe, your brain will do everything in it’s power to confirm that belief. This miraculous organ will find evidence in your every day life to confirm whatever it is that you are focusing your energy on.
Being in America right now, there is a lot of unrest. With masked ICE agents detaining and murdering innocent people, it is extremely hard to trust any sort of government or media, but what we can trust is our intuition: none of this is right. Humans do not deserve to be ripped away from their families. Humans do not deserve to be murdered for standing up for what they believe in. Humans do not deserve to have their food, environments or algorithms poisoned with sickening, artificial sh*t. The heaviness of it all is too much for one person to hold; if we can come together with love and compassion, I believe we can see change- but it is also important that we are taking care of ourselves.
With everything going around on social media, please remember that you can be informed without having to watch the videos of people getting murdered. Yes, there are people who were there to witness it, and we are privileged to have not been there to see it, but constantly consuming this content is not helpful to our brain health. We need our brains functioning well to fight this fight, and the media knows how easy it is to keep people in an angry, fear loop. Our anger can be our friend, as it shows us where boundaries are crossed, but it also is important that we take action and make decisions with clear minds, as this is our future we are fighting for. During these times, it is important to take breaks from social media and spend quality time within your own family and community. Spreading love will do much more than the constant consuming of horrific content.
On a more “woo woo” note, astrologers have been saying that right now is the age of revolution; the last time that Pluto was in the sign of Aquarius was during the American Revolution and the French Revolution. Since Pluto has sat her happy ass back in the sign of Aquarius, it just may be time for some much needed existential shifts. I personally envision a world where people do care for people, the government minds it’s own business other than working for the people, and we have more transparency and control over where our money is going. We pay our taxes because it is illegal if we don’t, yet major government entities haven’t passed their budget audits in years, we have millions of dollars for war, our groceries are full of poison, and we are funding masked murderers in our streets? Does anyone really want this?
When we break it down, this is not about Republican vs. Democrat or Red. vs. Blue or whatever divide it is that the media is trying to sell you: this is about humanity vs. corruption. None of us want to be funding our own deaths. None of us want to be working two jobs in order to barely have enough money to put our artificial groceries on the table. None of us want to live in fear that our medication prices will suddenly sky-rocket to a point where we cannot afford to take them. None of us want to avoid medical care because we are fearful of the amount of medical debt we will accrue. None of us want to see families get ripped apart by masked, unidentified “law enforcement.” None of us want to pay more attention to screen than our own families, friends and loved ones. None of us want to live in a constant state of fear and anger, and none of us deserve it.
I am not a teacher, nor a scientist. I am not a congressman, nor a judge. I am not a policeman, nor an FBI agent. I am not a governor, nor am I on any board of anything. I am not an influencer, nor am I a celebrity. I am not someone who is known: I am just like you. I am a human being who is upset and overwhelmed by the state of the world just looking for some way to connect and create authentic conversation. Humans are the most complex, resilient beings, and although I do often feel “too soft for all of it,” I do know that I cannot remain silent/complacent as I am not in agreeance with what is happening. Like the great Martin Luther King Jr, said: “There comes a time when one must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular, but he must take it because conscience tells him it is right.”
So to all my softies who struggle when it comes to going to protests and interacting with social media, just know that you can still make a difference. Even if it just means taking time to write and reflect about what is happening, or it’s starting to research when the local primaries are and who is on the ballots, that is enough. Focusing on your local communities, even your own home, is where revolutions can start. We are in a country built on moving fast, getting money, and hustling our lives away, but that is not in our nature as mammals. I think it is important that we take time to reconnect with ourselves and with nature. We need to take moments of silence to calm our nervous systems. We need to practice mindfulness in moments of overwhelm, as that will become our superpower during these times of unrest. We have to be able to emotionally regulate and think clearly to make the changes that are truly needed, and that starts right in your own home; we can be the change we need to see in this world, one step at a time.
I ended up reaching out to my boss and letting her know I cannot come in today. I’ve been so overwhelmed at work lately, and these last seven weeks have been harder than the entire two years I’ve worked there. I’m glad I have understanding bosses, as I really haven’t had that in the past and I could have never asked for just a mental health day; but here I can be honest and just say “I need a day so I don’t burn out,” and they get it! Now I can rest and take this little break for myself and come back on Monday feeling recharged and ready to tackle the world!
Yesterday was definitely a hectic day at work, so I’m trying to find a way to stay more grounded today. Just gotta set hard boundaries and just do what I can do. It’s so easy for me to get worked up and put these insane expectations on myself, and I have to remember to pause and stop being so hard on myself.
The sun is shining, and I’m in bed soaking up the most of this rest I can before this busy’s week at work. Today is my brother-in-laws birthday, and we’re all having family dinner over at my in-laws place. Technically we will do a late lunch/early dinner as my husband has his first go-karting race of the season this evening! He races with one of our friends and I am hoping they can start off the season strong!
I’ve been trying to balance social media usage and I as much as I like making my reels and being on Instagram, I really think I need to just delete the app off my phone and take a break for a bit. I always notice when I return from a long break that I don’t have the same impulses to go click the app and scroll anymore, so I feel like that reset is needed. I can still be creative IRL as well as here on my blog.
It’s crazy how addicting social media is, and I am working on a creative project where I have a separate IG page for that endeavor, but I literally can just work on making content / posts from my iPad and then just login to schedule any posts, and log back off. I put limits on my phone for apps too, but I’m terrible and will just not listen to them so I feel like I just need a reset.
May everyone have a wonderful week ahead, and may we all remind ourselves that we are only one person and we can only do so much. We all deserve grace and the same respect and love we give to others.
Today I had a few friends over for a little vision boarding party! It was just four of us which ended up being very chill, and we all had a great time! I love making vision boards and just yapping w the gals while listening to a throwback playlist. It was definitely a great Saturday!
