Chapter 30

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Another year around the sun, my 30th one

This one feels different; mature. demure.

30 feels more settled and peaceful

30 feels like confidence; like I’m actually more than enough

30 feels how I want it to feel, because I no longer aim to please everyone around me; my only goal is to be authentically myself.

I was never meant to be everyone’s cup of tea

Nor do I actually want to be

In reality, I just want to be me

And so, this is 30

Friday / New Moon Continues

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Feeling fabulous this Friday because it’s about to be the weekend! Also feeling great because day by day I am leaning into faith and just trusting that all is exactly how it should be. I can only control my mindset and my responses to the world, so that is all I can really focus on controlling. I can’t control how other people act or treat others, but I can control how much energy and attention I give to others.

I am only putting time and energy in where it is being reciprocated, and I only want to focus on what is serving me, rather than wasting time on negative sh*t. How someone acts is none of my responsibility, but if someone treats me with disrespect, it’s my right to stand up for myself. I am in an era of being as authentic as possible, and that means I’m not longer prioritizing other people’s comfort over my own.