I’m exhausted, but I need to post because I forgot to post the last two days and I am feeling so many things right now but am also too lazy to organize my thoughts or even type them all out. At this point I just feel like sleeping to escape from everything,

Work has been the easy part of life, even with it being a bit overwhelming at times. Now I’m just overwhelmed by my actual life, as I am in three weddings within the next year (pending Covid crap), and although I am excited and happy for my friends I’m just worried about losing myself again- I already feel like I am in a way.

I don’t even know how to explain it, I just feel off right now. I feel like I forget how to dedicate time to myself and I start neglecting myself when big things are happening for my friends. I start to feel what they feel on top of my own normal life stress, and then I exhaust myself.

I know that I can fix the self-care aspect of this… I just need to care about myself a little more. This tends to happen when I get lost in everything else going on around me. I just need to learn how to balance life a bit better and I need to be more self-disciplined when it comes to getting my ass out of bed to workout or stretch or write or do something for myself.

I honestly didn’t even want to write when I started this blog post, and I ended up writing more than I thought I would, and I even feel a little better than I did when I started. I guess I need to have a little more faith in myself.