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How Would I Describe Myself to Someone?

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How would you describe yourself to someone?

I’m a complex human woman who feels everything very deeply: the pains and the joys all hit my brain, body and heart intensely.

I’m someone who craves genuine connection and gets overjoyed by the smallest synchronicities in life; yet I’m also someone who craves alone time, just chilling in my home in the presence of my fiancé and my cats.

I’m someone who cares deeply and is always rooting for everyone to be well-loved and happy. I want the best for everyone, including myself.

I’m a sensitive person with a variety of opinions that I cannot attach myself to as I am aware that we are ever evolving. I am someone who feels that living with an open mind and being empathetic is what humanity truly needs.

I laugh a lot. I cry a lot, luckily lately it has been tears of joy. I love the idea of healing and growing into the person I’ve always needed, and supporting others on their own journeys.

Cats

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Dogs or cats?

I’ve had cats my entire life, and my fiancé and I have three right now. We have thought about maybe having a dog in the future, but we’d prefer to have a large yard. Cats are waaaayyyy more low maintenance than dogs considering you don’t have to walk them outside, and when we have people come watch them, they don’t even technically have to come every day as long as the food and water is full! Cleaning litter definitely sucks, but also walking around and picking up poop outside doesn’t seem much better LOL.

Future

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What are you most excited about for the future?

When I look forward into the future, I’d have to say I’m most excited to start a family with my fiancé. I can imagine watching him transition into being a father and seeing how wonderful he will be with our kids. I see pajama dance parties and fun holiday traditions, all while having my favorite person on my team. As much as I look forward to those days, I am also happy to be exactly where we are. Right now we are enjoying our wedding season and the time that we have to dedicate solely to each other, prior to bringing children into this world.

Harmony=Letting Go

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What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?

I’d let go of my initial judgements towards the lives and opinions I don’t understand. I’d let go of the stereotypical beliefs that were passed onto me from previous generations and i healed caregivers. Instead, I’d lean in with curiosity and empathy, as that is where connection is born and resolutions can be found. This is something I am working on, and likely will be for my entire life considering humans come with egos- but we also come with souls.

Music Genre

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What is your favorite genre of music?

I really enjoy newer R&B music, leaning more towards alternative R&B. Currently I love listening to Tems and according to google she’s considered to be alternative R&b mixed w/ Neo soul. I enjoy artists like SZA, Masego, Mahalia, Rubii, ENNY, SiR, Smino, Tobi Lou and Mariah the Scientist. Lately I’ve also been enjoying reggae and afropop/afrobeats which Tems also incorporates into her music, but you can listen to artists like WizKid and Omah Lay to get a better feel for that type of music. I’m all for a good beat and a chill vibe!

Vacation

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Describe your most memorable vacation.

I have been blessed to do a little bit of traveling over the years. My fiancé and I have gone on a few caribbean cruises together, and although those are packed with adventure and seeing many places, I’ll always remember our trip to Los Angeles.

I remember planning the trip and booking two different hotels so that we could see a couple main attentions while we enjoyed our long weekend. For the first hotel, we were close to the Hollywood Walk of Fame. We got to go to the wax museum and for the first time I went to Ripley’s Believe it or Not museum. Mind you, I was 20 years old when this trip happened!

At our second hotel we stayed closer to Venice Beach. Our hotel was modern and had a bar attached, and I remember we got lucky one night and no one carded us! I ended up getting a few dirty shirley’s and I remember feeling so badass and free LOL!

We ended up renting bikes and rode down the Santa Monica Pier, and although this was probably my favorite date we ever had, I can’t help but remember when one of my contacts flew out of my eye and we had to uber back to the hotel to grab my spare one! I was so upset and panicky when in reality we had a solution- I just get triggered when things don’t go as planned.

At the end of our trip, we had enjoyed our time and the weather so much that we started looking at apartments about an hour outside of LA, but we never did end up making that big move. Looking back, I am really glad we ended up staying where we are, but I definitely want to take another trip there someday!

Prompt – Wasted Time

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How do you waste the most time every day?

I waste time scrolling through Instagram. Although I also post and make reels sometimes, I know that social media is harmful and it’s not something I want to be focused on all the time. I think about becoming a parent one day and I never want my child to feel like a phone or social media platform is more important than time with them.

I’ve put limits on my phone that I ignore, but when I actually delete the app and take breaks, I always feel so refreshed. If I know I plan to get rid of it when I have a child, why do I keep it now? Entertainment? Connection? The occasional hit of getting a few thousand views on a reel? Is that doing anything beneficial for me in reality? Nope!

I love being connected with some of the authors, podcasters and singers that I admire, but again I’m not actually connected to them. If they ever like a comment or comment back, it’s their management team anyways. In actuality, I am not missing out on anything- and if I really wanted to “stay connected,” I can continue to listen to their podcasts/music and can visit their own webpages.

I love the positive posts and the funny videos, but are they worth taking time away from real life goals and aspirations?

My Favorite Thing

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What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

My favorite thing about me is the same thing I used to despise: my sensitivity. I have always felt everything so deeply and fully, and it wasn’t until I had my emotions turned off that I recognized how much I needed them. Not caring and feeling numb made me feel so disconnected from myself and from the word around me, and that is something I never wish to experience again. In summary, I can bring it down to one of my favorite quotes: “it’s both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply.”

my tattoo I got in 2018