✨ w e l c o m e S e p t e m b e r ✨
may your September bring you peace, love and abundance. may you feel lighter and warmer as we enter into the fall season. may all of your worries fade away, and may you make room for the incredible opportunities that await you. may September treat you better than you expect it to. 🤍
What brings a tear of joy to your eye?
Since this year is my wedding year, I feel like I’ve been crying more tears of joy than I have in my lifetime. From trying on the dress for the first time, to visualizing walking down the aisle and up to the altar, the tears have been flowing steadily.
I used to hate my sensitivities as how often I cried at everything, but now when I find myself getting emotional, I meet myself with love. Although it can feel exhausting when I feel pain and sadness very deeply, it is absolutely incredible when I feel joy and love at that same depth.
This year I have found myself sitting in those moments of pure joy, and just allowing the tears to flow. Then when I actually think about my growth/progress with my mental health, the tears just flow faster. I used to feel so empty and numb, feeling like nothing in life would ever be enough, and that is no longer my reality.
Crying is honestly one of my favorite things about being a human, because it is sooo relieving. I’ve had those days/weeks/months of grieving losses throughout the years, and as much as I felt like I’d never ever be able to stop, I never held them back. So what if I cried everyday for months? I wasn’t going to shame myself for how much love I had for someone.
Love is a beautiful thing, and we all deserve to be well loved… especially by ourselves. I am leaning more and more into love and this journey has brought many tears of happiness along the way. I am so proud of who I am today and how dedicated I have been to the journey. I have talked about having my emotions basically turned off with medications, and that experience has made me appreciate my feelings and sensitivities so much more.
I am grateful to have access to therapy, as I continue to learn about and understand myself, it makes it easier to love myself. I am also grateful for podcasters/authors like Mel Robbins and Dr. Nicole Lepera, as they give resources for self-help and share their own experiences in a meaningful way to help others grow and be their most authentic selves.
Life is a wild ride, full of every single emotion you could ever imagine, and I am prioritizing joy wherever I can. We never know when life will end for us or those around us, so take this time we have now to let your loved ones know they’re loved by you. Spend time with the friends who you can be your full self around and where you’re laughing 70%+ of the time.
We are all going to cry tears of pain and sadness in this lifetime, which is why I embrace and enjoy the tears of joy when they come. I am blessed to be here in this moment, and I am so grateful for where I am today.
Why do you blog?
Blogging is a place where I can slow my thoughts down and truly be present. Whether I am venting, reflecting, being creative… it’s all accepted here. Blogging feels like freedom.
How are you feeling right now?
Currently frustrated as I am sitting on the phone with an insurance company with extremely incompetent processes and staff. One day I will take down the insurance world, starting with dental. The longer I work in this field, the more I realize that dental insurance is basically a scam. I can post a whole thing on that for anyone interested.
Also currently feeling grateful- I have a job that does have job security, and I am paid well and not micromanaged, which is truly a breath of fresh air compared to my past jobs.
I’m feeling tired as well. Clouds are gloomy today, sinuses are a little messed up with all this weather/temperature fluctuations so I’d rather be at home cuddling my fiancé.
So many feels today- but not as many as yesterday!! I was bawling my eyes out watching a video of a couple dropping off their kid at kindergarten, and just thinking about how emotional I will be as a mother- but it’ll be worth it.
What daily habit do you do that improves your quality of life?
Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude! It’s so easy to get lost in lack mentality, so I find it important to sit and actually recognize all the blessings around me. I am so grateful for my fiancé and really our relationship as a whole. I’m grateful we have our home and our cats and everything we could ever need within those walls. We have jobs and reliable vehicles. We have friends and family supporting us and our love. There is so much beauty around us, we just have to take the time to pause and see it.
What TV shows did you watch as a kid?
I watched a lot of Nickelodeon & Disney Channel as a kid. Occasionally I’d pop on Cartoon Network for some Powerpuff Girls, but most of my time was spent on the other networks. From Nick, I remember loving Rocket Power and still often think about finding the show and binging it LOL. I also watched Zoey 101, iCarly, Drake & Josh, Victorious and I remember really loving Full House! From Disney it was Hannah Montana, That’s so Raven, Suite Life of Zach and Cody, Lizzy McGuire, and really almost every show that was on during that era!
Tbh as an adult it’s just crazy to see how messed up the industry is after watching Quiet on Set and overall just seeing how a lot of child stars become addicts and then have scandals of their own. I can only pray that the truth continues to come out about the industry, abusers are exposed, and that the justice system will actually hold these abusive criminals accountable.
Deck: Gabby Bernstein’s “The Universe Has Your Back”
Take a moment to tune into the energy of love. When is a time where you felt the warmth in your heart? A time where your cheeks hurt because you couldn’t stop smiling? Was it during the holidays? At a concert? On a hike? Tap into that feeling, and sit with it. Let that feeling wash over your entire body, from your crown to your toes. Soak it in so deeply that you take this loving energy with you today, spreading it to any and all who come your way.
The world always needs more love, start with yourself. 💖
What’s your favorite time of day?
Lately I’ve been loving evenings, because that’s when I get to cuddle up with my fiancé and watch Game of Thrones together. This is my first time watching it, and I’m really enjoying it! I had tried to watch it with him years ago, but I just couldn’t get into it- now we’re almost done with season six!
I also enjoy mornings when I don’t have to go to work. For example, right now it’s 6:51am and I have nowhere to be today. I get to lay in bed and write in my blog, while listening to this YouTube fireplace I had originally put on to fall asleep. Peaceful mornings like these are also quite enjoyable.
I release any tension stored within my shoulders and hips, letting go of the traumas that wish to stay buried within me.
I release any shame that my inner child carries, letting go of hurtful words and beliefs that were never mine to hold onto.
I release the limiting beliefs that float around in my brain, letting go of perfectionism and fears that only hinder me from following my dreams.
I accept and am open to the loving support from the universe, please allow me to be a light in this world.
I accept and am open to the abundance that is waiting for me, please allow me to make room for the gifts that are meant for me.
I accept and am open to peace and harmony, please allow me to release any blockages that are keeping me from that state of mind.
I am so grateful to be here healing and growing. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
What’s your favorite recipe?
I am not one who normally bakes, but I love baking our family poppyseed bread recipe. It’s always a favorite at holiday parties! This year I may try something different & make them into muffins- we will see!
finding light in the dark 