What could you do differently?
I could complain less when I am bothered. I know it’s good to vent, but ruminating and giving too much energy to something irrelevant is not necessary. I can always redirect those thoughts to more grateful, positive ones as well. I do this sometimes, but also sometimes I just full send on the complaints LOL.
If you had a freeway billboard, what would it say?
I’d want a billboard that says: “what you focus on will amplify- be mindful.”
Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?
I definitely spend more time thinking about the future, and I think it just comes from my control issues/anxiety. I find myself worrying about worst case scenarios sometimes, and I just have to redirect myself to the present and be grateful for the life I have today. I also have to trust that I can handle whatever challenges life brings.
What colleges have you attended?
I went to one community college and got my associates degree and then stopped as I needed to work full time to pay bills being out on my own. I paid for my degree outright with no loans! So proud of that.
Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?
When I am dancing and singing around the house, I consider that to be playtime. I love just being goofy and enjoying good music. I also love when I can do some vision boarding/collages as I feel like I’m in elementary school again! This year I started a journal that way I can fill the pages with visions and goals throughout the year!
What makes you feel nostalgic?
I feel nostalgic whenever I go to a roller rink or when I hear some early 2000s Outkast and Black Eyed Peas. Also we had disposable cameras at our Til Death Do Us Party, and that gave me such a sense of nostalgia.
What are your biggest challenges?
I’d say one of my biggest challenges is getting into healthy routines like working out and cooking. I never grew up eating super healthy or watching anyone prioritize health, wellness or the importance of movement. It’s something I want to do, and I have slowly been working towards.
Part of the reason this is a challenge is due to another issue I struggle with: lack of self trust. I am someone who feels better when I am in control, and I am someone who can be very hard on myself. With those things being said, I have definitely taken a diet a little too seriously in the past, and it was very unhealthy. I was losing weight and seeing results, and people around me were commenting and encouraging me- but in reality I was barely taking in 800 calories a day, and I was extremely strict with myself.
I know that if I want to be healthy, it has to be a lifestyle that I live. It can’t be something that I am tracking and counting; it can’t come from me shaming myself, it has to come from love. I want to love myself and my body enough to feed it the nutrients it truly needs and to workout regularly. I also want to trust myself to be able to make a change without becoming obsessed. Luckily I am still in therapy, and I get to see my therapist on Friday so we can discuss the goals for this new year.
If you started a sports team, what would the colors and mascot be?
Mascot has got to be the Angels- and colors are white and gold.🤍✨
You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like?
I’m picturing a sun room/library/plant vibe going on. I want at one wall that is filled with books from floor to ceiling. I want big open windows, maybe even a glass door that goes out onto a patio with a cute hammock swing and a garden. I wand shelving on another wall for some indoor plants and cute decor. I’d have a comfy love seat that’s a light pink or maybe a beige color – I picture it being kinda shaggy like. I also need a cute coffee table and overhead lighting. I also want a standing desk for my writing!
What is your all time favorite automobile?
This is definitely a prompt for my husband, because I don’t know shxt about cars. He loves them though- hence our ‘92 miata chilling in the garage waiting to be worked on LOL. I know his dream is some sort of Ferrari; of course I have no clue which model, but I remember we saw one parked up near our favorite breakfast spot and my husband was so excited to see it.
As for me, I like dreaming big too, and I love the looks of the Mercedes G-Wagon. I realize there’s so many models and what not and also I realize I will never have this car unless I am literally rich af, but ooooooof I’d love driving around in one of those. I love the desert sand color or the kalahari gold.
finding light in the dark 