I’d say one of the hardest decisions I had to make was when I sought out help for my mental health and decided to take medication for my anxiety. I had been completely against medication for most of my life (I was 20 at the time, so this is about nine years ago), so starting it felt like I was going against my entire belief system. However, I definitely needed the assistance, as my panic attacks were so frequent that there was no way I ever would have calmed down enough to be able to rationally work on healing. I am blessed to say that after years of trying different medications and seeing different health care providers, and continuously going to therapy to this day, I have been off of medication for a couple years now.
I am glad that I was able to step out of my comfort zone and get help for myself, and I am grateful that my (now) husband was there for me through the entire journey. I am also happy that I was able to see a new perspective on these medications, because if I ever need them again in my life, I won’t be so hesitant or afraid, as I know myself and I know I have great support around me.
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