I’m on the train to Chicago to meet up with one of my best friends for a city adventure day! We’re pretty much playing it by ear, but I’m sure we’ll end up at the new huge Starbucks that recently opened at some point today. I’m excited to be out and having a good time for the weekend; I think I deserve it after working 50+ hours this week.
Work has been stressful, yet also manageable at the same time. I’m having an internal battle with myself when it comes to the hours I’m currently working. One one hand, it’s great that I’m there open to close every day because then I know nothing is getting messed up, but if I want this to be my long-term job, I’m not going to want to work like this all the time. I’m already exhausted as it is, and I don’t want to burn out and quit because I know that this is a great place to stay.
I get paid well at my job and have plenty of flexibility/freedom. Not only does the doctor I work for let me take off whenever I want, but she has a house in Hawaii and she’s always encouraging her employees to just to find some time to take a week off and go stay at her place. I want to do that so bad, but also can’t afford a flight right now. Not only that, but I have plans to visit friends in far places come 2020 so I’m already going to be paying for multiple flights.
I’ve been really focusing on the blessings in my life. I feel that I cannot complain or be upset when I’m seeing the people around me in such shitty situations. I hate when my friends are struggling and when I can’t do much to help. Selfishly, I also hate how much I’m still letting their lives affect mine- which is why I’ve been trying to focus on the positive aspects of my life and life in general. I’m tired of being stressed and upset over things that don’t even directly have an effect on my life.
Luckily today I am spending the day with a drama-free, smart, responsible, adventurous friend! That is what I need in my life and whenever we hang out, even if it’s just chilling in her living room, it’s always a great time. We’re always laughing and encouraging each other to keep staying strong and being positive in life. It’s important to spend time with people who genuinely care about you and who don’t add stress to your life. ♡